We all soo many people went to tony's, then got complimentary bread. So come the bread in front of me I try cut la. My cutting skills not like some gay hotel waiter la, tapi juz want to cut wat. cincai do. And then she (sitting beside meh) say she'll cut. Telling me i got no skill cut. Then I give her la. She cut cut.. half way stop.. give back to me. Say malas mau cut. Then I give her a stare, the one which looks like "what the..." kinda stare.. Then she terus rage! WHY U ALWAYS LOOK AT ME LIKE THAT? ... I... thought.. she jokin.. Coz I was obviously jokin la. I tell her, "why? u got problem?" and suddenly she terus mood swing. Dun wan to talk with me.. Her mood damn out already that night. I tot, she playing along. But that night.. even after dinner.. she dun wan to talk to me I was so depressed! Sum more balik office kena marah sama boss. Felt like whole world shitting on mah face

Thanks man. This is exactly what I'm trying to do. I am very glad that what I'm doing is in line with at least another persons view in here

That gives me confidence. Thanks!

And yeah, I am prepared for anything


thanks man! I was pretty disappointed when i see replies here which always seem to bring me down I thought I didn't want to post here because the last time i read this topic,

was everything that kinda hurts. But thankfully, there are people like u guys! thanks! will keep u posted.

In fact, I'm here to actually write an update. haha.


Haha. Got la a few.

Company Trip

So, 2 weeks ago my whole department went for a company trip. She and I, yeah of course went la. We're on the same team a part of a bigger department. this years company trip had a theme. I dunno if i should disclose here or not, because if i did, then definitely kantoi already. Haha. Anyway, just to make the story interesting, I'll just disclose. But please, please.. I beg you, if you caught any hint from this story, please keep it to yourself. Last thing I'd need is for her to be directed to this thread. Then become like Densha Otoko already. HAHAHAHAHA.

Okay2, so the theme was _______. So everybody rocking up all the_______ outfits blahblahblah. Anyway, she that night, was CUTE! She was wearing a normal ____________. CUTE.. damnn.. She came up to see me at one point and be we had some small talk. And I told her I really liked her ribbon. She be like tqtq haha like that.

Later that night, we all had 3 hour dance floor time. I was going crazy. And the best thing was, I was always dancing right beside her. At times, I had to stop to catch my breath, but there she was calling me out to the dance floor again. She won't give me chance to rest at all haha. Something that turned me off that night was that, I kept getting these cramps >< pathetic yea i know. But she was always there. "You want water?" "you need anything?" okayy, that felt peaceful. haha. She even pulled this friend of hers, who wasn't much of a dancer, shy2 type like that, and pushed her to me, told me to give her a good time. hahaha.

And then, she wanted a selfie with me. So I was like, yea mann lets! Remember that chinese friend of mine whom I'm close to? Yea she told her to take it for us. But later, wanted him to join the selfie. Aiyarrkk.. I was liekkk.. ok la nvmind la. We all a team anyways and this guy close to me. So there it was. A 3-selfie. hahahaha. And that, was the highlight of the company trip.

**so sorry I have to blank some stuff out. I think its too dangerous.

Not Feeling Well

So we all just got back from company trip, to the dreadful work (T_T). And she caught a flu. I was on concerned-mode all the way. Her nose kept running and we all ran out of tissues. I felt so worried. Kept on nagging her to go see doctor, get MC, screw work etc. But she damn stubborn. She always likes to act tough and strong. And like the flu will go away tomorrow blahblahblah. Sum more that Monday, she didnt even bring her sweater, which made things worst. that night, she went back early because everybody could notice shes not doing well. Later that night, I texted her to rest well. Go see Doctor get mc and all.

"I will I will. Thanks for your concern (;"

Me being weak with her smileys, "Biasa saje"

And then she scold me for acting cool lulz. Anyway, next morning, she did say not confirmed yet coming to work or not. So I told her if shes still coming, please bring everything that she needs. her sweater, tissues and all. And she replied, "working from home today. Going to see doctor". I was so relieved. Told her to rest kaw2. She said she will she will etc. And then at 3am, when I finally reached home. Saja la open whatsapp, see all the old conversations between us, and suddenly her status, "online". I terus whatsapp her, "HOI. GO REST LA". She replied, "GOING TO!" haha.

