（加影19日訊）“我很努力，但還是辦不到……”

曾在大馬教育文憑（SPM）和高等教育文憑（STPM）分別考獲12A和4A佳績的拉曼大學會計系優秀生，過去兩週來先后異常地向家鄉的昔日同窗好友道歉后，今晨被發現從大學教課大樓的5樓課室窗口躍下身亡，臥屍泊車場。

死者尋死原因眾說紛紜，包括死者曾向家人訴苦，指自己雖努力融入朋友群，卻達不到效果，更曾哭訴：“我很努力，但還是辦不到……”

He is a personal friend of mine from school. He was depressed due to being an outcast. I believe that this was done deliberately(but not maliciously) as he have always been challenged in terms of social skills. That among many other things led to his depression, and I think that his problem prevented him from seeking help. To those making jokes, I hope you'll feel ashamed of yourselves, making a joke out of a tragic incident. Those calling him stupid, yes, while it is stupid to take your own life, depression is real. A depressed person driven to suicide sees it as his only hope for an escape. This tragedy could have been prevented if someone was there for him when he needed them. Sadly though, none was there. I hope that this will be an eye opener, a wake up call for all of us. If you feel like you and your group have been boycotting a certain individual, think again, try to be kind to him. If you're feeling depressed, know that there is always hope, and think about your loved ones. Also, call your families before doing anything rash.

Like I said, he was a friend from school. He went to UTAR, and I went to study in Sabah. Hence, I was not there for him in person, although we kept in touch. I was always there for him when he needed to talk, other close friends too, his family was there for him too, but not in person. Up until the very end we were always encouraging him. Sadly though, none of us were sharp enough to pick up that he was suicidal, or we would have gotten him medical help. And that is my biggest regret. I wish I could have done more, I'll admit that I failed him as his friend.

But, what you said about it being his fault for not asking for help, he did, he tried to be a part of the group. Sadly, he was always taken lightly and not seriously and end up being an outcast, someone who doesn't belong(I'm sure you have an acquaintance who is being treated that way, we all do), this I believe among many other factors contributed to his depression.

I agree with you when you say we can't expect help if we don't seek. While it is not our responsibility to identify every single one and help them, all I'm asking is that we be aware that there is more to people than meets the eye.  I'm not blaming anyone, all I'm asking is for us to have awareness about depression and suicide. Its very real. Today it is him. Tomorrow, it could be you, your friends or your family. You never know.

I pernah study utar, I know how it feels and I still remember it. Not wanna be racist, but it's not easy adapt to this kind of environment. People are quite pikcky when making friends there. Those with cars, even u face problem perangai mcam babi also can get friends. I regret masuk utar, honestly speaking.

I just cant imagine myself committing suicide. I wonder what those who commit suicide think/feel when they are going through it.

wah 12A then 4A... study king..

Well, wish him luck in the afterlife or in the void. Maybe there he can actually meet somebody called friend.

Or try reincarnated again and get second chance.

suicide
suffer in hell eternity 
chinese believe

Well, hope he find some friend there. New place ma, new beginning.

I pernah study utar, I know how it feels and I still remember it. Not wanna be racist, but it's not easy adapt to this kind of environment. People are quite pikcky when making friends there. Those with cars, even u face problem perangai mcam babi also can get friends. I regret masuk utar, honestly speaking.

most of them have no social life in my school. True story, Either kena boikot because too smart or just plain loner

we have a name for this type of pipu  = "two faced"

4A STPM? STPM is tough! I'm guessing he was very hardworking plus intelligent.

I don't know what really pushed him to the edge, but RIP.

I guess none of each group treat you as real friend, you are two faced afterall  
How many university friend do you still maintain contact?

wtf

when in uni time, i like to hang with them if need to do assignment or some study group for exam..    because they got all the study material early due to kiasu. other times when relaxing will hang with different group.. cos this study ppl dunno how to relax wan.. 

I pernah study utar, I know how it feels and I still remember it. Not wanna be racist, but it's not easy adapt to this kind of environment. People are quite pikcky when making friends there. Those with cars, even u face problem perangai mcam babi also can get friends. I regret masuk utar, honestly speaking.

Loser . Failure . Dumbass .

This sums up my thoughts .

i feel u bro. u speak england, u stick with england gang.

I am different. I didn't hang out with these kind of people because I hate fake. I admit they have the advantages/skills of sucking out tips out of nowhere and super detailed study materials. Their materials were top notch, compact and simple but contain almost all information, putting to shame almost all the buku rujukan in the market.

