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TSjack2
post Aug 19 2025, 12:41 PM, updated 4 months ago

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Do you have the courage to commit suicide if some problems cannot be solved or if they keep lingering around your emotions and thoughts and you are alone?
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post Aug 19 2025, 12:47 PM

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QUOTE(Baconateer @ Aug 19 2025, 12:43 PM)
Befrienders: Helpline for emotional support:

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No use one. it is just a surface consultation and can't be deeply till resolved
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post Aug 19 2025, 01:11 PM

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QUOTE(heinlein @ Aug 19 2025, 12:54 PM)
I can empathy with TS when my depression hit during shit happening, but try to give your time to cool down first, then try solve problem slowly at a time. Unker also sometimes cry on my cat tummy when shit strikes hard
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Yes, depression hit


QUOTE(kesvani @ Aug 19 2025, 01:02 PM)
Yeal. All those so called help is all just like sweet talk and nonsense but understandable since they nof in our place..

If really want to only choose when there is really no more and zero alternative
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yes, depression hit.
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post Aug 19 2025, 01:50 PM

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Here is my situation but I cut it short.

I feel very tired in these 5 years in handling all my dogs alone and I have no rest at all.

Many problems happened, died, sicks and many many many.

No people will feel all the problems without attending.

I have no helpers and I am actively posting to hire people without success.

I need rest but I have no choice

This post has been edited by jack2: Aug 19 2025, 01:51 PM
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post Aug 19 2025, 01:56 PM

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QUOTE(netflix2019 @ Aug 19 2025, 01:53 PM)
Suicide = ragequit.

To me life is like a game. Open world. You need to decide what is your end game, your purpose.

Everyone has different skillset and different starting point. Some have it easy, some in ultra brutal difficulty mode.

Being poor is actually not that hard. Hardest is u have handicap in mental/physical capacity.

Some ppl have their dopamine center fucked. Difficult to be happy. I think the main problem here is acknowledging your deficit in experiencing good feeling. Once u understand u are different. U will feel enlightened. I think this world biggest problem is everyone trying to convince everyone "happiness" is mandatory. What if u not going to be happy no matter what? Kill yourself start new game?

Leslie Cheung for example. His brain is wired differently. He didnt know. He was confused why he didnt have the expected happiness when he already has everything. He wont kill himself if he understand his own inability to be happy is biological.
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Why you used Leslie Cheung as the example.

he reminded me something and he should not commit such.

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post Aug 19 2025, 02:02 PM

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QUOTE(blmse92 @ Aug 19 2025, 01:55 PM)
sorry to heard that, but do you have friends and family members to reach out for help?
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My friends - none of them are willing to help and just ignoring. Reason is very simple. They are dogs, not human. No matter how friendly and helpful to them last time, nothing is exceptional

My family - Only one of my sister to backup me when I need someone to attend.

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post Aug 19 2025, 02:03 PM

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QUOTE(gashout @ Aug 19 2025, 01:58 PM)
we can only eat so much our stomach can handle
we can only take in so much our body can handle
don't be God, don't play God
be human, know your limitation, and learn to say NO
but if you make it big, then there are plenty who share the same vision like you, I am sure you can pull string easily together, IF YOU WANT.
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No more big. I have distanced myself from those so called rescuers to dump their dogs to me anymore and wash their si fat n go home.

they are the existing one until now.


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post Aug 19 2025, 02:04 PM

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I interviewed fews and most of them are those can't find any jobs and due to monetary concern, they have no choice to attend my interviews.
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post Aug 19 2025, 02:13 PM

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Another depression is from the environment inside the kennel.

it is located inside the palm oil estate but still many people come in to catch fishes inside the holes.

The dogs are very alert and making noise every time. I would say, 80% in the day.

two plans that I am initialling

1.to give up them and release back to where they are from;
2.Look for another land to avoid people come in and catch fishes.
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post Aug 19 2025, 02:26 PM

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QUOTE(Autocountstick @ Aug 19 2025, 02:15 PM)
Maybe you can tell us more to help, financial?family?work stress?
Time will tell, just slowly resolve one by one. why take so serious
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I need helper and I need rest.

I have been working like this for 5 years without any rest day. Even CNY, I have to work from day to night.

I am very grateful that I never sick in these 5 years.

tell more? No one is willing one. I did have thread before but I requested Mod to delete it

I hope I can handle this time.
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post Aug 19 2025, 02:26 PM

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QUOTE(keong_boy @ Aug 19 2025, 02:16 PM)
Taking on to care for another living being is not easy, dogs or humans. The responsibility to ensure their safety and wellbeing. Taking care of one's own need is a full time job own it's own, what more having to care for another.
You might have bite off too much than you can chew ts. It can be hard to let go, but sometimes you need to. That's why I don't judge when people give up their kids for adoption, I don't agree with it, but at times, some people might really not be up for it. Not saying it's the right thing, but it's the lesser of 2 evils, which I can't stand to judge, because I have not been in that shoe, and i hope i never have to.
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you got it.

I need to emphasize this that I was not a dog lover and I am not a dog lover. I just pity them.

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post Aug 19 2025, 02:31 PM

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QUOTE(xHj09 @ Aug 19 2025, 02:26 PM)
got plan to work with another NGO? see if you able to move to KL? should be much easier to get helper here..
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Many give me this suggestion but useless one. Our objectives are totally not same.

they rely on public donations and I am not.

I just need for another 10-15 years to clear off my responsibility which I believe I am owing them in the past lifes.
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post Aug 19 2025, 02:32 PM

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QUOTE(killdavid @ Aug 19 2025, 02:30 PM)
Bro you always have a choice.
You need a break. Take care of yourself first before you take care of others.
Take a vacation, go backpack travelling. Rest your mind
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Go travelling? how? Who is gonna back up me?

Don't say travelling, even once a week rest day is not possible.

may be someone can pay a visit and stay to work for 1 week, you will know the exact depression I am facing
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post Aug 19 2025, 02:33 PM

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QUOTE(TinyTots @ Aug 19 2025, 02:32 PM)
Total how many dogs are you caring for now?
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100+-
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post Aug 19 2025, 02:39 PM

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QUOTE(killdavid @ Aug 19 2025, 02:35 PM)
Go talk to SPCA.
Tell then its either they take the dogs in or they get released.
Some burden are too heavy for one individual to take. You try it , everyone suffers only
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Brother, thank you very much. I love you.

I am closing this thread as I know, it won't get any help from here but it depressed me more.

Like what I said, suicide centre, talk to them and just sweet words and they are not standing in your positions to think and point to release the depression.

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