Hi, I'm 22 and currently undergoing 2nd semester of my bachelor degree.
I've been struggling fighting with depression after high school ended.
I'm always tired, very tired. Even easy task takes more energy that it supposed to.
My biological clock is a big mess. It's either I sleep A LOT or I barely sleep at all.
Being extremely extrovert, I pretty much hate socialize and be around people, except for a handful best friends of mine.
I barely make any friends at university due to my very low self-esteem and serious anxiety issues.
My anxiety is really bad, to an extend where I scared to death to enter my first class of the semester...since every semester, my classmates would change and I have to make new friends.
So bad that I did all my group assignment and project alone.
I have trouble with staying focus in the class. My head is running with all the negative thoughts of leaving this world.
I barely make any friends as I previously told. I would straight go home after class and stay behind the door of my room, isolating myself from everyone else.
I feel much better being alone and be in my own world and thoughts, but then the feeling of uncertainty and depression would hunting me to and fro.
It seems like my life is a loop of feeling hopeless and unhappy every seconds of the day for no realistic reason.
I pretty much lost interest in everything and can't find pleasure that life has to offer.
I once attempt to counter depression as suggested by a friend of mine who studies physiology by going to the gym and involved more in physical activities with my friends of mine, but things doesn't lasts very long and I'm back at square 1.
I have spoken to my family, but unfortunately my family wouldn't believe and will never understand how depression is a real mental issues.
Where can I seek for psychiatrist?
Preferably under government, since I'm still a student and barely can afford to pay my petrol/toll for daily commute to classes.
This post has been edited by nonequal: Sep 5 2019, 08:54 AM
Depression, helpp