So next day she came in, still got traces of flu. But better la. I kept asking her how shes feeling. "Better la". Good. But lunch dinner all she say want porridge. I dont remember wat happen during lunch, but at dinner, the team was just asking each other where to eat. I looked at her asked her where she CAN eat. She be like cincai cincai and we all went to this hawker place, thinking there got soup and all for her. But actually, everybody else wasnt that attentive to her needs, I was the only one, I think. So they all macam x kisah wanna eat where also. And then when we arrive at the place, she looked at the menu, and she told me,

Her: eh i go mcd lah. Go get porridge
Me: ala y juz now u never say anything?
Her: its okay la. U all eat here.
Me: I'll go with u lah. Let them eat here.
Her: aiya no need la
Me: its okay, dun wan u to go alone la.

then suddenly boss come out, asking whats up. She silent onli hahaha. She memang like that one, wont say whats on her mind. And then I told them la she cant eat here, need porridge at mcd. And they all followed us to mcd. hahahaa. But felt so weird, because she was right there when boss asking, and i had to answer for her. But felt like hero la for a while. Later that week, I think her flu recovered already. I think conclusion of this episode was, I did a good job caring for her needs. bwahahahahaha

The Other Seniors back, so no reason for me to send her back any longer T_T

So another senior of mine is back from study leave right. Sooo.. she'd go back with him coz they live really close. So there was this one night, I was walking back, alone to the parking lot. Texted her telling her I was lonely walking back alone. And then what happened after that surprised me. She wrote,

"I'll entertain you. When u reach parking lot u tell me yea"

So she was just talking bullshit on whatsapp and i replied blahblahblah. She was just, releasing all her stress during the conversation, and i listened and replied attentively. Then she ask,

"You reach parking lot already or not?"

I told her I was walking slightly slower, because I wanted to listen to her rants. Told her I was concerned with her, so I want her to tell me everything. She just laughed it off and kept on ranting ranting. And when I finally got into the car, I was still texting her for like 5 mins when finally i told her I reached my car alreadyyy hahahahaha con job. And then,

Me : Thanks for layan-ing me
Her: no worries. Please drive safe. I heard u kena accident.
Me: *facepalm* aiya.. din want anybody to know.

*so.. yeah... that day when she mc, that morning I got into an accident. Sleepy. hahaha. Told my best friend the chinese guy, and told him to keep it a secret. But because I report to my boss that morning, he thought that the whole team knew about it. And he go and text my crush asking if I'm okay. Crush told him she wasnt at office because mc and thennnnn... kantoi. So, I kantoi never told her anything about the accident. Why? because I din want her to think that, because I've been sending her back home, caused me to reach home later and sleep less. She never knew the reason anyways. haha.

No Sense Of Involvement

there was this day, actually the last week of the team on that particular job we were doing. We all went out for lunch, except for her. I asked her why she dont want to join. It was because she already packed from home. So okayy.. we went out leaving her alone. And then I texted her,

Me: Dynamic duo (what we refer to boss and that senior as) discussing ur section blahblahblah
Her: actually right, I can always juz follow u guys and bring my pack lunch. But I din wan to becoz they always kept me out from their discussion. Never want to involve me.

She, was in charge of this section, which our bigger boss was paying attention to. She being responsible for that section, had done her research on it and she was quite prepared for it. But my middle boss, with the senior that lives near her place, always took her out from the discussion. As if she was just there doing it for the sake of doing it, and never asked her opinion on anything. I truly didnt know that she was that type of person at work. Really take her work to heart, and want to contribute and stuff. At first I kept telling her to calm down and forget about it. Later I realised that wasnt the right thing to say. Because she really cared about it. Later she whatsapp me this chat message that she was about to send to boss, venting her frustration on why they always isolate her. It was long, and i can sense an amount of rage in it.

Her: Should I send this? I am so tempted to press Enter.
Me: wait wait. Ur words betul2 shows that u are pissed.
Her: Should I change some of the wordings?
Me: I think u have to reword the whole thing. This could bring unnecessary pressure.
Her: aiyaa.. I really want them to know how frustrated I am.

I took a step back and thought about it. I want her to be able to express herself, so I told her okay, u send it lah. But can u please reword it. "How should i write it then? or maybe I should wait until post mortem?" Well, I do think thats the best time. Coz now everybodys pressured. Not the right time. And then, I went honest with her, told her that, if she really cared about it, then she should have actively involve herself la. Not just wait for people to invite her into the discussion. Then only she say, "you are right. I should be more like that. Ok lah, I wont say a thing." So it ended with her not sending anything, and only released it on me. At that point, I thought that, if i kept on being the chill chill relax relax guy, wont help her so much. Glad I could be honest with her. And glad that she agreed with me. Later she thanked me for listening to her rants. She said she just needed to tell someone. Well, at the same time, she was telling her gf. That shy friend who was dancing awkwardly with me. She onli told that friend, and myself. hahah. I feel special!

