i liked this girl in my class. she is the cutest girl in that class.
but i was too chicken to talk to her. ( form 2 ma.. balls kecik lagi time tuh.)

so i just stare at her when i got chance and when i wanted to talk to her, i became to nervous then i backed out.
until form 5 ( this time got balls ), i smsed her and say hi. she replied and layan me. we smsed everyday and i thought this is my chance!

so when cuti spm, ( i went to SBP school. shes stuck in my old school back home.) i went to her house lepak2 and get 'connecting'. Then...starting to my biggest mistake... we becomed bestfriend .. we gayut/chat/sms everyday. and we talked about everything. i was so naive to think that she has a thing for me.

then, i went to matrix. when i`m there, i sked i might lose her since i`m far and no time to sms,call,ect. ( matrix mah..)
i told her how i really feel when i`m back home with all the balls i got.
guess what? she told me to give her a week to think about it. so i wait. then she said, she really likes me but not as a couple. she was not ready,ect,bullsh|t. she told me she is afraid that if we broke up, we cant be friends no more.

so she come out with a conclusion that we become closer but not as a couple, as an apprentice couple???... (i know, i was pawned ). i remember her words, "kalau kita ada click, kita couple la.." . there is a lot of guys kacau2 her as she is quite popular... she even ask me to act as he boyfriend to get rid of them <--- this is bad.

we went on it for a couple of months then, she started to not reply sms, call sometimes and to my surprising, she told me she found someone and dono how to tell me. i felt so . i lose myself and marah2 her till she cry. i told her to get the fucuk out of my life ect. ( i know.. thats not what real man do )

i dont blame girls. i just set in my mind there is a lot of better fish out there.
i started to be more straight to the point and NEVER ask to be her friend.
ckp nk berkenalan sudeh.. and it works! no need to show money ect. just be yourself.
got my point? marah2 , sober, ect, wont get you a girlfriend.