QUOTE(somewhataut @ Jul 26 2024, 04:30 PM)
Well there is a battle going on in my life, it’s very obvious
one is trying to destroy me and the other one protects me, I have always thought god is the one protecting me.
If it was god that mean god is in me then why do I suffer anhedonia?
If not god then what is protecting me? Secret societies? Why?
I do not know what battles you go through. Neither would I want to intrude.
There is only ONE God and God has always have our best interests, if you are truly saved.
The fact you claim you suffer anhedonia, I take it as face-value its true.
But why God ALLOWS you to go through it.. there are a few reasons (referenced through the BIBLE)
1. Jonah - Turmoil and Suffering - Disobedience of doing God's will
(The entire book of Jonah is straightforward, and you can read it to understand the context)
2. Job - Turmoil and Suffering - The trying of his faith and trust in God, and Job's learnings of God.
Job 42:3,"Who is he that hideth counsel without knowledge? therefore have I uttered that I understood not; things too wonderful for me, which I knew not." - You do not understand God's purpose of you going through it, but there is obviously something you need to learn from it. Have you trusted God enough to go through it? Have you started to pray more or read the Bible more to find His answers?
Job 42: 7,"And it was so, that after the Lord had spoken these words unto Job, the Lord said to Eliphaz the Temanite, My wrath is kindled against thee, and against thy two friends: for ye have not spoken of me the thing that is right, as my servant Job hath"
3. Child of God - God is punishing you because you have not repented from your ways
Hebrews 12:6-8 ,"For whom the Lord loveth he chasteneth, and scourgeth every son whom he receiveth. If ye endure chastening, God dealeth with you as with sons; for what son is he whom the father chasteneth not? But if ye be without chastisement, whereof all are partakers, then are ye bastards, and not sons."
If you truly are saved, God will punish you so you get corrected. And that is ONLY IF YOU ARE TRULY SAVED.
Like the Israelites, roaming in the wilderness to find the promised land, we all at times also are asked to roam in the dessert as we grow in faith. You say you are suffering(Tribultations) ?
Romans 5:3-5 ,"And not only so, but we glory in tribulations also: knowing that tribulation worketh patience; And patience, experience; and experience, hope :And hope maketh not ashamed; because the love of God is shed abroad in our hearts by the Holy Ghost which is given unto us."
Joseph was faithful to God, but was thrown into the prison to suffer for being wrongly accused.
Again, how much are you relying on God.
Psalms 55:22,"Cast thy burden upon the LORD, and he shall sustain thee: He shall never suffer the righteous to be moved."
1 Peter 5:6,7,"Humble yourselves therefore under the mighty hand of God, that he may exalt you in due time: Casting all your care upon him; for he careth for you."
Like I said, the FACT you feel empty, is probably because you DO NOT have GOD.
because IF you HAVE GOD, you would have known GOD BOUGHT YOU FOR A PRICE!! YOU WERE BOUGHT FOR THE PRICE OF HIS SON!.
Maybe, its really time pray to God, ask Him to guide you, and accept Jesus Christ to save you.. ask for forgiveness as a sinner.. and accept Jesus Christ as the one that paid for your sins through His death and resurrection..
let me know if you need to talk to me.. pm me and ill share my number to you