Well this happened quite recently, few months ago to be exact. My friend introduce this girl to us during gaming couple months back. We played a few weeks without interacting at all so it was all good. Until one day, I went and say Hi and it all fell apart. We clicked instantly, flirted on the 2nd day heavily. I have a gf btw and we were tgt for 4 years. So, after that, for 4 months straight without stop, we played every single day, text 24/7 only resting when we sleep, talked till she fell asleep and more. Even when we met a few times, it was like a fairy tale... She knew I had a gf but kept with it until she couldnt stand it. For 2 months, we argued everyday about our relationship, and asking whether I should pick one or the other. At this point, we were both liked each other very much and I was very very deep in. I was in a dilemma. I love my gf but I really want her more so I thought about it for some time... N decided to stop seeing her cause I picked my gf at that moment. Mind you, this was going on when I was with my gf, but we never did anything more then that. Besides talking, sending me pictures of her everyday and lots of talking. We argued, fought and had a massive fight until we couldn't be friends anymore... My gf found out and I told her some of it not fully, and you can guess she was pissed af too. After a few days, i managed to calm my gf down and took some time alone to think. It was so messy and ruined alot of relationships. Got more additional story including my friends that game with us but that would add this story to more paragraphs but tldr is I fked up, fell for another girl and had to admit my mistakes and moved on.

I think you already know the answer and it's to forgive yourself - this is always the first step to recovery. Different injuries will take different amount of time to heal and unfortunately, emotional injuries usually takes much more longer.

If connecting with God helps, then you will need to identify and spend more time in the related pathway ie for some is listening to music, some is go around looking at nature, etc. ... in short, spend more time in your pathway

Seven Pathways

Also, maybe reading some of these articles by John Maxwell on Failing Forward might be helpful and give you some refreshing insights:
Failing Forward Link 1
Failing Forward Link 2

U just need time, thats all. So dont worry.Just brace yourself, time will heal you

We are all alsoe have experience the bad n stress.....but it will resolve spontaneouly witrh time

yup. patched things up but damage ald done dy. It was entirely avoidable and I feel horrible to this day. But the worse thing i feel is, I feel bad for the girl then my own gf. I cant help it. But thats the gist la, n I hurt a few friends along the way as well

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So basically, she left you because u flirted with another girl in virtual world?

Hmm. I'm not sure whether you became a better Christian just to impress her or you're your heart is with God. But anyway, if you were dating a Christian girl especially one who takes her faith seriously (growing up in a Christian family), you should know pre-marital sex is already out of the question. I don't know how old are you but usually Christians date if they are ready for marriage.

Whoa there... You do know that it's a sin to marry a divorcee right? Hooking up with one even leading to marriage is a no-no unless her divorce was because her spouse cheated.
I hope you are not just Christian just to date the first girl.

I have heard of a Christian girl who was about to get married and suddenly her fiancee cheated.
You really need to ask yourself why do you want to get into a relationship. Also, what is your purpose of marriage?
If it's just to satisfy your lust, you should think again. Also, do think properly whether you want to take the faith seriously or not before marrying a Christian girl because most of them have high expectations of what they want in a 'Godly' man. Mismatch in levels of faith can also lead to divorce.

God doesn't punish people for sins. What really happened was just a consequences of your actions. Think with your head not your ....
Everyone makes mistakes. "for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God," -Romans 3:23
However, the good news is the door is always open as long as we choose to turn away from sin.

If I were you, I will cut contact with the second girl and use the time to fix myself before getting into a relationship.

Last word of advice for you is to get a good health insurance with high coverage because you have a possibility of falling ill due to hereditary diseases.
Please listen to this advice because it's important. You don't want to be broke and have cancer at the same time.

Get well TS! Hope to hear some updates in future. If you really need someone to talk to just drop me a message.

Hmm. I'm not sure whether you became a better Christian just to impress her or you're your heart is with God. But anyway, if you were dating a Christian girl especially one who takes her faith seriously (growing up in a Christian family), you should know pre-marital sex is already out of the question. I don't know how old are you but usually Christians date if they are ready for marriage.

Whoa there... You do know that it's a sin to marry a divorcee right? Hooking up with one even leading to marriage is a no-no unless her divorce was because her spouse cheated.
I hope you are not just Christian just to date the first girl.

