QUOTE(unknown warrior @ Dec 16 2012, 12:51 AM)
nah, couldn't care less about the shock part because if they are, good. It's about time they should ask, how can it be?
Actually what I meant was God heals others through you as a channel at times
without medical science involve.Your word of prayer and your hands to flow God's blessing.
Something you might find uneasy to believe at this moment.
if you mean God healing others esp spiritually, yes. I believe somehow, I have this gift to delight others, many people told me so, the first time I realised it was 2011 in Spain, when my Spanish foster father told me, even though we could not understand each other well, he could see that I connect easily with people, partly due to my passion. and I told him, 'do u not know, more often than not, it hurts me, bec why people can be happy of what I said, what I did, even a smile, yet I could not find this happiness myself, from others but only consolation from God?'
He answered me ' My child, do not worry. It is a gift for you, and you should make people happy while let God works through you.'
He was not even a serious religious man, as he thinks religion is over-rated, he would stand at one side at every Mass in church. (I believe he has his pains, but I pray for him as he did not see his daughter nor his beloved for a few years and he lives alone)
and I cried the whole night in the bathtub thinking, 'Lord, if it is your will, let it be so'
since then, I no longer feel empty in myself, that even though I could not be easily as happy as others, I can make others happy.

Now, I live happier, bec I know, I should not seek happiness or to be understood, but to understand, to love first, as not to be loved. and I am still happy that I am such a gift to people, to make people happy, many call me their little angel (due to my baby face and cheerful nature).
That is why I like the song I shared previously on last page 'Make me a Channel of Your Peace'
Lately, I also am trying to help my friends who are eager to listen to me , even though long winded, they delight in it, that they should divert their attention and faith to God. Sometimes, I notice ppl get discouraged when they see me happy, that they tell me, 'Jeffrey, I think God loves you very very much' and I sense the resentment or some envy in them. That I say, ' God loves you very very much too '
It works, my advice does, so yeah, I think I have this gift, and I want to utilise this gift for the Lord
physically healing?? I am not St Francis of Assisi or those you read in Bible, have the power of healing. I dont believe it is my ministry. But I can make do, with a doctor, with help of medicine, His grace for me to be astute in diagnosing diseases

But God physically healed me I experienced too, most vividly this
(from a very serious one as well, after the trip to Europe, very same 2011 - I had been coughing bubblish water from my lungs and I think its pleural effusion after I swam in the sea in Marseille, to be hospitalised would mean 1 month in bed and I relied on Prayer alone while my church friend tended to me as I stayed over at his place, I could only prayer for recovery through prayer and antibiotics and nothing else, coughing profusely day and night and recovered though, something medically is impossible as pleural effusion would need aspiration of fluids from the lungs or slowly but would mean respiratory failure. What was I thinking? that the europe trip is a pilgrimage, and if God willed me to experience a youthful heaven on earth meeting 'World Youth Day', He would lead me out of this illness and prepare me for the new semester),
as my mum did - medically untreatable slipped disc but only physiotherapy, one morning while sleeping upon waking up she saw Jesus came to her, touched her spine and it was healed, she no longer needs physiotherapy and can walk freely, cant carry heavy but it was really healed

(which led her to believe - shes a convert), while I am raised through my dad's family faith roots. Gosh, my dad waited 15 years for that

with Faith, you can move a mountain is true

and I was sleeping beside her - i was still small and I am afraid of darkness so I was with my parents in the same room, and I said, where is Jesus? I wanna meet him!!! Ah, that moment

Mum told me Jesus was just beside me, exactly sitting beside me while healing my mum...I was sleeping soundly
This post has been edited by Jedi: Dec 16 2012, 03:03 AM