haih.. as of now.. i feel that our relationship alone.. dont count mom and her child yet..

right now as we're apart.. even though for a month.. i feel that i'm being left out in the dark.. like first week we communicated a fair bit.. but after that.. it has been very.. quiet.. many times i've tried to contact her.. and almost most of the time she doesnt answer.. and she only contacts me once in a while.. lol i think there is something very wrong about our relationship already.. sigh

lol.. well.. not really.. more to the part where i feel that i'm putting too much commitment into this relationship.. which i always do.. heh.. and when the other half doesnt commit a much as i do, i get disappointed and feel sad.. maybe its my owm problem, but i feel that she also made some mistakes? i dunno lol no choice lo.. another 17 more days b4 she comes back.. just have to bear with it la i guess.. not to mention mom is constantly scolding me for every small little mistakes i do .. calling me immature.. lolz.. lucky still have u guys

yea.. well the best is to talk things over haha..

but one thing for sure that i have realised.. if i ever get into a long distance relationship again.. i think i'm gonna need alot of commitment from my other half lol.. dunno la

This post has been edited by dazzywazzy: Oct 16 2007, 10:37 AM

i so agree with that lol ..cuz when u talk on the phone or sms.. its just words.. or a voice.. u cant really tell its their true feelings.. like u can lie and get away with it..

when u're talking face to face.. u can see their expression.. body language.. then u can tell alot of things when they answer u.. lol.. i prefer face to face talks anyway..

guys i'm heartbroken.. something is happening with my gf over in NZ.. i believe its her ex-bf and she's not telling me about it.. sigh.. i'm so super upset and heartbroken now

this morning, i got a msg from her saying f*k off. dont f*king send me msgs. few hours later she send me another msg saying she didnt send it.. ask me wait for her to call on thursday.. meanwhile please be patient with her. dont reply

just explains.. why the past few days.. she can only sms me.. but she never picks up my calls. i dont know wat exactly is going on.. i dont know wat she has been doing.. whether she was with him the past few days.. but i'm pretty sure only her ex bf would send me that msg.. and why would she need to cut connection with me.. until thursday when she calls me?

sigh.. i dunno la.. i dont wanna suspect her or anything.. but she has left me too much in the dark.. and now this kinda thing.. i have no more faith

i dunno.. thats why i need to listen to her reasons on thursday.. sigh.. no choice ler just have to wait.. i'm expecting the worst already

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Added on October 17, 2007, 11:13 amyea.. i know that too.. thanks for the advise.. just wait tomorrow lor..

This post has been edited by dazzywazzy: Oct 17 2007, 11:13 AM

regarding this matter...
is she having any problem to contact u? or usually she can caontact u through phone or msn easily 1?
well she can contact me by my phone cuz i'll always have my phone by my side and i'll answer any call or sms.. problem is i have problem trying to contact her.. her first week there.. she will call me everyday.. at least twice, i call her also she will answer.. the past week..she got send me some sms, but i call her she will never answer.. even if she just sent me a sms 10 seconds ago

wat's her situation with the ex bf?
i have no idea.. las week she told me.. her ex bf came looking for her and they talked.. and he is persuading her to stay back.. but she said no.. but right now i dont know wats going on, due the the lack of communication

u gotta be patient and wait if she asked u to do so..thursday only u throw all the question mark to her...
so that she got nth to blame or wat...
in a relationship u can have no money,no car,no support from family and friends...
but relationship is about faith, trust and sincerity...
wat's the point having a relationship if dun have these...
hope the both of u understand this....


yes i do understand.. but i just cant help myself but wonder how did someone manage to get hold of her phone and send a msg like that to me.. and later she send me another msg saying it wasnt her.. and i cannot contact her till she contacts me on thursday.. yes.. she might be having problems with her ex.. but.. that rude msg was sent at 7AM in the morning.. she told me she's staying with her girlfriend.. if it was her gf.. i'm sure she wont need to cut me off till thursday and she could just explain her friend was drunk? or psycho.. so i'm pretty sure.. is her ex that sent that msg.. how he sent that msg with her phone at 7 AM in the morning? i dunno

so yeh.. gonna throw the question mark at her tomorrow. see wat kinda answer she give.. and i r eally hope she doesnt hide or lie to me

sigh.. i'm trying my best not to think about it.. my ex highschool mate's dad just passed away.. tmorrow 7pm my friends going to see him.. and around that time my gf oso gonna call.. both oso important.. but i guess i better settle myself first.. sigh..

trying not to think about the problem.. but i cant help it... i love her yet i feel lost.. sigh.. i dunno ler.. feel like giving up.. feel like saving it.. HAIH

nah i doubt i'm going my friends thing.. i wanna settle my own prob first.. then maybe later i go..

her EX BF.. lol not bf.. I"M HER BF ..

suiteng.. how shoul di start the conversation..
just say hello? lol and let her talk? sure she'll ask how i am etc etc.. and if she doesnt say anythign about it? help :S i dun wanna say the wrong things or do the wrong things that may ruin the relationship.. yet i'm also curious to know wat's going on aio i suck so bad

heh.. i also would like to know

funeral is tonight.. at 7pm.. about the same time as i think she might call.. cuz she know i finish work around that time. lol.. sigh.. still no contact yet.. oh well

well.. update.. she didnt call..

right now i have a feeling of giving up.. but i guess i'll give her another 3-4 days .. heh

*speechless*

i tried calling her.. i went straight to the mail box.. either phone batt dead.. or something happened to her phone.. i sent her a msg just asking wats up

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Added on October 19, 2007, 12:58 pmhmmm why would she be waiting for me if she ask me to wait for her call?

This post has been edited by dazzywazzy: Oct 19 2007, 12:58 PM

lol spunk.. i know just how u feel...

LOL.. she still hasnt called.. her phone is still out.. sigh dunno wats going on..zzz

This post has been edited by dazzywazzy: Oct 20 2007, 11:31 AM

i look at my gf pic now i very heartache.. lol but yeh.. keep holding on >.<

hmm wah.. its like 3 days already.. her phone is till out of reach.. should i send her friend on friendster a msg and ask wats going on?

dunno la panda.. she hasnt contacted me.. i tried to call her phone but keep going straight into her mailbox..

1- her phone rosak?
2- lost it?
3- since she told me b4 the sms.. she's going out of town to a friends place.. maybe she left it at her previous place?
4- she changed number...<-- scary.. lol.. haihz

maybe i should msg her friend on friendster.. she tumpang stay at her a few friends house.. i happen to know one of the person she stayed with.. cuz she told me..

it hink i'll give her a few more days b4 i ask her friend la... sigh.. tough situation.. right no i feel so.. stone.. like wanna care.. dun wanna care.. sigh



lol spunk u sound like a guy hahaha playa?

of course i'm worried la.. but.. haih.. but now like.. half worried.. half dun care.. lol..
i also had thought that her ex bf might did something.. ..
but i didnt put it in the 4 possibilities.. heh.. guess i'll wait another few days more la...keep my fingers crossed

This post has been edited by dazzywazzy: Oct 21 2007, 07:22 PM

lol i just hate it when u're worrying about something and u cant sleep.. ur heart feels uneasy.. beats really fast.. u cant think straight. sigh

i worry so much.. last time i had to take anti depressants.. a week a go a was worried and depressed.. but i wasnt as bad as b4.. learnt to control myself abit lol.. now i'm feeling more stoned than worried.. =/