Don't know we are supposed to pity the man or the woman?

I pity the men who are trying to find that window.
I pity the women whose windows are not respected; it's scary to freeze in the moment.

To all readers, may take this as just me ranting haha. I'm just overwhelmed with a variety of emotions currently. It's kinda new to me.

Well I think it's more like a one sided thing.
So here's the story
We got to know each other through sort of a dating app.
She's real, and she's beautiful. No catfish no sales nothing.
Just genuine people getting to know people. Or maybe it's just me.

She just broke up with her bf after caught that guy cheating. She shares story with me. Real heavy ones that puts me in a lot of pressure ngl.

She asked me real difficult questions after she's drunk. Multiple times at that. All I could say was I can't answer her right now or some really vague answers. You could say that I didn't grab the opportunity but to me I'm more into honest and determined answers if I would want to be responsible of taking care of her.
One of those questions being could I afford her, of course I said I couldn't and was sad and helpless.

She's a really nice girl, she did apologized for having me taking care of her when she's drunk. I didn't do anything. Just pick her up and drop her back home. Was hoping that I could lend her my shoulders but she doesn't seem to be asking for it and I felt like it's not right to do so at the time.

Anyhow, days gone by, I sent her messages almost every time I get the chance. But like if I asked 2 questions or gave 2 answers. Either one would be ignored or all of them ignored. As if nothing ever happened.
Each time I got ignored I thought that okay, I guess that's the end of our "friendship". But then suddenly a text would pop and the conversation would continue for a few text and then she'd be gone again.

Well thanks to her I'm motivated to make tiktok videos and grow my social media hopefully to the point where I can earn money.
And thanks to her I'm also motivated to write a punk rock song about my feelings.
But unfortunately I'm getting real depressed and sad occasionally on a daily basis when I think about her.

Honestly you could say that I'm just being used, I probably am, I just don't know what I should do next, not knowing if I should continue to pursue her without letting her know my feelings.

I do think that I'm kinda rushing this if I did confess.
I'm probably just insecure cause well she's beautiful, guys would line up to pursue her knowing that she's single now.

But the funny things that she told me when she's drunk, it's like she had feelings for me, told me that we could get married blablabla. I know she's drunk and all. But I do believe that she's pretty sober when she say all those things. Many questions just left unanswered.

The song Jenny by The click five kinda feels like my exact situation especially the first 2 lines.

I had a hunch that if I do confess, I'd probably be rejected. And so I kept quiet. And it's been weeks, my feelings are bottled up and bursting, I'm keeping myself sane by writing letters that I won't send and making music.

I even cook meals for her when she said she's hungry and drove 30 minutes just to send her food. I'm willing and not complaining. Just wanted people to see I'm putting in the effort 😂

I'll stop here for now.

If anyone could advice, here's my question

Should I confess and tell her everything?
I didn't say anything was because she's still sad about her breakup, still misses her ex, technically still in contact with her ex. Her ex still looks for her and all. They kinda argued again when her ex knew me.
Fyi I did NOT wreck their relationship. She Broke up AFTER she found out her ex cheated. Plus I didn't do anything to her. NOTHING AT ALL

Should I just wait for her to look for me?
I'm insecure yes, she can message 10 other guys that has way better profile than I do. I'm afraid that because I kept quiet and did not approach her, she would lose interest in me. But then I don't want to be a simp you know ahhahahaha. I probably am but I'm trying lol.

I'm just confused and my mind is like SpongeBob sorting brain files in his head in fire if you get the reference.

If there are other advices do share to me. I'd be grateful.

Thank you for reading.

I can assure you, when you are feeling doubts and lack of confidence, its your conscience telling you that you will get rejected, that's true.

When you feel confident and you know you have the girl you won't be feeling what you are feeling now.

I think she's using you to get to her ex or other guys.

And yeah I definitely see it clearly now that I'm just being used for a moment. Damn.

Agreed 💯
Sometimes the gut feeling is just amazing lol.
And yeah I definitely see it clearly now that I'm just being used for a moment. Damn.
Still it's a great experience to me personally. And I'm glad I let it go completely already 😌