eh haagen daz everyday also can la if she'd let me   

aiyah.. i dunno lahh i really dunnooo already..

I kinda can predict what she thinks la. If no signal from her at all, then quite hard for me to push forward.

I mean, if i sudah ajak go watch movie, and she say when and all, and I say whenever shes free coz i dunno when is she going out with the friend,

turned out she was totally free yesterday and today. If she was interested, she would tell me right? If not? keep quiet saje lah. Thats how we kill off

an invitation gently right? What am i supposed to do sum more? Set a date? if she memang dont wan then no point lor. Wat for force2 people.

I am 100% sure she knows how I feel about her leh.. But proly she just ignores it and treat me like usual friend.

Wat i can do now is just fish fish pull pull let go let go. Drag her further and disappoint? Hell no la. Thats not the case.

She memang not looking at me that way at all.

Yea to top it up, different race different religion, different everything, how is this ever going to work?

Don't even know if im going to let her know how I feel also. Probably wont ever, coz im a big *****.

okay okay okay fineee... I just fixed it..

I just ajak her tomorrow. See what she says.

aku bukan saja nak lambat2kan.

Sebab kitorg berdua kerja satu team. On top of that, dier senior aku. Both of us cuma ada lagi 4 bulan utk keje bersama. Pastu dier job lain

and aku job lain, sampai la aku resign nnti.

Nak ckp sekarang susah. Nak cakap before this pun susah.

Sebab tu aku cakap, Aku akan gtau la dier perasaan aku bila aku bagi dier bday present dier.
Okay2.. I bet u all are already bloody bored with my story. Sometimes I intentionally put this thread here as my blog. For my own record.

Sometimes if people dun like to read, then I suggest dont come here anymore. Just let me update here for my own safekeeping. Just being sentimental for the most part.

Probably I never want to end the story anyways. Just let it prolong for no reason.

ts update

@bold : whenever she free. Ini.
If she free, doesn't mean have to ajak you ! and doesn't mean have to tell you. You're a bloody batang. Make a move .

Even she know, why she want to take it as know. You ada batang. Dia tarak

-ve thinking bring you no where abang

confirm kena reject

jk

kalau nak selamat la kan. kau buat surat tulis macam ni. 'i think i have feeling for you. but i dunno if u are interested.' dah.ni la paling selamat ngan sempoi. kau nak tulis panjang2 tak payah. kalau cakap depan2 pun lagi tak payah. nasihat akhir ni. kalau die minat die akan kol. kalau die tak minat die akan reply. sorry i never thought u that way.

Hi guys.

I just needed to burst it out here first.

I have fallen in love with a senior colleague of mine. I had written down a full story last night here... and i kinda pressed some wrong button on the keyboard.. and everything got wiped out..

Nevetheless, hope that I could find the time to share soon enuf.

EDIT 27/4/2013

Ok la ok la now i story a bit yea... I've been working with her since a year and a half ago.. well, thats like when i just joined.. that time she sudah 1 year.. in first year.. uh... actually since a few weeks ago i never actually

felt this way towards her. Why suddenly? I also dunno. But if i tell u the reason, and if it was the case, then I should've fallen for her long ago. Probably until a few weeks ago, when we see each other a lot more frequent, joke,

message, etc, is when it kinda gave that final push for me to fall. Probably since long ago I've always liked her, but I never noticed my own feelings? lols.

One thing I really like about her is that, how she opens up to me than anybody else. She shares all kinds of stories with me, she goes crazy with me, and she merajuk also with me. hahaha. I think, a starting point to all

this would have been because of ice cream. My senior, well as a senior, she helps me a lot. covers mah ass like no other. So shes always been keeping tabs of all the deeds shes done and wants me to compensate with Haagen

Daaz. I guess any of you should know that shes definitely joking. But not her, she keeps reminding me of it, since months ago. I've always told her to write it off though, coz haagen dazz? damnn.. she'll be like, okay2 but the

next day she'll bring it up. So that led me to thinking that she seriously wants it and eventually il have to get it for her. But whats hard is, how to get it for her in front of my whole team? wont they be like, "somethings going on

here..." so everytime she asks for it, i always tell her to be patient first. because some of my colleagues will be leaving for study leave, so that kinda leaves me with her in the next few months. I even told her about it, about

how others will be like that u know. But it seems like, she'll say like "okay la then write it off no need to buy me". And then the day after, "wheres mah ice cream??" ok2, now i know u serious.

