smoking some chacom tobacco now. gonna take a shit later.

How u feel now TS?

You are most welcome and i hope it helps

Just think yourself capt. America , where he has inspiration to save the planet call earth
You can see the avengers the end game , what it become ...sad, blaming, crying .....

What i can see without give up is hope..always there's hope inside us
So let the hope to gain it much stronger without giving up

All the best to you .,.anything you cant think or needed suggestion , you can pm me
Ok??

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Sekian

I cheated on my then gf and now wife. and I again cheated on my wife. I almost went out with another girl, I talked to many girls, I went out to party and drink without my wife. I even gambled my savings away. So many shits that I have done and I do feel guilty. And it is the guilt that keeps me going. Because I know I made so many mistakes, then it is only right for me to make things right again.

For every mistake that I did, I have to do tons and tons more of good things to repent.

I force myself to be better and use the guilt to fuel myself. That is the only way...

Bro. Must have been a long long day for you. Do take a hot shower when you get back & drink a cup of hot milo. Try to get some rest. Get better slowly step by step, live to fight another day.

We're here for you Bro.

Goodluck buddy. I felt that way too.

Hopefully you're doing okay.

Damn I though I was reading about myself at the first parts. Especially with the strict dad and him passing away early due to cancer. Also with the Christianity and all.

Read all through and I felt compassion towards you. Do continue to pray for the better and don't give up in whatever your circumstances maybe now.

“Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 4:6-7.

Also if haven't watch this yet, do give it a shot. It's about the life of Job. That despite all his suffering and misery, he remained faithful (thought he did almost give up) (also his suffering and misery was allowed by God). https://youtu.be/GswSg2ohqmA

Pray for the best and God bless you. Even if you think you are alone, God is still with you.

Also if you realise that you've sinned. Great for the realization. As Jesus said to the adulterous woman in John 8:11, "Go and sin no more."

She did find out. And she did leave for a moment. I had to overcome my own stupidity and lust. I became a better person to show her that I can change. Slowly, it took some time. But we are now back together.

You can do it too. You just have to believe in yourself. Change your mind. You are in control. You have to keep repeating that to yourself. Your mind is under your control.

You can do whatever you want. Just keep being positive. Overcome your fear. Let the guilt turn you into a better person.

4am type 1 page of long story.

Con9Lan7cbFirm this is real. Either that or TS really has nothing better to do in life.

Haha. That's very nice of you to say that. Thank you. Try to get milo or chocolate next time, sometimes a warm drink helps to endure those long nights.

Try to get some rest. Tomorrow is a new day for you to get better again.

Good to know Bro. For me, I accidentally slept late today. Yes I am working tomorrow but I'll be fine with coffee. Haha.

Well, to me everybody experience different things at different stages of life, and each experience is unique to the one who experienced them. Most people tend to have a common expectation of what is suppose to happen at which stage of life, but life is always full of surprises, right?

Not sure whether you got try playing some music or not.. But some soothing music like Canon in D may help adjust your mood a little. If you are not into music, then white noise such as sound of rain or the rain forest may help put your mind at ease. Worth a try.

about half a year. went back to stay at her parents. it was a real shitty time. kena condemn by both family and friends. it's worse than getting no support.

kena put down by your own family, kena boycott by friends. the feeling is way way worse.

but i just say fuck it, i'm gonna show them i am better than this. i can do better. there is nothing that i cannot overcome.

whatever shit you can throw at me, i will never turn my back and run. i will fight you head on.

so there's that... haha

I suppose you can try to look on the bright side that she seems to be doing well. As they say.. If you truly love someone, you have to set them free.

Normally when you hit rock bottom liddis, assuming you can bounce back you will bounce back even more higher

I see.. But don't worry, time heals all wounds my friend.

I did bounced back, but not that high yet

burrrp.
gonna watch rick&morty while on the shiter.
Gud luck with getting back on yer feet, TS.

I think you better call befrienders bro if you really cant take it. Im a christian too, and as a christian brother I encourage you to go to church and get comfy there and talk to some pastors there as they can help you more in your struggles. Most of our struggles happen because God wants us to go closer to Him. I have my issues with my GF too and she's a christian also, and we do have our share of emotional, physical, mental and spiritual problems that we sometimes share with each other. But we do give it up to God in prayer and right now we are doing better than before. We are together for almost 2 years now, last year was a roller coaster, i dont want to share our stories here as i deem it private. But if you're eager to start a new, you can PM me and we talk further bro. This could be your time to turn fully to God 100% for Him to work through you, and maybe your ex will see it and it all will end happily ever after.

God bless you and your ex bro. I pray you both will find peace with each other and start a new.