phythia, another freezer o? in my dreams lo ... currently i have 2 pumpin session at work 10-11 n 3-4 whichever time is more comfortable for me to hide n pump... usually once i relax, i get 1-3 times of let downs... today pump got no let down... somemore my breast still feel "full" then lunch hr go home n feed my boy to ease the "hardness"... my usual pumping is b4 work bf, 10-11am pump, lunch hr bf, 3-4pm pump, (usually he'll awake) 6-7pm pump+bf, 8-9pm bottle then nurse to sleep... weekends feed on demand or 3-4hrs bf+pump... now due to space n bottle... i skip the weekend bf+pump to bf n weekdays 6-7pm pump+bf to bf... is my schedule messy? coz i c oso

phythia, i only feel the let down wif pump... bf only after when i started pumping... i think i have this obsession of watching the nipples spraying bm... if it's spraying i'm ... if it's not spraying like today i'm

phythia, ya lo ya lo... ok time to pump... relax...

phythia, that's new n cooling for a hot weather... i was trying out n c if eating chocolates help me increase my supply

another question:
freezer -> fridge -> cooler bag with 3 ice packs -> warm bottle from thermos

possible? sometimes i feel y need so troublesome when i got free n fresh milk from my boobs~!!

phythia, yes that's exactly wat i meant... sigh... just to feed bb ebm do i need so much work?? i haven't tried bf outside so i have no idea how it would feel like... but i dun think i'll have the chance...

mil told me to stop bf when bb reach 5-6mo... "later ur nipple damage n ur body fail then u know... i'm not kidding, u hear me?" i know her good intention but shouldn't i, as a mum, decide how to raise my own kid? to make me feel more alien, hb actually agrees in front of us... i especially hate it when he would tell me to get ebm instead of bf directly to bb when i'm at home... it's like taking bb away from me... yes he's drinking bm but how abt me? just let me engorged in pain is it? last week i purposely let him touch my engorged breast just to show him how hard it is when usually it's soft... that's when we tried to wake bb up n end up he helped me drank tiny bit of bm... but it seems like not working... i already resign my work n couldn't go out (window) shopping on my own anymore... shouldn't he trust me on this? or i have a history of bad records that he dun trust his own kid to the kid's mum... i rather not voice out anything n just swallow it... coz i dun wanna get blame for world war 3 or cold war in the house... but u guys will support me rite? i was looking forward to nurse n raise my boy but now... i just feel sad, so sad... it's like all the effort i put (reading here n there, researching) is wasted...

syd, i just feel bad... so bad u know... i wanted the best for bb n yet this is wat i get... sometimes i wanna tok back... but how can u tok back to mil who is ur elder? n sometimes i get fed up n wanna tell hb that i dun wanna bf anymore... to think that i try so hard n get as much info as i can just to get such comments... but everytime i c my boy, everything else is just invalid... i'm his mum, i'll decide... i dunno... my hb likes to say to me that i'm stubborn, should listen... wanna wait till ppl die then u listen la... sometimes i wanna tell him that b4 he comment anything abt ebm, bf pls get ur info b4 toking to me... i doubt he research anything abt it... sigh... anyone gimme a big bear hug? sigh...

phythia, he knows abt the label of bm on fm... sigh... everyday i go thru this fm or bm war... very xian u know... ironic mil bf hb when he was baby but dunno when she stop bf coz she's traitional kind... housework more important... if u keep bf how would u finish ur housework... that time fil worked overseas for yrs... only came back once a yr i think... so she has to cook for herself n feed her kids... i understand her stand but y no one ask me wat or how i wanna feed? sigh... today i went out without bringing any bottles... went to jusco bukit indah n found there's not a single baby room~!!! i had to bf at the make-up counter near the entrance... covered the bb wif shawl n bf... y there's no baby room~!!! should i make a suggestion to jusco?

syd, thanks for the bear hug... no way~!! there's bb room?? hmmm... mayb i shouldn't go to the toilets near the lifts... will check them out next time... envy envy of ur stash... currently i'm maintaining 6 frozen ebm everyday... so i won't get nag for no space

phythia, forgot to thank u too for the hug~!

phythia, ya lo... u're lucky mil doesn't live wif u else u'll end up like me... hb sided his mum n making me all alone in this new world of parenting... i blew up yesterday n attempted to run away from home wif bb... but mil stopped me n consoled me... but i'm not angry wif the "wake up earlier to set a routine for bb"... i'm more fed up of hb for not having a stand to how he wants to teach... everything just listen to his mum... n my idea of parenting will spoil the kid... u haven't heard the rest of it... "if u continue bf, ur body won't able to take it" another ridiculous comment by hb is "u'll die of bf" i have nothing to say... u all can b angry wif me for running away from home but he's my kid n i wanna use my own parenting way... wrong ka? sigh... since there's no support in the house, how can i stay sane?

ijnek, ya i agree... everytime it's the same threatening words... "u dun listen to me la, u'll regret it" we as younger generation takkan wanna tok back... even i tried to explain she won't accept it... like once i explain to her abt something which i have forgotten wat, she brushed it off n say rubbish... sigh...

This post has been edited by nicKit: Jan 17 2011, 02:35 PM

phythia, ya first grandchild... sigh... err barley water in food court can drink?

syd, go go boil~!

phythia, will order barley water next time when we eat out (if that's going to happen)... can i boil the fenugreek in the electric boiler? like the one in hotel? coz i dun dare to use any pots in the house...

ijnek, i wish i could but i couldn't... so i just keep it inside... coz i'm all alone in this... if my mum then i would but this is hb's mum... after the cold war i already have keep everything inside... sigh... i will take note of the drink...

i overturned my ebm bottle today~! did i just destroy the nutrients?? wah~!! there was lots of bubbles on top... this is the second time i dropped the bottle... xian...

phythia, ya lo... sometimes when hb say feed fm i would like coz it's all hard work doing pumping, watching our diets, looking out for wat to eat to increase supply, etc...

This post has been edited by nicKit: Jan 19 2011, 02:22 PM

ah... he still wanted fm coz "u'll eventually need to use it... if u're sick how to bf or produce milk?" i dun wanna get into that bm/fm argument anymore... sick n tired of it... sigh... dun even mention abt stashing ebm in the freezer coz there's no place for me... sigh...

phythia, will u go beyond 2 yrs?

syd, not yet coz i was thinking how to thaw it n store it inside the freeze... coz really got no space for me le...

phythia, ya hor... i already bf for nearly 3 mths... looking forward for 6 mths then dunno wat will happen then...


shhh... dun tell mil that i secretly took n post this... where to put my storage bags...

my current stash

syd, that's interesting... ur freezer? special freezer for ur ebm? the thinniest one is how many oz? n the fat ones?

phythia, i bf direct whenever i could ps: din u online in msn de?

phythia, i tot cold cabbage is used when we wanna stop bf? can use for engorgement too meh?

i wanted to ask this but kept forgetting... when is ur first period after birth? syd? phythia? anyone?