Lately also, she say she geram want to go cheong k (karaoke). Every week ask me when I'll ajak her go. I be like... oh? i ajak ah? :/ but i dunno mandarin worr. But nvmind that, I'm practicing some songs myself but the point

is, if u want to go, then call ur frens la right? why me lar?

we right, love to sing in the working room. when our bosses are out, we would sing together. she loves kpop, and she shares with me some of her favorites. She also shares with me some mandarin love love emo songs. She wants me to listen to it. Now I have a bunch of it in my phone, everyday in the morning train ride i spend time memorizing them so that one day can really go sing like a ching chong lulz.

She also right, brings this and that for me from her house. I told her about some nice coffee, and the next day she already brought some for me. ahahahah. aiiii... there was one day she brought this amino liquid stuff that i wanted to mix with salad. She packed one nicely and bring to office, of which i forgot to bring back home that night. and she merajuk big time. I felt so bad, i called her, apologized, etc. it was a few days until we were back to normal, laughing and shits. haha. I think shes the sweetest girl I've ever met And when she merajuk, while i do feel scared, i like to see it too. eheh.

There was this one night, when we all went back home quite late. last train. she taking lrt. So when i reached home i randomly whatsapp her, and she din reply. I called, someone picked up and straight away hung up. I was damnn worried until like 20 mins after that she called back, asking whats wrong and stuff? I told her that I thought something happened to her, just wanted to check and stuff. ahahaha... she be like SOO SWEEETT.. dunno if that sounds sarcastic or not..

Before all this, like early this year. I've shared with her that i wanted to resign soon. But she cudnt becoz she has her bond with the company for another year. At that time she said, aiyaa.. dont go la. But that time i didnt really care. Last week, we kinda had another talk about me leaving soon. Of which she asked if i can delay for another year, until she finishes her bond. Probably now, I really wont leave yet. How love changes you huh.

ah yes please dun worry. Shes single. But probably one funny thing that u guys haven't found out yet is, I am not chinese. I seriously think that this is the biggest barrier right now. and probably i shudnt pursue this feeling any longer. before it shoots me in the back. But nowadays, I feel a lot more motivated to come to work, try to do my best, and try to help her as much as i can. Even if its one sided, or something thats impossible, probably there is something else i could gain for it huh.

haha. thats it for now. take care yo,.

Before anything else, dont fall into the friendzone.

ni ha. baru siram. dah tumbuh menjalar dalam lobang idung.
#dalam
Aku xnk dah la tulis2 surat. Dulu aku stail gitu. X jadi langsung. Baik cakap depan2.

actually, i don't get what you';re trying to tell

nvmind. im tired of listening to u bringing me down anyways.

Before anything else, dont fall into the friendzone.

if wanna cari makan, xkesah la frenzone pun.. as long right time u pounce. after that move on je.

Sudah friendzone susah cari makan already bang...

boleh bang... if u got no cool swag mmg no chance la. all it takes is just abit alcohol plus sweet talk.

nah. i give u update.

She: Yooo! what time u watching movie?
Me: I haven't bought tix yet la. why?
She: I suddenly remembered i wanted to go 1U to repair my ipad. I otw now.
Me: Ahahahaha really? But the next one is 8.45pm? Want to have dinner first?
She: Oh I'm not planning to stay that late tho. Aiya. I thought theres one around 5 6 pm.
        Nvm la. I shall see u tomorrow then. Sorry give u false hope.
Me: Or u go back home first la. 6pm i pick u up?
She: No la its okay. I lazy to go out already. I'm already at 1U.
Me: Ala just window shop first la, time will fly.
She: Its ok la. Sorry man.
Me: I see. Ok lah. I'm still going tonight.
She: Okie. I tot u went for earlier session.
Me: Am thinking 101 things to make u wait until 8.45pm. haahahha
She: hahahah. Sorry la. See u tmrw la. fun filled day.
Seriously. If you think my story all wimpy and shit I suggest you GTFO ya. I never invited people like u to come here read.

You dont have the right to tell me to stop writing here. If u dun like, then please dont have to waste your time here.

U out on public forum, so it's making me frus la reading your lame approach. Like this mmg no chance for the girl to suka u. Sorry to say. Maybe I should report your thread for uber lameness