jdreamer,
when i say rearrange your room is if your room have got lots of memory of her. as for my case, me and my ex-bf studied together in a foreign land. so he's always hanging around in my room. so i gotta rearrange my room.

maybe you ought to take 1 or 2 weeks vacation back hometown and let yourself relax. once you are home, surprisingly you will feel more relax because you have your family loving you.

yes, i totally understand the insomnia feel. even how sleepy or tired you are, you just couldnt fall asleep and just couldnt put your mind to rest. tell you frankly, you MUSNT let yourself fall sick at this critical period. cos if you do fall sick (like me), it's gonna be one hell harder than the current condition. when i fall sick, i couldnt sleep even after taking medicine, even cough and flu medicine. it's such a torture to feel so drowsy and tired and sleepy but just couldnt put my mind to rest.

it's especially lonely at midnight when everyone is asleep but you stayed awake. my advice for you, is, buy lots of VCD/DVD, especially those dram with episodes, like TVB drama. then watch it when you couldnt sleep. buy those with episodes whereby you just couldnt stop watching, and watch it at night when you couldnt sleep. it does make you feel better. buy some great novels that you find entertaining and read it. at least, by doing this, you can put your mind away from thinking about her. other than making your brain busy with other stuffs, there is no way that you can get her out of your mind, even how hard you try.

you just gotta slowly bear with it. sooner or later, you will get used to it and you will kind of feel fed up with it until one time, you will suddenly say "give up lah, i dont wanna torture myself anymore". that is the point marking your first step to road of recovery.

anyway, as for the time frame, if you couldnt do it now, just leave it. wait until you calm down, then you think about it. now is just too soon for you. maybe you need more time. dont worry, you have me to help you through.

Actually, I doubt going back to my hometown is the right choice (but I've bought the ticket home). Because.. we were always in my room, talking, playing etc. I really dont know. And my room was still packed with her stuffs. I dont know how will I react when I see those stuffs....

Anyway, I'm still feeling like fainting all the times. Before coming to Kch, I went for a body checkup.. and doctor said that I have not enough glucose in my blood but I thought I'll be okie. But then, these few days.. I really feel like fainting. And my friends told me its the glucose that caused this. I guess I'm going to buy some glucose drinks later...

This post has been edited by jdreamer: Sep 19 2006, 01:52 PM

yes, i think it's the glucose and lack of sleep. drink some sweet drink or take sweets. take care of yourself. believe me, if you fall sick now and even if you are admitted to hospital, she will not come visit you. even if she did, it's just out of her PITY. no point, you really gotta learn to take care of yourself and you really gotta learn to be strong.

even if you've got no appetite to eat, drink some juices like carrot juice, tomato juice, glucose, malta, chocolate and things like that. energy bar also can... dont ever resort to alcohol cos if you are drunk you will suffer more when you are awake.

when you are back hometown, pack up your stuffs that she gave, then rearrange your room. change the bedsheet, maybe buy another extra pillow or boolster and things like that. as long as you change some part of your room in order which will not make you remember of her, then it will feel better.

I think thats the problem, because I dont eat sweet stuffs. I just dont like them thats why. I know that she wont be visitting me or anything. Yesterday when I wanted to cross the road, a motorbike passed me and accidentally scratched my leg. It was bleeding and I just automatically grabbed my hp and then smsed her about it. After that, I realised that I might sound like seeking sympathy from her so, I didnt say much when she replied.

I'll try to pack all her stuffs into a box or something then put it away.

Btw, I wonder if u guys still welcome me in this thread... if not, I'll leave. But... I have nowhere else to post all these. If I do it in a new thread, Im afraid many 'kopitiam' users will abuse the thread..

you are most welcome in this thread. i believe, mandy and the others will also welcome you in this thread too. hey, dont think so negatively. she only left you because she dont think that she wanna spend her life with you, but she's still your friend. as for us, even if you are no longer in LDR, you are still welcome in this thread.

well, take good care of yourself. many other people who care and love you. dont be so careless and harm yourself. i'm sure you wouldnt want her to feel guilty for leaving you, right? well, she have said her reason for leaving you ---> she has changed. people do change. i believe when she said she has changed, she really mean it. because it's kind of hard to let go a 4 years relationship for a guy who is not even her bf and things are uncertain with her yet. so, i guess, she really have changed and whether you wanna accept it or not, one of the obstacle of LDR is that feeling then to fades away. just take it as a way for you to learn and improve yourself, ok? be positive and stay positive.

