Just read the whole 30 pages.
TS 's story here really touched me.
Or shud i say.
WARNED ME.
Anyways i really feel sorry for you bro.
Times like this i would ride bike on the highways exceeding more than 200kmh.
Just to feel the breeze and adrenaline.
I know its dangerous to speed that fast but its really good to cool off your head.
Okay, what i want to say is. I have a similiar case as TS.
This girl, i just known her a month ago only.
I met her when she send in her lappy for me to repair.
Instantly i got her contact number. (bla,bla,bla)
And just few weeks she called me again to troubleshoot her pc.
I went into her hostel... And you noe.. Tech stuff.
And in someway she wanted someone to teach her english. I do not know why she wanted me to teach her english coz my grammar also very noobz....
Okay.. To the point... She owaz call me whenever she needs help in her assignment.
For these past few weeks i have been completing her assignments until late night.. maybe 3am- 4am? This has been affecting my current job.. I do not get enuf sleep. But thats okay (from what i think) Im helping her tho. Thats enuf to keep me satisfied.. As time past.. i develop some feelings for her.. I noe that she has a boyfriend and so.. But sometimes.. she would share her moments with me saying her condition between with her bf.. Saying she wants to break la.. etc all that shit... I dont really care much.. I just like spending my time with her.. We do hang out.. And ive been to her hometown more than 3 times... her hostel is the place i usually would meet and find her.. I would occasionally find her after work as my office is just near her place. There are some moments she would just hold my hand.. tease me.. you know those stuff... make fun of ppl 's hair.. wtf.... which i find that intriguing.. Its just that .. she has a boyfriend... I sometimes have thoughts whether do i need to confess to her? Sometimes reading topics like this , i would just stick to being friends but i really like her. I would do anything just to help her. I know myself being used as a doormat but.. not technically... Sometimes she treats me dinner and buy clothes for me.. So i guess thats the return i get.. TS, i need your advice here.