QUOTE(eksk @ Mar 15 2016, 10:47 AM)
i see a lot of my peers from school, especially who are earning big bucks flying here and there. i see ppl around me doing well buying big houses and big car. i know i should be very very motivated to provide from my children but i can't be bothered to stay late at work. i rather go home and play with them .. anyway work is a dead end job with no job security.. i'm almost in my 40s and i fear i;m letting my sons down... the way things are going i'm not sure i can provide tertiary education and plan for my retirement at the same time...
i love my kids but i'm wondering why i don't have the drive like others to work their socks off and earn big money for them.. i feel i'm letting them down.. i forsee in the future, my sons asking why i cannot afford to send them overseas..

bro. i was there before and sometimes i still go there. but first of all. its nice to say dont compare yourself with others. but it always happens, its human nature. so what i do is, dont compare yourself with only one group of people. if you look at people who are earning big bucks, then compare with those earning small bucks. you may not be the most successful richest dude out there, but you most definitely are not the poorest one. i have a buddy who is around 23 and earning only RM900 and supporting his 3-4 siblings with the oldest in uni (he pays for the tuition). i dont have any idea how he does it... but suffice to say, he doesnt have much. also know many cousins and friends earning around 2-3k or less, but still support their families. i also know rich people, whole family working to the bone. when they all sit together the feeling of family isnt even there. feels like sitting in a meeting room. so everything got pros and cons. dont just look at the good and think, oh so nice, he's got it good. very high chance many are looking at you and thinking the same thing.
one of my favourite quotes which changed the way i think is.
"When I hear somebody sigh, ‘Life is hard,’ I am always tempted to ask, ‘Compared to what?’" — Sydney J. Harris
for school, when the time comes they can get a loan, or who knows even a scholarship. if you dont have the strong motivation to work, then push your kids and motivate them to study. one thing i plan to do with my son when he's older (as recommended by my aunty with very smart kids) is to sit down with them when they do their work. you can read a book, or newspaper, or study yourself. but when they are working, dont be lepaking watching tv, playing ipad, chatting away on the phone or whatever because they will feel they are missing out on the fun and just rush through everything so they can be free and join you. so when its their time for work, you also logout and sit there with them.
anyways just my 2sen, but hope can give you something to think about. and if you ever feel you cant provide for your kids or your kids feel ungrateful and that you arent giving them anything, then go visit rumah anak yatim.