Dear Dads,

I have posted in this thread previously.
I have been blessed with a beautiful child. He is growing well and will be 2 soon.

Unfortunately, my relationship with my wife has been quite rocky. I don't know who to talk to, and I have been keeping a lot of things inside me, and at times I end up thinking nonsense.. Not sure if I am depressed or it is just frustration.

My wife is probably going through postpartum since the birth of our son. It has been almost 2 years now, and we have zero intimacy and talk less etc.

I have tried my best to be a good husband and father. I am always spending time with my son, and I make sure I help out with house chores.

Both of us are working. However, I have a larger workload due to my position and responsibility at my workplace. On top of that, I am also working hard on my freelance projects. All these, are for my son and wife - for a better future. That does not mean she is not busy. She is too, and that is why I make sure I am always around the house after work and during weekends.

We have not gone out for a meal for almost 2 years. We have not gone anywhere in fact...

We are lucky we found a good babysitter last year who handles our son during the weekdays. And I thought that would really ease the stress on my wife. Unfortunately no.

My wife and I have been together for more than 10+ years.
Since our high school days.

Over the last 2 years, we have argued more times than we have ever done in this last decade, and it really hurts me that we are going through this.

The word divorce often comes up whenever there's a heated argument. And it is just eating me up from inside.

The good thing is we both make sure our son is loved, and we give him 100% of our love. But we are just living as two alien adults in the same house now. I have been sleeping separately for more than a year now. And  I can't remember the last time she sat and had a loving conversation with me.

I used to be the one initiating conversations.. but I think I just ran out of steam.

There's no immediate danger in our relationship... but I wish things were back like before. The truth is, I am very, very attracted to my wife despite post-pregnancy, and I love her dearly. Never once have I thought of 'this is over'.

But, I just feel so estranged now, that I feel so left out and lonely. I think I really need someone to talk to...

Apologies I had to vent out here... Not sure if any other dads went through or going through the same situation. I noticed that we, men tend to be silent about these matters and suffer alone.

And whenever we open up, our peers tend to just laugh it off. Or say, it will be Ok