I have heard of a Christian girl who was about to get married and suddenly her fiancee cheated.
You really need to ask yourself why do you want to get into a relationship. Also, what is your purpose of marriage?
If it's just to satisfy your lust, you should think again. Also, do think properly whether you want to take the faith seriously or not before marrying a Christian girl because most of them have high expectations of what they want in a 'Godly' man. Mismatch in levels of faith can also lead to divorce.

God doesn't punish people for sins. What really happened was just a consequences of your actions. Think with your head not your ....
Everyone makes mistakes. "for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God," -Romans 3:23
However, the good news is the door is always open as long as we choose to turn away from sin.

If I were you, I will cut contact with the second girl and use the time to fix myself before getting into a relationship.

Last word of advice for you is to get a good health insurance with high coverage because you have a possibility of falling ill due to hereditary diseases.
Please listen to this advice because it's important. You don't want to be broke and have cancer at the same time.

Get well TS! Hope to hear some updates in future. If you really need someone to talk to just drop me a message.

Your work acquaintance. Great work!
Don't hate yourself anymore. Learn to forgive yourself just as God has forgiven you. 

".....There were not nudes or nothing physical involved"
"..... nudes or nothing physical involved"
".....nothing physical"

What job did you have before, the general scope of ?

Im sorry but I cant help but feel insulted with you holding yourself in such high regard/esteem.

Can you say you're well read in world history ? By what measure are you judging yourself by .. you're already in the top 1% saints, I do not understand the depression. I know it feels shitty after realizing demoralizing things you've done, maybe just don't do it again ? or dwell on it too much ?

Im talking about your understanding of this plane of existence … and how raising a family isn't the ultimate wisdom/endgame.

Then it'll be too easy, wouldn't it. 
http://timelineindex.com/
2.3 billion years,
name me ONE instance where introduction of an innocent being to the human condition didn't get the inductee fucked in the butt (pardon my hiri motu)

dnt yearn for what u think u want too much, u might get it …

reevaluate your priorities in life

start with making your own decisions, not taking anyones advice however condescendin/humble/holy you might think someone is …..

I'm still reading and thinking

Hang on yeah

Bottom line however, is don't give up

Take things one day at a time

It's not the end of the world, so keep yourself active, living your life as normally as you can

Other stuff, we talk later
Damn, who'dve thought, another Lenka fan

I thought I'm the only one in the world who has all her albums

I have a saying : night is when all the ghost come out. It's like all our regret often pop up during night time when all is quiet, to make us relive them again and again, right? But, it will pass with time. Trust me.

Hey man, how're you holding up?

Don't be too hard on yourself. We are only humans and we make mistakes from time to time. Sometimes yes we hate ourselves for it, but it's not the end of the world.

Me? A long time ago, I left my (then) gf to be with another girl after i found out I like another girl more. Then after I already started a new relationship with that other girl, it suddenly hit me and I start wondering whether what I did was right or not, and how I am a monster for breaking my ex-gf's heart like this.

These thoughts haunted me for quite a long time. In the beginning I would even walk in circles in the living room at night, pacing, my mind always repeating the same questions and thoughts.

It took me a long time to come to terms with myself.

In the end I chose to stick with my decision and stay with the new girl. It simply took time to make peace with what I have done.

I suppose what you are experiencing now is your rational mind trying to process the loss and guilt you feel. This takes time. As for the mistakes you have done, don't be too hard on yourself. We are only human with our raw instinct (such as lust, desire & jealousy) and sometimes we slip & give in to our instinct instead of keeping them in check with our rational minds. It happens, we are only earthly humans.

In relationships I believe most of us like to think that we are like knights in shining armor, ready to be the best bf to our gf. With that thinking in mind, when we make mistakes we tend to crush ourselves with overwhelming guilt that we've failed our gf and that we became the very monsters that we promise never to become. But sometimes this can be unrealistic and crippling. I don't think anyone should be condemned forever if they admit and learn from their mistakes.

I think nobody gets to go thru life unscathed in this grey world. We make mistake sometimes, we hurt others sometimes, but this is a learning process to overcome our mistakes and guilt. To learn to be better and to live with our earthly flawed selves.

No problem. Just trying to provide another perspective. Just don't be too hard on yourself, this takes time to process and overcome. Hang in there Bro