Suicide is NOT a way to go

Another depression is from the environment inside the kennel.

it is located inside the palm oil estate but still many people come in to catch fishes inside the holes.

The dogs are very alert and making noise every time. I would say, 80% in the day.

two plans that I am initialling

1.to give up them and release back to where they are from;
2.Look for another land to avoid people come in and catch fishes.

sometimes

Like i said. I met few ppl that just be depressed no matter what.

The latest is friend's boss. Married, beautiful wife, children all normal no disability. Rich as fuck. Business also all okay, conlanfirm wont fail. Already open 6 branches.

The only drawback is parents growing old. Started hospital visit. That guy hang himself suddenly. Apparently last depression episode is back in university. No ppl realize he battling depression although life seems doing well.

I am telling u. Its somwthing in the brain. They are in depressive mode by default. Their main problem is the world keep pressuring them to be happy like normal ppl, which they couldnt. So they stuck in this infinite loop of looking for happiness.

Maybe you can tell us more to help, financial?family?work stress?
Time will tell, just slowly resolve one by one. why take so serious

Taking on to care for another living being is not easy, dogs or humans. The responsibility to ensure their safety and wellbeing. Taking care of one's own need is a full time job own it's own, what more having to care for another.
You might have bite off too much than you can chew ts. It can be hard to let go, but sometimes you need to. That's why I don't judge when people give up their kids for adoption, I don't agree with it, but at times, some people might really not be up for it. Not saying it's the right thing, but it's the lesser of 2 evils, which I can't stand to judge, because I have not been in that shoe, and i hope i never have to.

no more close friend when he got a gf

there will always be an infinite amount of energy being balanced out. Nobody is perfect eventhough grandiose narcissism is encouraged in today age

pakai condom je la
why so kiamsiap spend few ringgit instead have to raise a kid to 18 years old with high potential of affecting own quality of being single life

don't care what other's think.

if people not happy about you, that is their problem

I need helper and I need rest.

I have been working like this for 5 years without any rest day. Even CNY, I have to work from day to night.

I am very grateful that I never sick in these 5 years.

tell more? No one is willing one. I did have thread before but I requested Mod to delete it

I hope I can handle this time.

got plan to work with another NGO? see if you able to move to KL? should be much easier to get helper here..

you got it.

I need to emphasize this that I was not a dog lover and I am not a dog lover. I just pity them.

This post has been edited by jack2: Aug 19 2025, 02:29 PM

Bro you always have a choice.
You need a break. Take care of yourself first before you take care of others.
Take a vacation, go backpack travelling. Rest your mind

Many give me this suggestion but useless one. Our objectives are totally not same.

they rely on public donations and I am not.

I just need for another 10-15 years to clear off my responsibility which I believe I am owing them in the past lifes.

Total how many dogs are you caring for now?

Actually i dont understand your situation so take it with caution.

To helping others u need to do it from position with power.

The way u struggling with dog sanctuary thing give me the impression u are doing it wrong. You may have good intention and noble cause. But at the rate u doing, spiraling into depression, losing friend n family. I dont know man, maybe u are not fit to help. Why not volunteer urself to existing established sanctuary?

Go travelling? how? Who is gonna back up me?

Don't say travelling, even once a week rest day is not possible.

may be someone can pay a visit and stay to work for 1 week, you will know the exact depression I am facing

100+-

Go talk to SPCA.
Tell then its either they take the dogs in or they get released.
Some burden are too heavy for one individual to take. You try it , everyone suffers only