2 Nights Ago

So our work has already ended. We’re just at office lazing off. Yesterday, I drove to work. Unlike Monday, took the train.. Missed the chance to send her back, as usual. But last 2 nights managed to hahah!

Me: Ey, I drove today
She: Really?
Me: I’ll send you back, can?
She: Okay.
Me: but jam la.. hahaha
Heres where I almost missed it . Coz she say she dun wan to be stuck in the jam ><
Me: *despo mode on* eh, come back with me la. I dun wan go back alone ><
She: haha ok la ok la.

**When i went despo mode, another colleague of mine who sat right next to her was just giving me the "i know whats going on" look to me. And I juz be like poker face. haha

Soo I thought I'm all set, just have to wait a few more hours and then gonna have a good time hehe. While waiting she kept on messaging me telling me shes sleepy n stuff, pretending to be busy in front of boss etc. I forgot what she said in our conversation, but there was this one point i told her that she shiok sendiri. I think because, by default, everything she tells me sure have that element of self-boasting lulz. I dunno y shes like that. But nvmind I juz listened. And then she said she had a gossip she wanted to share with me, but tiba2 she tell me that,

"because you said that I'm shiok sendiri, so I dont want to share with you"

So I went to her table and asked her la y she like that. To tell me what the gossip was about. But she kept on hampering on the 'shiok sendiri' thing. Like damn sulking. And then i damn malas nak layan, I juz told her,

"U can keep it to yourself, I dont care"

And she straight away merajuk. Dont want to say anything to me. I went back to my place, and came back to hers, and she already dont want to talk to me, for a few seconds... then she okay balik. Cute right?

Not just that, everytime i tease her on message, she'll threaten me by saying shes going back using lrt, dun wan go back with me. Of which never happened. hahahaha.

Soon, we can go home already. On the way to the parking lot, we crossed the train station, and she be like,

She: I could have reached home a lot faster u know
Me: urmm.. So u want to go back lrt isit? ok la, go la.
She: nvmind la.

Because its already 6.30pm, for sure we'll be stuck in the jam and i also have to buka puasa n stuff.

Me : Aiya sure jam otw, until buka puasa.
She : do u have anything?
Me : Nope.
She : I've got fruits, but dunno if u can tahan juz eat fruits otw.
Me : awesomes. Juz whack ur fruit lah, can ah?
She : can. But i tink sure not enuf.
Me : Okay one.

Walk a bit more, saw auntie anne on second floor. next conversation

She : eh auntie anne! go buy sth la for buka puasa
Me : got fruits wat, no need
She : lets go, I want to buy.
Me: Okay

When arrive at auntie anne, got long queue, and I asked her la

Me : Weh beratur panjang la
She : nvmind. Not actually buying anything, just said it so that we would come here n u would buy sth
Me : waaaaaaa... really.. ok lah, I'll juz buy big apple doughnut here. Lets get a 6 pack. Can u help me choose also?
She : okayy

I dont know if its such a big deal, but seriously.. a white lie? I've never heard a white lie so damn sweet like the one she just pulled. And she said it with a straight face.

Anyway, we soon reached the parking lot. Paid for parking, and otw to my car, saw this ugly green myvi, I asked her,

Me : U think that color nice ah
She: puhlease..
Me : Then whats ur favorite color?
She : U try guess.
Me : Black? (because all her shoes are black DUHH)
She : *rage face* I give u one more chance
Me : ok2 <right guess>
She: u lucky u got it right this time.
Me : Ok2 sorry.

So we got into my car, put on some club music, and drove on. And then jam.. soon buka puasa. So she passed me the fruit. And then we whack the donuts. She put the donut nicely in tissue and put in my hands. I onli said tqtq. But deep down, is a wishful thinking, wishing that she could hold it in her hands and suap me la. shitsssss.. hahahahaha... shud have said my hands were busy on the wheels.

It was sooo damn jammm... Anyway, when almost reaching her place, I asked her again about that gossip. But she already dont want to tell me.

Haiihh... But it was a good day.

So 5.30 was the movie. We went to this mall go watch. At first, I thought that we're going to watch at OU, coz if at OU then otw her house also, meaning I can pick her up.