I just can't stand their "batu" face when I asked:

Me: hey, any tips? My tips are lousy, just this and that..
Major top scorer: Oh, I no tips la, got also just same as yours.
Me: oh ok. Do you know which sections are important?
Major top scorer: Aiyo, exam la. If want score study all la
Me: .... ok.jpeg

After the exams, he actually know the questions that are going to come out. Because he shared with his group of close friends. And his friend was so happy, he can't help but to tell everyone how lucky he was to get similar tips right after the exam. Study all my punggung...

So I just carry on with my life without joining them. Study what matters.

wah 12A then 4A... study king..

I pernah study utar, I know how it feels and I still remember it. Not wanna be racist, but it's not easy adapt to this kind of environment. People are quite pikcky when making friends there. Those with cars, even u face problem perangai mcam babi also can get friends. I regret masuk utar, honestly speaking.

why u call as 2 face? those smart people also wanted smart ppl in study group u think they will let slow student join and buta buta copy notes?, i can blend with them and contribute, so when graduate also same 1st class grades,  .. ,
but when enjoy time, they dont want to go enjoy ma.. ask go casino in london also dowan.. so will have different group to go touring UK, usa and Australia..
anyway most of them also overseas, Sg, HK, auz, how to see them? if drop a email or facebook then got la..

IMO, for those university where most of the students are upper middle class chinese, basic car like proton or kancil also will get looked down upon.

Minimum standard is at least a entry level japanese car like vios or city.

I have known quite alot of people who are actually my close friends who will judge people solely based on the car that said person drives.

5th floor only so low....looser

second tat. those who drive vios and none local car except myvi r consider fren while those who drive proton r just merely a driver for them. sad

I am different. I didn't hang out with these kind of people because I hate fake. I admit they have the advantages/skills of sucking out tips out of nowhere and super detailed study materials. Their materials were top notch, compact and simple but contain almost all information, putting to shame almost all the buku rujukan in the market.

I just can't stand their "batu" face when I asked:

Me: hey, any tips? My tips are lousy, just this and that..
Major top scorer: Oh, I no tips la, got also just same as yours.
Me: oh ok. Do you know which sections are important?
Major top scorer: Aiyo, exam la. If want score study all la
Me: .... ok.jpeg

After the exams, he actually know the questions that are going to come out. Because he shared with his group of close friends. And his friend was so happy, he can't help but to tell everyone how lucky he was to get similar tips right after the exam. Study all my punggung...

So I just carry on with my life without joining them. Study what matters.

second tat. those who drive vios and none local car except myvi r consider fren while those who drive proton r just merely a driver for them. sad

Blue and red title: He tried, but he still couldn't
Yellow subtitle: He lamented his friendship problem. UTAR student jumps to death

Source: http://www.chinapress.com.my/node/441436
KAJANG - An accountancy student from Universiti Tunku Abdul Rahman (UTAR) has chosen to end his life by jumping from the fifth floor of the teaching block. His body was found at a parking lot.

Speculation is rife about his cause of suicide, but his family members recalled that the boy had expressed his difficulties in making friends earlier. He was also reportedly to have apologised to his old schoolmates in the past two weeks without any explanation.

He was also said to have attempted to get into the social circle in his university but to no avail. He was quoted as saying that, "I tried, but I still couldn't...".

The deceased, identified as Lim Ming Chun (transliteration), is a high-achiever in national examinations, scoring 12A and 4A in Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia (SPM) and Sijil Tinggi Persekolahan Malaysia (STPM) respectively.

I pernah study utar, I know how it feels and I still remember it. Not wanna be racist, but it's not easy adapt to this kind of environment. People are quite pikcky when making friends there. Those with cars, even u face problem perangai mcam babi also can get friends. I regret masuk utar, honestly speaking.

IMO, for those university where most of the students are upper middle class chinese, basic car like proton or kancil also will get looked down upon.

Minimum standard is at least a entry level japanese car like vios or city.

I have known quite alot of people who are actually my close friends who will judge people solely based on the car that said person drives.

I pernah study utar, I know how it feels and I still remember it. Not wanna be racist, but it's not easy adapt to this kind of environment. People are quite pikcky when making friends there. Those with cars, even u face problem perangai mcam babi also can get friends. I regret masuk utar, honestly speaking.

