Everyone told me since I can't have any income, best that I stick with him, and squeeze his money dry like a towel. But then, he mostly spends unnecessarily on his dear mother. He needs to learn to manage his money too. There is a lot too much to be fix that I rather give up living. He does blame me for supporting me too.

I see.. Things can be fixed slowly, step by step. May I ask have you considered getting a job? Or are you worried who will take care of your child while you work?

No money for his day care, so naturally I can't go work. I don't know malay language, the only job I had before in this country for my low education was only 1k. I only plan to continue cold war with him as any words from him is hurtful. And I will remind him how to be a father or I can threaten that I can always run away sliently again.

Hmm.. I was thinking maybe you can try teaching tuition at home or perhaps be a nanny. Understand that it's difficult but.. I would still think it's best not to rely too much on him.

I know that whatever go to work plans will have to wait. So my options is only to endure, which is so so difficult. All that I can do is cry.

Crying is good for releasing pent up emotions.

Sometimes it's also helpful to have something to keep yourself preoccupied. Perhaps keeping fit, or learning something on YouTube, etc. Keep the mind focused.

Even if it is difficult, pls hang on.

This post has been edited by V429: Mar 13 2020, 05:52 PM

Thank you so much. I really appreciate an understanding person.

No problem. If you need someone to talk, someone will always be here to listen.

😭 Thank you

I agree with @your cat.
What do you really need?

I don't need a horrible mentally sick mil and a husband who does not care about wife. For him, wife and child is not part of his family. Only the people he grew up with is his only family. So it's not about what I need, it's what I do not need.

I am sorry about that...
But you need to tell him that he is going far day by day from his owns.

Not suggesting anything, but is a divorce an option that you are considering? Seems abusive. Towards you.

i can't be financially independent, so it's not an option yet.

You know, even if you're divorced, he still needs to provide for you and your child.

Just imagine depending on him like this for another 20, 30, 40 and more years to come... if it doesn't give you any hope or happiness, I'll suggest seriously considering alternatives like starting to look for job, start with some side income based on things you can do. Plan for the future. All of us can be independent... so long you ask for help, there will be help. I'm sure you have relatives or family members on your side whom you can ask for assistance to find a job, and confide your situation with a friend or relative/ family that you can trust. You need someone to listen to you and share your frustration with.

Lastly, if the current psychiatrist isn't working, change a new one. Sometimes compatibility with the counsellor is also pretty important. Also seek a marriage counsellor to help salvage this relationship.

This post has been edited by sweet_pez: Mar 26 2020, 10:35 AM

Thank you.
With this mco going on, he seems to start realizing his mother is a real pain to live with.

Sometimes there's possibly good outcome from a bad situation. I can only say, hang in there for your child - whatever decision you make. He/ she is your priority; hope things will improve for you soon.

I was once depressed. Not wanting to do anything but just sleep in. Everyone thought I was just being lazy but no one, not even myself knew it was depression.

In order to overcome this, you need to start taking small steps to be proactive. Force yourself to learn a new skill each month.

It can be as simple as learning a new board game or signing up for that cheap introductory cooking class course at ABC cooking studio. But you need to fulfill that quota of 1 new skill per month. Even if you don’t like the new thing you are learning, force yourself to at least complete it.

When you finally learn something that interest you, expand on it. For example, you found out you really enjoy tennis, so the next step is to look for tennis groups that you can join so you can socialize and play tennis at the same time.

Remember to take small steps. Learn to do something easy first before undertaking the harder to master skills like sailing.

This post has been edited by friedricetheman: Mar 29 2020, 01:38 PM

Haha, I also wanted to have time to do things. I am stuck with a high demand kid. I ever thought of learn sewing but don't know to go where for sewing course. Or learn the malay language. I do want to learn useful skills that can help out my daily life, but I simply have no time and money to do it yet.

I wasn't out looking but listening to what happened earlier. Husband feels ill want to claim mc. But his mother want to make use of this chance to see specialist. Btw, she been visiting many different dozen specialists from weekly to monthly basis as this is her favorite activity, definitely not because she is bodily sick. And docs have repeatedly told and confirms that she is bodily healthy. So they concludes that this behavior of abusing healthcare is part of her anxiety. And she will never ever seek mental help as she is a narcissist, imagines herself being a perfect person definitely have zero faults.




So seems like he can feels her selfishness finally. And there is improvement that he starts denying and delaying her unnecessary demands.

She been asking him to get for her bread, bananas, eggs on daily basis while she refuse to go get it herself even though my house is next to a hypermarket. I hope she annoys him more to experience how I have been living with a selfish soul that can't be expected for any change.