I don’t know if this is a problem but it’s really getting into me now. To cut the whole story short, it’s just basically about me and this girl – a very special girl in my life, but we are only friends, and you could say that we are sometimes more than friends, yet at the same time, just friends.
I’ve known her for years, we’ve grown so close, we’ve grown so far apart from each other and we got close again. This is a big loop some kinda relationship going on in a circle.
Things just got so heated up when she was posted here in Melbourne for work and she is just around for a few months. (I moved here 2yrs ago and we were just like strangers after I got here) but now since she came here and I am so available, we hang out really frequent and we started sleeping with each other again. I admit I am one playboy, but she is a bigger player than I am! This is what is bothering me, I thought I am the cool one but it seems like she doesn’t even care about this.
As a guy with a big ego, I am afraid that I might get hurt for real this time because I think I am actually falling for her now after all the years.

yah, i just prefer not to use my usual account to stay anon. prob?
anyway, let's just focus on the real issue here, thanks

the thing is I thought that I know the rules all these while and I'm fine with it. But thinking of her as a bigger player and a heartbreaker, and me starting to have some feelings for me just drive me nuts.

she confessed to me few yrs ago but I told her we are just friends and she will always be special to me. That is because I do not like to be in a relationship. So, to me, I thought that she likes me all these while, but I just can't feel that from her anymore now eventho we are so close now to each other.
Life is funny, I want her to like me or love me now but she doesn't.
This is one of the bigger parts where I can't accept it, maybe due to my ego as well.

as a guy like me, it's hard to say it out... and we hardly talk about our feelings

yeah sucks man, now even when she caught me looking deeply into her eyes but I don't see any reactions from her. Sads

man.. we had this kind of rel. way back before I moved here and we slept together right before I flew and now we are doing it again. Has been going on for about 3-4 yrs on/off. Love? I thought I do not know what love is, what is this love? I just want to know if I am the only guy for her now.
But we don't talk about this

yeah im so screwed this time. I thought that I am the cool one.
and how can a guy say NO to the girl he likes? LOL
I dunno what's she thinking but we're just good this way. It's just me.
Oh man, we all know the rules of the game but sometimes shitz jz happened.

why is this romantic? me falling for her? T.T

cos i started to really care about her, spilled out that i'm happy when i see her, told her she's the best and all but she didn't say anything back. just no comment. and i kept thinking about her, which is not usual for me.

LOL sounds like some typical chinese / taiwanese drama huh

man... ure da man! r u talking based on ur own experiences? but i don't do so many fubu at the same time, one gal at a time and usually will be once/ twice then no more contact. but this girl.. i don't know what to say, she's just special. nvr had enough of her

a pro player always wears a helmet

This post has been edited by magnusEd001: Sep 13 2013, 06:28 PM