Hmm,
i dont know how...
i dont feel like i want to lose him
he is soooo good to me, he know i feeling weird when he do like that and he stop it when i took too much
afterwards he still comfort me back
thats why i feel he very good to me
i think most man hard to control at this isn't it? Once they wan it they will force their gf to do this and even their gf dont wan suddenly they wont stop it isn't it?

I dono bout having baby but he told me alot of way in how to avoid pregnancy
so i believe he wont lie me because he dont wan much trouble too
just that i not able to overcome this feeling
so i was quite confuse in how should i think now

Like a member here once said, you stand a better chance of getting hit by a car in Malaysia than getting pregnant (using protection of course) so  go for it.

Oh by the way, I forgot to add on point. Your boyfriend is not gatal, he's normal. You on the other hand... are not.

Maybe I should try it too since you mention it's good