QUOTE(Evangelistica @ Feb 28 2007, 06:50 AM)
The Conclusion:
Its the end of my story. After getting really close and all the hints I've given to her, finally I have the guts and asked her one night to go out on the next day. To my surprise, she accepted! I was way beyond happy. I've never been on a date before. You can know the feelings right, the excitement. She was soo delighted and looking forward to it. She asked me to pick her up, with her sweet angelic face.
But then guess what? When the day comes, I called her and she didn't pick up. I called and called like crazy but she never picked up. That was 2 weeks ago.
I feel like a fool. I've never felt so hurt like this. If she doesn't want to go out with me, she didn't have to lie but say no instead. I will understand. Rejection is a part of my miserable life. I was so happy and really exited when she said yes. If she has any reasons or problems at all, why she didn't sms me at least? It has been 2 weeks now. I feel like I was being played all these time. She knows how I feel about her, but why the masquerades? Why keep on so close and "manja" with me and make me fall in love with her? I was gonna propose and spill my hearts out on that day, the day we suppose to go out. I thought that after all this time I've given her the hints, I'd asked her out and if she said yes, I'm gonna propose to her. (Propose here means "to the next level", not a marriage proposal though)
So that's it guys, the end of my pathetic story. I have learnt my lesson. Beauties and average f***ing joe will never be together!. I didn't hate her though, I blame
God The f***ing Mighty for "staging" my life like this. I'm just soo hating myself right now. I've got so angry with my life, puching walls and mirrors, but the anger doesn't seem to fade away..
I truly understand your feeling bro !
I have been almost same situation like you, but mine was a bit different. To make it very short and simple, Its about hinting each other, and i did confess to her my feeling but didnt ask for couple. She did show me positive respond and say need time ...
I asked her out for the first time and im very nervous n quite dissapoint.... As time passed, because of my low self esteem and lack confident, i always make myself suffer and affected her too... we argue quite few times too ...
Then one day(Wednesday), she is so positive and confident telling me she wish to solve all the issue and misunderstand with me. The first time ever i see her so energytic, confident and put hope on both of us ...
I truly happend that night.
But heck, in 24 hours time ... i accidently hurt her terribly. She was very hurt and choose to end up everything ... No matter how i persuade her, tell my true words .. she never trust me anymore and lost confident to me at all. She gave up everything !
I was so damn regretful for what I did. Blame myself and hate myself till the max !! Hate myself and everything else in this world.
Initially im so happy as i thought finally we can have a beautiful starting from the Wednesday... All we have gone thru, happiness to sad and suffer, i thought all this is worth as we can at last have a good beginning. But all is destroyed !!
She is the only one i truly love with all my heart. Because of that, i lose my job and changed a lots in my life.
Till now, it has been more than half year ! Yet my feeling to her never changed, and of cause im not sad and miserable all time as before. I stabilise my career now but my love life to her never change. All the time i still think about her and mad about the incident ...
I feel like i phobia about love anymore. Thats why i dont really dare to come cupid corner often ... will remind me of sad love story.
I still hope there is some miracle happend that probably will make everything like heaven again....
Apr 18 2008, 03:22 AM
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