I am different. I didn't hang out with these kind of people because I hate fake. I admit they have the advantages/skills of sucking out tips out of nowhere and super detailed study materials. Their materials were top notch, compact and simple but contain almost all information, putting to shame almost all the buku rujukan in the market.

I just can't stand their "batu" face when I asked:

Me: hey, any tips? My tips are lousy, just this and that..
Major top scorer: Oh, I no tips la, got also just same as yours.
Me: oh ok. Do you know which sections are important?
Major top scorer: Aiyo, exam la. If want score study all la
Me: .... ok.jpeg

After the exams, he actually know the questions that are going to come out. Because he shared with his group of close friends. And his friend was so happy, he can't help but to tell everyone how lucky he was to get similar tips right after the exam. Study all my punggung...

So I just carry on with my life without joining them. Study what matters.

I pernah study utar, I know how it feels and I still remember it. Not wanna be racist, but it's not easy adapt to this kind of environment. People are quite pikcky when making friends there. Those with cars, even u face problem perangai mcam babi also can get friends. I regret masuk utar, honestly speaking.

I am different. I didn't hang out with these kind of people because I hate fake. I admit they have the advantages/skills of sucking out tips out of nowhere and super detailed study materials. Their materials were top notch, compact and simple but contain almost all information, putting to shame almost all the buku rujukan in the market.

I just can't stand their "batu" face when I asked:

Me: hey, any tips? My tips are lousy, just this and that..
Major top scorer: Oh, I no tips la, got also just same as yours.
Me: oh ok. Do you know which sections are important?
Major top scorer: Aiyo, exam la. If want score study all la
Me: .... ok.jpeg

After the exams, he actually know the questions that are going to come out. Because he shared with his group of close friends. And his friend was so happy, he can't help but to tell everyone how lucky he was to get similar tips right after the exam. Study all my punggung...

So I just carry on with my life without joining them. Study what matters.

u useful they will share inform
u useless ass hole they ignore u

I could emphatize with that maajor top score guy. He probably got his "tips" or knowledge/notes through sheer hard work and consistent studying.

if i were him, i would only willing to share my work with very close friends as i would feel hard-done by sharing these notes with random people.

don't forget that in the examination, you are also his competitor

The environment and his lecturers should have been more proactive in picking up the warning signs. It shows the cold and insular environment that the institution has and perhaps he felt that there weren't people that cared for his problems especially depression. It is a shame that an institution that is so renoun should actually have people trained to mentor and supervise the wellbeing of students and see that people don't go over the cliff left unsupervised. Today we see a couple get convicted of crimes that show that our youth are suffering from delinquency and the defects of our society that is not paying attention to the emotional needs of people. We pay to much attention to the material aspects of life and not enough thought goes into wellbeing and balance state of mind and health. It is sad that we are becoming a mindless society only bent on prosecuting victims of a failed society.

u useful they will share inform
u useless ass hole they ignore u

RIP. if only he met /k/. at least he can release his stress and depression here

That's why there's TARC. lol.

u malay ar?
juz asking because u say racist issue u faced during study'?

btw,get my degree 1 month ago in utar engineering dep, now waiting convo while working

mi SPM -4A others B,no STPM, foundation ( no A) ----> Degree ( 1 A for 4 years )      Nw in singapore working no gain no loss, normal

Yeah well, indeed he was at least three times more hardworking than me. I was addicted to gaming last time. But those tips his friend blurted out had the exact same question, only the values were changed.

I do not hate him for being more hardworking and got slightly better results than me in the end, I hated him for his kiasu-ness and being fake. It's like when I got benefit, he comes and stick to me. When I have no more benefit, he will leave and stick to others that have higher benefits. Tell you my story.

Once he asked me to go sing karaoke. One rented car, 6 people, share all expenses including petrol and singing and rent. I said ok. The day before outing, he told me cancel. I said ok, didn't suspect a thing. One week later I found out he did went out to karaoke, just that another person had replaced me. That guy was a major top scorer also. I suspected I was only invited to fill in the gap and to distribute out the expenses to more people. So disappointed in him.

you guys would probably just speed up his suicide with your constant "go 14th floor pls >>>>>>>>"

I quit UTAR and went to TARC, not much difference. TARC only a little bit better..
I'm half chinese. It's not about race, in UTAR, even chinese makan chinese. It's about the personality/money that matters there..

Actually there are a bunch of good ktards here. Sure we mess around with the "go 14th floor please" phrase. But once we detected something is wrong, ktards are more than willing to help out if they are able to.

Not really, if /k/ pushed too hard, they really 14th floor.