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He came to seek those who are lost in their life, including those who are humble enough to admit they need God, this type God really honours.
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Romans 5
Peace and Hope
1 Therefore, since we have been
justified through faith,
we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, 2 through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we boast in the hope of the glory of God. 3 Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; 4 perseverance, character; and character, hope. 5 And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us.
6 You see, at just the right time,
when we were still powerless, Christ died for the ungodly. 7 Very rarely will anyone die for a righteous person, though for a good person someone might possibly dare to die. 8
But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.9 Since we have now been justified by his blood, how much more shall we be saved from God’s wrath through him! 10
For if, while we were God’s enemies, we were reconciled to him through the death of his Son, how much more, having been reconciled, shall we be saved through his life! 11 Not only is this so, but we also boast in God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have now received reconciliation.
God us very good. Although we have sins he still seek us so we can be free. He sacrifices himself for us. Sometimes we see truth world is not fair. We shouted to him why this world like this but he has a great plan for us. He wants us become better. I am thankful I have failures in life so I can seek him and ask for help. By the way heaven is very long time. We still need to face the 1000 years millenium era.