I study at Sunway University second year now (behind age) and first year I met an Iranian guy in hostel cafeteria (I'm Malaysian-Chinese). He was studying at Monash got just one and a half year left. He talked to me when we were waiting for food and he was very nice and funny, spoke very good English, nice clear voice, I just immediately fall in love with him, his eyes when he look at me, his personality. Maybe I was very stupid but instead of takeaway I just sat with him and ate, gave him my number.

Then we went out a lot and talked a lot on the phone, he was very good at this stage like perfect boyfriend. Sometimes almost like he treat me too nice, get me too much stuff, pay for everything, take me many nice places. I always tell him not do so much, not spend so much money, I feel almost guilty because I do very little in return. On my birthday he send me a huge bouquet of flower to hostel room, ask me come down elevator and give to me. I so pity he had to carry it from Sunway Pyramid to taxi to there, he got biggest one possible.

He told me I'm his first girlfriend and I was very surprised because he very handsome. I tell him I wait until marriage and he very respect that say he waited too until he was at an age can marry and support a girl, before just focus on studies because don't want to disappoint parents but now his final year. He said he wanted a serious relationship.

He ask me if I got ex before and I say one but nothing serious. He asked if physical and I just said I'm still virgin.

We got so serious after this he even buy me diamond necklace from Sunway Pyramid. I feels so bless to have him, he very smart and seem like perfect guy. Send me "Morning <3" every morning and "Goodnight, sweet dreams!" sort of messages every night. I feel so much comfort from his messages. When I got exams he walk me to uni and wish me luck, I was so touched.

Finally we so confident we marry got physical and had sex after around one year of dating. I want to wait until marriage but confident he is one.

One time during sex I mention something about my ex and he got so shocked that I did something physical with my ex. He said if do that not virgin already. It's not actual sex and I tell him thinking he will understand and forgive me but he acted very severe, his face and voice suddenly changed into something so scary like I've never seen him before. Like I am dirt.

He suddenly changed right then. Just completely change. Didn't reply my messages. One day I call him almost 100 times cry all day. I do it for months! Every day. He never pick up phone but sometimes reply messages with short reply. Sometimes he say sorry and he wish I can be happy and those messages hurt even more because I remember his old self our old memories. Even now I am crying typing this even though almost 1 year since we break up.

I failed a semester and went home because was scared I would see him at hostel.

Around this time he graduated and work at PwC but got some visa issues because bought property here but can't work but use some contacts to get job. He so cold to me I call him every day he never pick up. I leave hundreds of messages he just reply sometimes very short. Finally say he want to break up properly, I knew we break up because never meet or talk by voice but he never type it out but finally he type it, I almost wanna kill myself when he say that, he say he going back to Iran.

I beg him at least meet me before go but he left without meeting. I removed him from facebook when we argue and I felt very sad so can't know what he is doing. I meet his Iranian female relative here I speak to her and she say he won't come back, maybe will get married to some Iranian girl home soon that his mother choose for him who got no ex-boyfriends. She tell me very directly and it break my heart.

I feel so heartbroken, feel like dirt. Almost want to kill myself. I try to be angry at him but cannot, he is perfect boyfriend when he love me I instead feel just angry at myself and my ex-boyfriend.

Its been over 1 year already but every day I feel very pain. I wake up every morning and feel pain when there's no message from him. I think about him all day, think about him at night. Sometimes i'm very stupid stay up late thinking maybe he will say Goodnight to me. I think maybe he is thinking of me. Even now so late i am awake thinking of him and messaged him on facebook. I can't talk about this to anyone. I feel so sad I can do nothing to get him back. I feel if his facebook got picture of him getting married to an Iranian girl some day I will kill myself. I'm so scared of that I can never forget him now i will miss him forever. I ask him sometimes to just call me so I can hear his voice but he never replies. I miss him so much what do i do?

Let me be the asshole.

Welcome to the real world, little kid. You have just had your first small taste of the real world whereby Disney fairytale does not exist. That's why they're called fairytale.

The guy might be a douche, but you're equally naive thinking that life is a fairytale and that you'll find the PERFECT person. Reality check - there is no PERFECT person, everybody has their flaws.

Though the Iranian guy probably felt so good after having sex with you, hahaha. You keep on blaming yourself, you keep on saying he's the perfect guy, but let me put this in your head - what makes you so sure that he's never had sex/had a gf before?

I call bullshit. Most of the foreigners in Malaysia are just after short term sex with the local girls. Hell, not just in Malaysia, it's the same everywhere else in the world - most of foreign students/expat workers in a country are just after short term relationships with the local girls because they're humans, they need companions during their stay. That's why there's so many bangla workers going to prostitutes in kl.

I've seen waaaaay too many local girl gets heart broken by foreigners (worse was a bangla worker in Brothers car accessory shop whom had a wife and 2 kids in Bangladesh and was dating and banging a local student in a university at subang jaya, how do I know this? That bangla dude is my friend, hahaha).

Feel free to kill yourself if you feel the world is harsh and cruel. If you don't kill yourself, u better toughen up and deal with it - there's more to come once you grow up and explore the world. Of course, there are beautiful things about this world too, but don't be delusional thinking that there's no bad things in this world. There's a reason why people always say the world is unfair and it's survival of the fittest.