QUOTE(13af @ Jan 11 2018, 08:46 PM)
Really stressed out during work
I understand as a fresh gradnite is the learning stage which definitely is difficult
But I can't really withstand the pressure
During work, I need to continue to pretend to be a bright cheerful person
But now can't pretend anymore and in the end just getting emotional
Somehow before still can continue to kidding about stress and slide it away
Until today really burst out in front of my employer
If I keep busy with stuff I still might be able to pull it off
But when someone asking me about my personal feeling and condition, really couldn't help but getting emotion burst
Actually I can't feel sad or anything
But just got the urge want to cry and finally cry out
QUOTE(13af @ Jan 16 2018, 10:21 PM)
Actually it is worse that I am a guy in fact
Feeling pathetic for being mentally weak
Cried for two days straight for no reason (still can logically acknowledge that there is nothing worth to cry or bring sad, and actually I can't feel any sadness or so, but still can't control myself but cry)
Actually cannot get much interest in the things that I used to do anymore
Will just feel like staying in bed and do nothing, even when don't have the appetite to eat
You don't have to blame yourself. Everyone has a weak point and some people are just more sensitive than others, be it male or female. However, I hope you can make it a point to control your anger/ tears/ temper in front of your bosses or colleagues. If you think something is about to burst, excuse yourself and leave the room. Calm down then walk back in.
This job is making you depressed, so I suggest you try to work things out with your superior or leave. The job market is moving at the moment due to near-CNY period. People are leaving once they get their bonus. So if you're serious about leaving, these 1-2 months is the best time to job hunt.
You're not the cause of it. So make a change and feel better about it. Wake up 1 hour earlier than usual, go for a run/ jog around your park/ garden. Take a shower and hearty breakfast then get to work with a positive mindset. See if that will change for the better.
This post has been edited by sweet_pez: Jan 17 2018, 03:11 PM