But suddenly change to a different place, so cant already lah. But when i text her im otw, she said she waiting for a cab to go to lrt station. I be like, "haiihh, if told me sooner then I can fetch right". Tried calling but she din pick up, later whatsapp me she on lrt already. And asked why i called. And i ignored the question hahahah.

Anwyay, reached the place, met them (her n her friend) at the cinema. And they told me they wanted to go find sth to eat first. At first, I want to follow, butt... I thought, it might be hard for the friend to eat in front of me. Altho i made it clear to my crush that I really dont care if my crush ate in front of me, might not be so easy for the friend tho. So I went somewhere else and we met again at 5.30pm.

And then went in movie, damn cold >< I asked her if she was cold, she said she was. Well uh.. not like I can do anything. I din bring anything myself. But she did bring her cardigan, so I told her to wear it la. But she din. pfft
and then just small talk here there. blahblahblah.

After the movie, they told me to pick up place for dinner. it was 8pm already. So I wanted to go to this sushi place, of which when I google it says at lvl 4. Go search2 level 4, cudnt find. Then I suggest go Isetan la, coz there got japanese place right.. Then otw to Isetan, suddenly caught a glimpse of Sushi King. So I suggested la. And then I looked at her, she said sth, but i din hear. But i thought they all ok la.

And then, when sampai the level got sushi king, I pelik why she was still trying to search for isetan. And I told her la Sushi King is here. And suddenly she made this face, it wasnt rage face. It was like roll eyes kinda face. I thought she rolled eye because she forgot that we change to sushi king ... untill..

We were in front of sushi king. And she dropped it on me,

She : I DONT LIKE SUSHI KING
Me : ok2, lets go Isetan la then.
She : NO. WE ALREADY HERE. LETS JUST EAT HERE.
Me : aiya but u dun like. Lets just eat the food court here lah
She : I AM NOT EATING AT FOOD COURT ON MY OFF DAY
Me : but but... errr.. I think u got mention last time u din like Sushi King.
She : yeaaa.. i got say last time.
mE : Sorry, I forgot. we could still go..... *she went in*

Went in, and sat with her. *her friend not around yet, she went toilet*. Then she began talking to her friend about work. I was.. urmm.. sat down quiet. Just browse menu, and then suddenly she say,

She : Eh ur work why do half way onli? Now <another seniors name> have to come office sort it out even when on leave
Me : Eh, but he said he'll take over because he had to discuss with boss. So I leave it la.
She : *muka mcm x accept, nods head*
Me : *entering RAGE mode* BIG DEAL LA. I ALSO HAVE TO GO WORK TOMORROW EVEN IF IM ON LEAVE
She : *malas nak layan me anymore*

And thats the point where... my mood was out. Was so pissed. But i never show it la. conceal onli. And then she say,

"I dont want eat so much. Full already." her friend also same..

Anyway, I juz whack the sushi on conveyor belt first.. I thought I'd order something nice, but since they all din order. I felt bad. I screwed up the dinner i guess. And then when having problem dunno wat to choose, she dropped it again,

"U LAA. CHOOSE SUSHI KING"

I was like.. "but juz now i said lets go Isetan right?"

She just give me that rage face. I was just confused. Look, I know i messed up, but big deal. it wasnt an actual date, casual outing onli. dont like the place then we juz go to where she likes la. but instead, treat it so personally. then only i understood why she still was searching for Isetan. Probably she already said she dont want, but i din hear. haiihh...

And then, I asked la the friend how she came, she said she took bus. I was like, whaa.. then i offered her to send her back. But she said it was okay because the father picking her up. And my crush pulak, just so happen battery died, so how to call parents to fetch from lrt station right? I knew it already, but kept quiet first. And then later she asked if i driving, I said yes la. She tried calling her parents using the friends phone, but her family all not picking up.

Later onli, I told her that I would send her back. She be like, "but not on the way right?" I said no choice la. How else u going back. Then she said ok la. We sent the friend to the lrt first, and then we chow.

Then i asked la if she knew the way back to her place. She was clueless lols. Nasib baik i got save her house in my waze, of which she din expect. Then i dunno how to cover already, juz say i memang got her house saved in my phone. She was like ok saja la.

Then in my car, got la talk2 abit. small talk onli. got a bit lost in central KL. But managed to find the familiar road back to her place. One thing the Waze did not help me was, choosing the further road back to her place. Went and chose the nearest route, of which i hated, because it was the SHORTEST distance. I told her I hated this road, and she ask y. I kept quiet onlyy. haha.

and then reached her place, bye bye.