This cny hubby family came and stay over at our place fr few days (the hse tht we r staying in now belongs to his parents) so all his sisters n family cram into the house creating havoc.. rubbish n worn diapers thrown here n there.. drinks left half not finish din bother to throw away..used my bb tub to bathe their baby and din bother to clean till when I wanted to use I have to clear up myself. . The list goes on..

I was furious because I like my environment clean n organised. . Stuff arranged properly. . I din blow in frnt of his family bt of cuz my face showed im unhappy.. today his sisters was telling my husband how "afraid" they r with me cuz I showing black face.. and husband always follows his family words.. kept saying im stubborn selfish.. din care bout others feeling. .

And walked out to another room after 1 hr of argument. . This is d 2nd time tht he fight with me over these matter n he always says im stubborn etc etc...

I feel like leaving cuz theres no point tht I come home to face sumbody who no longer appreciate what ive done.. baby was sent to bbsitter day n nite n he refuse to bring baby back even though baby is already 6 months.. I missed my baby so much n suspecting bbsitter is not feeding him well cuz he is not gaining weight fast enuf to be within the normal line.. its already on the yellow line.. tried finding another bbsitter bt cant get as all full..

Now he kept saying want to have 2nd baby!!!.. of cuz I din allow him to touch me as im not ready for 2nd baby.. I wanted age gap of 3 yrs when my 1st baby can take care of hkmself first..im scared as we dont have mil or my mom to take care.. financially wud b burden also.. bt hubby insist to hav 2nd baby.. so we fight again..

I feel sad n angry tht he never see things in my view and jz kept wanting to go his way.. and when I dun agree then it  becomes another fight..

Everyday I come home to eat alone for dinner he cum bck at 9 or 9.30.. ive got nobody to talk to.. not even asking me how was my day..

Its really sad tht we r jz married 1yr plus tht we hav so many things to fight about.. I think im gonna slip into depression frm missing my baby to having to face his dirty n unorganised family..