Hi guys. I'm a male, 24 years old. My problems can be summarized as follows:

- Easily agitated and anxious all the time, even on trivial things. Most of the times I have this emotion when I'm at work.

- Prefer to be left alone. I will always lie to my colleagues that I'm eating with someone else whenever their inviting to join them for lunch. When I'm at home, I will just stay in my room playing games or watch youtube.

- I never have a stable relationship. My relationship never last more than a year. I have trouble to commit, and I always argued with my exgfs over petty things.

- I have difficulty expressing my emotions. I also sometimes have trouble in communicating with other people. I just can't hold a conversation like a normal human being.

- I have impulse to do stupid and addictive things. I was not a smoker, but I smoke now, although not everyday. I crave sex all the times. I have had many one night stands. I even go to the hookers. Sometimes after I had sex I still felt not enough and masturbate to porn.

- I have a very low self-esteem. Whenever I do mistake, I will always remember about my mistakes. When my boss point out my mistake, I will be extremely flustered. I can't take criticism well.

- I feel like I'm a psychopath or sociopath. Because sometimes I have many nasty thoughts. Like I used to steal and sniff my female cousin panties back when I was in secondary school. Now my nasty thought is towards my female colleagues, although I haven't acted anything on it. I feel like I don't deserve to live because I'm so sick in my mind. So I will feel suicidal all the time.

I'm an agnostic, but I was raised and born in muslim family. I'm living with my sister and taking care of her, give her allowance etc since she's still studying. So I need to fake practicing the religion so that she won't snitch on my mom. Which is pretty damn depressing living a life that's a lie. I want to open up on all of these to someone but I'm scared of people judging me, especially on my faith and sex life. I don't know what I'm supposed to do.

I don’t believe in islam. I don’t think praying is gonna make me a better person either. My dad prays 5 times a day and he’s a douchebag who fucked and impregnated my mom’s sister. So nope.