QUOTE(lowya @ Jun 18 2019, 04:32 PM)
when u got thirsty inside, did u consume unfiltered tap water or were filtered and boiled water provided to inmates?
i learned from the other inmates how to filter the tap water from the toilet using a makeshift cloth water filter.
QUOTE(internaldisputes @ Jun 18 2019, 04:32 PM)
You don't sound very repentant.
I guess my question is are you repentant?
Do I feel guilt or remorse for everything i did before? No. Not really. I sleep very well at night.
Having said that, i had a very very long time to self reflect on my life and on how I want to live my life.
The issue with living a nihilistic life filled with anger, hatred, resentment, and pain is that my thoughts and actions becomes toxic to both myself and everyone around me.
Which was fine with me for many years because i reached the point where i didn't really care about anyone else or even myself.
But, deep down, like all humans, i desire to be happy. And it is impossible to be toxic and happy at the same time.
I will tell you a secret. The changes people see in me is not because i suddenly became a repentant like Andy Lau in Shaolin.
It is because i actively choose to remove toxicity from my attitude, thinking , speech and behavior.