Yea, thanks.

This morning, I wake up at 6am, and I send her something like "Good morning, good luck and gambateh for ur day! Have a blessed day" and she replied that she's waiting for the bus etc. Before we broke up, it was always her who sms me first in the early morning but I decided to msg her even earlier than she used to. Hopefully, she can feel that I really decided to change and still have feeling for her indirectly.

She's not married yet, and we're still young. I may, or may not have a chance to get her back but if I dont try.. I'll never know. But one thing I know for sure, I'll wait for her.

You know i wanted to comment something about this thread, but i can't! i just can't do it! Arghhhh! This too much for me to take, my brain hurts.

*Cupid Corner has the ability to derail UW capabilities.
*UW suffers from headaches everytime he visits CC. 

Yea, thanks alot. I'm happy to have u all.

But anyway, I have that feeling because .. whenever I send any caring sms, she will not reply. Like if I send "sleep earlier" or.. something like "rest more". Thats why.

He has told me his plan, which is stay in Malaysia and focus on developing his own business. I am going to be the end of a girl's golden era next year la. I understand what you meant about marriage.... Just afraid we won't have a chance to get married now........ sigh... I've told him my difficulties, which is I need sense of security and stability, both financially and in terms of living environment... Originally I was prepared to sacrifice, but of coz I don't prefer to move to a place where I'm not familiar, not so convenient, not so safe, not so fair for Chinese, and no friends and relatives of mine at all.... I always think if I happen to move there in the future, and at the end I was killed in any accident there, he will regret for the rest of his life. I'm really quite afraid of living in there, you know? This is my difficulty, and I've told him ages ago....  Should he also think by putting himself in my situation?

no ppl want help me?

我就是最害怕這樣不能夠 compromise...
I called him finally... in this morning.. actually I sms him first, I said I am very sun fu and I know I am wrong... please don't leave me alone... After that he called me at once la, we both cried, he asked me don't cry, it's alright now, don't cry.... So now basically we are back to normal, but still need to talk further about the problem later...

Anyway thanks very much for you all support and advice~

Yesterday suppose a happy day for me but there r some small incidents took part and really make me quite down...
Dont know when can his family accept me again and just.... at least give me some trust?
Sometimes feel we r paktor for the family instead according to our feelings... Trying hardly to cope wif his family but ... i really just nid some encouragement and support... Sometimes really feel tiring of being couple..   

I know what they want and really trying to cope with it... There r something they want i hav it but they cant c it... Also thats imposible for them to read my mind ....
I will never ever mind how much i give out but i only hope that when im giving out,at least some1 there to appreciate it... YEsterday some small incident took place make me feel no 1 appreciate it ... Just feel im losing all the trust from them ... I dont know how to tell and what to say also... Sometimes just feel very tired of all this kind of thing...
Cousin sis is getting married by end of this year... Suddenly feel afraid of marriage as mayb it too far from me... Suddenly really very scare of lot of things where those were my dreams... Suddenly feel like want to cry...

so am i welcome here?

Not doing well, I went to check with the doctor for my current health. He said that I have clinical depression... and now, Im having flu. Btw, I lost 11kg...

lol...how old is everyone?

just wanna know....

She smsed me twice, today, again! One is forward msg of Mooncake Festival. Another one is.. about me getting thinner. I didnt reply both... but... why does she has to do this to me......