I have a friend (girl) that I'm really close with. Slowly, I started to have feelings for her. I can't deny it anymore. I gave her a portrait of her that I sketched myself as a present on her birthday recently. That clearly shows that it means something, right? Well hopefully she got the meaning. I know that she knows that I care for her, I always be there for her and I know she knows that I really, really like her. It's complicated as both of us seems to "ignore" it.

The problem is she is so beautiful and angelic while I'm just a plain average guy. I haven't express my feelings for her yet because I'm so afraid. I'm afraid that things won't be the same after I'll spill my heart out. Do you think that things would work for both us? Can beauty and (not beast though) average joe be one? What is the best way for me to express my love for her. For all these time, we have been the best of friends. We share the same interests, laugh at the same joke, all worked well...

I desperately need some guidance,

Thanks...

Its the end of my story. After getting really close and all the hints I've given to her, finally I have the guts and asked her one night to go out on the next day. To my surprise, she accepted! I was way beyond happy. I've never been on a date before. You can know the feelings right, the excitement. She was soo delighted and looking forward to it. She asked me to pick her up, with her sweet angelic face.

But then guess what? When the day comes, I called her and she didn't pick up. I called and called like crazy but she never picked up. That was 2 weeks ago.

I feel like a fool. I've never felt so hurt like this. If she doesn't want to go out with me, she didn't have to lie but say no instead. I will understand. Rejection is a part of my miserable life. I was so happy and really exited when she said yes. If she has any reasons or problems at all, why she didn't sms me at least? It has been 2 weeks now. I feel like I was being played all these time. She knows how I feel about her, but why the masquerades? Why keep on so close and "manja" with me and make me fall in love with her? I was gonna propose and spill my hearts out on that day, the day we suppose to go out. I thought that after all this time I've given her the hints, I'd asked her out and if she said yes, I'm gonna propose to her. (Propose here means "to the next level", not a marriage proposal though)

So that's it guys, the end of my pathetic story. I have learnt my lesson. Beauties and average f***ing joe will never be together!

She moved on with her life abroad. I moved on with mine. However, we still remains as friends. All is forgiven. I'm now happy with my life, my job which I love the most. I just got engaged with a nice girl. She's many years younger than me. None of this was planned. I have already made my peace with my life with no GF for so many years. I dun even care if I will get married or not. But things just happens I guess. To be honest I'm quite skeptical when my fiancee approached me. I thought she was just fooling around and even ask her If someone wants to play a cruel prank on me. I don't quite understood what she saw in me, I'm not super rich nor have lots of money. Just an average guy with average income. But, things happens. Haha.. I'm confident that God really has laid down His plans for me, which is to wait for the right girl. We will tie the knot sometime next year.

Hopefully, happily ever after.