Yeah. It is indeed 15 pages 😂😂😂 I turned on tiktok live chat with some randoms while writing them from 1am to 6am. I just couldn't sleep that night 😂

Got a song about this coming soon too 🤣 I got so much ideas and inspiration thanks to this.

Told one of my friends, he was shocked and asked me with disbelief, "please tell me you haven't send in the letter" and I'm like oh shit I already did HAHA. Then he told me it's fine, don't think about it anymore with disappointment on his face 🤣

Well a little bit of update. She ghosted me for like 2 days and replied me. Well it's nothing much but it was a closure.
The funny thing was, her ex took my letters and left it in his car. I don't know how or what happened, maybe they had an argument or something then she got a hold of my long ass letter

Well ain't my problem anymore.

Bruh... A7 is too much. Imagine writing 15 full pages of words on A7 when it took me 5 hours for A4....

Oh no I'm not gonna dig my memories on that 15 pages of cringe essays 😂 I'll give a summary or an idea of it.
So it begins with sharing what I feel about our experience together.
Then what I think about her. (Fyi I did not touch a single hair of that lady, proud of myself being able to stay gentleman til the end. But u know as a guy we all wanted to have something if you know what I mean)
After that I asked her questions on what she thought of me.(Not expecting a reply) Just to let it out.
Then proceeds to answer questions I couldn't answer when she was drunk.
Then throughout the letter it's filled with thanks and grateful for the experience.
Last few pages would be ABIT nagging like don't do stuff that affects health. Do this do that. Then told her it's not her fault for any of these since she always apologized to me when we were hanging out. Or should I say when I was babysitting a stranger. Well I admit I'm a simp hah.
Anyways it ended with thanks again and with some farewell gifts. (Some of my home cooked meal and snacks for her pets)
Still simping till the end. God I'm such an idiot.

I won't share the song directly here because I'd like to stay anonymous here 😂 we'll just let fate decide and see if you can stumble upon my song on YouTube/tiktok/Instagram by chance. Hahaha it won't be that good cause my singing sucks and my playing skills are all just average  Joe.

Thanks for the salute. It's was like a mountain got lifted up from my shoulders after I sent it. Occasionally my mind goes argh I should've or shouldn't wrote that yadiyada. But still I was relieved. Still both glad and regret at the same time 😂 glad that I'm not that much stressed anymore and regret that I'm such a cringe HAH WHO THE HECK SENDS LETTERS NOWADAYS

Are they really people who argue that?! Well thanks, no wonder I found my bf relatively easily.... The others lowering the bar for me lol

Half joke aside, I agree that the first dates don't and should not mean much. It's literally meeting a stranger who's more than likely not to work out, why make it even harder than it already is? There's so many more other ways to make memories...

For example on my 3rd meetup with my now-bf, we had a dinner and were strolling nearby after. I tripped on an uneven surface and he was frantically waving his arms around but keeping social distance with me, I could almost hear his thoughts, "OMG DO I CATCH HER WHEN SHE FALLS BUT WHAT IF I 'HARASS' HER"

He sure scored a lot of brownie points that night, it's one story I like to tell others what we had for dinner and how much was it? Don't remember and I don't care.

@men: not all ladies appreciate social distancing. I'm generally conservative with platonic friends (including potentials) so I find physical intimacy before officiating the relationship too much for me. I know this is untrue for some ladies and they might even find you playing safe as a turn-off.

I pity the men who are trying to find that window.
I pity the women whose windows are not respected; it's scary to freeze in the moment.