can u explain wtf in ur life that is going wrong? or wat things u feel make u unhappy?

this is regret. and u are in denial of ur own regret.

dont tell me u rather kill urself than make amends of ur mistakes? if this is true then ur problem is ur own ego.

u worry everyday if u will be forgiven or not, but u never willingly go ahead and try to beg for forgiveness. even if u did ask for forgiveness and u didn't get forgiven, that's their right to forgive u or not. u made a mistake, u have to live with the aftermath for the rest of ur life.

u can't be sad or angry that ppl dunt forgive u. who r u to ask for such things when u have done mistake? u think only by that forgiveness u can move on and be happy? that's very cowardice

true man swallow their mistakes and pain and have that scar in their heart to teach them to be a better man. who in this world don't have pain, regret and sadness? the difference is some people choose to let that sad bad things in their life become a lesson for them to better themselves. be more understanding, more forgiving, and more gentle to other people. u are a bad son? be a better father. u are a useless lover? be a better husband. u are a dumb student? be a dilligent worker.


truly, the kindest amongst people are often the ones that was hurt the most.




now stop being a pussy and man up

I'm gay!, I'm an embarrassment to my family, I'm that cacat kids every family has, I will never be the son that my parents want me to be, I will never be able to give them grandchild that they want. No matter how good I am when I was a kid, no matter how successful I am compared to all the kids they've known. Yes I regret it, i regret leaving my family, but when you are under pressure and option are limited, fight or flight, and I can't fight my parents. How many malay parents you know can accept their son like me? NONE...!

oh its a gay?

yer no wonder. suits u then

got one girl I used to date, she pretty but she got very bad anxiety attack.

whenever she is nervous, her palm will get sweaty.

rather do something in my life, than plan for the end to come

Serious Kopitiam: Find someone to talk to, open up to someone that would listen to you. That's the first step. If you keep it all to yourself, you'll just fall deeper into a downward spiral.

Kopitiam: 14th floor

It cannot be cured, it can be contained with chems. Depression is chemical anyway

The first step, I think, is for you to accept yourself. Stand tall. And fark everyone else.

Never allow yourself to be a victim. Either of your family or society.

If you allow yourself to be degraded, you will find it very difficult to climb out of the perigi.

Winston Churchill described his depression a “black dog”. When you are overcome with depression, it’s like you’re forever being chased by this black dog. You will just run and run further away from the grips of sanity. Don’t let the black dog chase you. Turn around and chase after it instead.

Find a support network amongst the gay community. As for your last question above, yes, there are some! The toxicity might just be from your own family. Sadly, sometimes you need to melentur the toxicity. Stay away.

Get a proper diagnosis. Can go to govt hospital. They do prescribe anti depressants.

This post has been edited by overthemoon: Nov 25 2020, 02:00 AM

Go 14th floor and be an hero

Meditation, it helps alot.
But must be patient la..

It's like a person who is weak phisically, ask can I get stronger and healthier.
Yes, with exercise. But it takes a long time, can't expect do one time work out can get stronger the next day. but definitely exercise works. U get healthier and stronger bit by bit and u won't realize along the way. Untill about 3 months of consistent exercise later and u reflect back 3 months ago u can tell for certain your health improved.

Meditation is like exercise. Along the way u won't realize it's effect and the process is slow enough that u keep wondering am I wasting my time. After a certain period of time u be able to tell with a level of conviction that your depression is milder, and your temperament improved.

I say, if one is depressed and nothing seem to work, trying meditation really have nothing to lose. I recommend mindfulness.

Find some meditation apps.

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