This post has been edited by miyoko: Sep 19 2006, 02:54 PM

You know i wanted to comment something about this thread, but i can't! i just can't do it! Arghhhh! This too much for me to take, my brain hurts.

*Cupid Corner has the ability to derail UW capabilities.
*UW suffers from headaches everytime he visits CC.

what you want to comment?What's ur problem?

Anyway,miyoko,im glad that you're okay with your dear adi..

This post has been edited by max_cjs0101: Sep 20 2006, 12:02 AM

thanks max. glad that things are ok...

hey, jdreamer, where are you? not posting anything here?

Sorry, I'm still around. This morning, I smsed her and wish her good luck in her test and she seems to be quite happy about it.. But still, I have some kind of feeling like... I wont have the chance anymore. Maybe I'll just maintain one morning sms & one night sms. Let her know that Im still there for her.

jdreamer, dont worry about the future as it will worry about itself. whethere will there be any chance go get back together, that will depend on a little on fate and how much effort you put in. Do whatever you like but do keep in mind one thing, dont expect too much as you'll get disappointed once again

jdreamer, you're doing great! Keep up the good work. We will always be here if you need someone to talk to.

Yea, thanks alot. I'm happy to have u all.

But anyway, I have that feeling because .. whenever I send any caring sms, she will not reply. Like if I send "sleep earlier" or.. something like "rest more". Thats why.

This post has been edited by jdreamer: Sep 20 2006, 05:44 PM

Oh..i understand that..sometimes it happens to me oso..dont worry so much la k..time,time..

Yea, okie. I guess this is going to be a long investment plan. I cant be too rush or else I'll be the one who ruin everything again.

But anyway, guys, dont worry about me. I'll be okie. I wont do anything stupid to hurt myself. Im fine here. Thanks a lot.

Jdreamer... Take k of urself ok?
As long as u tried ur best i believe you will never regret for it... U r always welcome here and whenever u nid to talk,im sure u will get a pair of ear from us... Even i rarely reply here already but im still always hanging around

Yea, I'll take care. Thanks..

2 years 3 months 15 days and still going


all the time LDR

gambateh u all

jdreamer,
glad that you are doing fine. however, please remember not to put too much hope because the higher the hope, the higher your expectation will be and the more painful when you fall.

i would just wanna remind you that when a person's heart/feel has changed, there's nothing much that you can do to get it back. if she wanna be set free, then just let her go. after all, there's still a lot of trees out there. it's not like you cant live without her. i know it's kind of hard for you to accept this at the moment, but as time pass, and your wound starts to heal, you'll come to realize this.

it's not your lost for losing her. peopl do change over time. what she did was what she thought right for both of you. because she thinks that since she has lost her feelings for you and has started to fall for another guy, then she doesnt wanna waste your time and set you free. if you guys are fated to be together, you will be together eventually. but if you guys are not fated to be together, no matter how hard you push also no use.

i always believe that we will get to learn from experience. Maybe she is God's plan for you in order for you to prepare yourself for a true one that God has arranged for you. take things easily and try to be optimistic and think positively.

i'm sorry if the things i said today dont sound good. however, i'm just worried that you might get hurt if you put too much hope in it. all the best yeah.

I know what ur trying to tell me and I do understand. Actually.. I know it well that I wont be getting a second chance anymore. Its just I wanted to use this 'waiting' reason for me to heal, so that I dont need to forget everything in such a short period. Honestly, after this breakup, I foundout a lot of bad things about me. I realised a lot of wrongdoings by me.

Maybe ur right about God's plan.

Anyway, its Thursday.. a week already, 7 days of different life.

you dont need to forget. it's impossible to forget. nobody can forget intentionally. you have to accept and learn to live with it. everyone have different way of healing. so in your case, if you think this is the best way for your healing, by all means, go for for it. remind yourself that you target now is to HEAL yourself. your priority is not her anymore. now, work on healing yourself. dont have to keep counting of the days of your breakup. it will only remind you of the breakup and end up feeling pain over it. frankly speaking, i used to remember the date that my ex-bf break up with me. but gladly say, i've forgotten it now.