Hi guys. I'm a male, 24 years old. My problems can be summarized as follows:

- Easily agitated and anxious all the time, even on trivial things. Most of the times I have this emotion when I'm at work.

- Prefer to be left alone. I will always lie to my colleagues that I'm eating with someone else whenever their inviting to join them for lunch. When I'm at home, I will just stay in my room playing games or watch youtube.

- I never have a stable relationship. My relationship never last more than a year. I have trouble to commit, and I always argued with my exgfs over petty things.

- I have difficulty expressing my emotions. I also sometimes have trouble in communicating with other people. I just can't hold a conversation like a normal human being.

- I have impulse to do stupid and addictive things. I was not a smoker, but I smoke now, although not everyday. I crave sex all the times. I have had many one night stands. I even go to the hookers. Sometimes after I had sex I still felt not enough and masturbate to porn.

- I have a very low self-esteem. Whenever I do mistake, I will always remember about my mistakes. When my boss point out my mistake, I will be extremely flustered. I can't take criticism well.

- I feel like I'm a psychopath or sociopath. Because sometimes I have many nasty thoughts. Like I used to steal and sniff my female cousin panties back when I was in secondary school. Now my nasty thought is towards my female colleagues, although I haven't acted anything on it. I feel like I don't deserve to live because I'm so sick in my mind. So I will feel suicidal all the time.

I'm an agnostic, but I was raised and born in muslim family. I'm living with my sister and taking care of her, give her allowance etc since she's still studying. So I need to fake practicing the religion so that she won't snitch on my mom. Which is pretty damn depressing living a life that's a lie. I want to open up on all of these to someone but I'm scared of people judging me, especially on my faith and sex life. I don't know what I'm supposed to do.

you are muslim?try pray at mosque 5x a day..jalan ke syurga penuh penderitaan..jalan ke neraka penuh keseronokan..highway to hell..stair to heaven i guess

This post has been edited by mrdokok: Nov 10 2019, 11:02 PM

I don’t believe in islam. I don’t think praying is gonna make me a better person either. My dad prays 5 times a day and he’s a douchebag who fucked and impregnated my mom’s sister. So nope.

Hi Bro, I am not a Muslim and not a counseller or anything, but pls allow me to share my opinion & suggestions.

-As some have suggested from time to time, you can try calling Befrienders. If would be good if you have an understanding friend to share your troubles with, but if not, you can try calling the Befrienders.

-Perhaps your raw emotions, anxieties and impulse may be manifestation of an underlying issue, perhaps an unresolved issue in your childhood for example? Not sure whether this helps but I would say try self-examination. Like try asking yourself, why exactly do you feel angry? What are you angry about? This hopefully can help you trace from your surface emotions back to the real reason that's causing all these.

I wish you all the best.

This post has been edited by V429: Nov 11 2019, 11:43 AM

ok mate..well good luck to all of us

he's just a puppet doing it because if habit, not because what it should be.

as another had suggested, try with befrienders first. they can help as a start. can refer to a professional later on

Hi TS, I think right now the easier step is to follow your colleagues for lunch. After all, it is just like having a normal meals with friends, and can have someone to talk to. There is nothing to lose right?

And from there, see if you can feel better and more comfortable to talk to others and express yourself.

Mr. P, what you have is a condition known as not knowing what you want. It isn't simple to cure, it's going to take a lot of sacrifice to reconcile what you believe in and what you're comfortable with. So good luck, man.

It's wonderful that you're seeking better understanding with regards to what you're feeling, but I feel you shouldn't be on a site like this, where the advice given here is not always the best or most relevant to your situation.

Try seeing a therapist from a well-known institute, or if you have a friend who you're close to and feel might understand your situation, try reaching out to them. This life is difficult even with the support of friends and family; it's much tougher alone. If you can, share your worries with someone close or knowledgable in the area of human behaviour.

Meanwhile, please know you're not the only one who feels this way. As human beings, it's natural for us to have what we might think are unsavoury thoughts from time to time. There are often reasons for why, and the reasons may not necessarily be as sinister as you might think. If you reach out to a professional, they might help you understand your thoughts and why you feel the way you feel all the time.

Wishing you the best of luck.