Im 20 years old. I realized that I am very poor in concentrating and remembering things since childhood, but I thought it was normal as a part of growing up and so I just move on, until a few years ago where my emotional health starts to decline. Somehow It made me feel confused, where I lost my grip on anything including time and place. Now I became antisocial, have no self esteem and stressed all the time but not to the point of depression because I have my ways to cope it. I have to rely on someone to get to anywhere because I have no sense of direction at all and I need a companion no matter where I go because Im just too scared to go anywhere by myself. I tried to travel or work by myself, in the end i suffered panic attack the moment i start doing it, even though it is very near to my house. I can hardly make any decision in life therefore I followed my friend to the same college with the same course while I know I am not interested in that course. I struggled just to pass my tests, with triple the effort my friend put to get straight A's. Im currently still a college student, where my cgpa is just above passing rate. My life is a mess.
I realized that I need to do something about it so I requested my father bring me to a psychiatrist. This was a year ago. He diagnosed my condition as depression and so i was prescribed with antidepressants for 6 months. My condition remains unchanged but he keep on insist that I have depression. In the end i gave up and stopped seeing him because it is too tiring as it takes an hours to reach his place and have to wait for hours just to see him. The moment i realized the time and money went wasted i felt sorry for my dad and therefore i never sought for further diagnosis from him.
Recently i cant cope with this condition again and today my dad bought me to a physician. I wasn't able to explain much about my condition and she stopped me. She told me that as a physician she need to detect if any physical abnormality present in me therefore she started a series of diagnosis including the MRI and blood tests. It took me 9 hours total to complete ( most of the time spent waiting ) and it costs my dad a fortune. In the end, the scans show nothing abnormal, and chased me off like that. Once again i felt deep regret for wasting my dads time as he took a day off from his work and the amount of money went burnt. I swore not to mention about my condition to my father again.
Now, im completely clueless about what to do. Im feel so hopeless now and i dont know how to continue my life. What should i do? I desperately need advice..
Btw, sorry for the long post and any grammatical errors.

play memory games daily, it helps.

Is it paranoid? If not, play some games to relax urself... Or find someone u trust to speak out ur difficulties
You need to be more confident of yourself...

Hope this helps :-)

Try to build up a confidence. I know it's hard but do it step by step. Learn to mingle with people. Say 'HI' to stranger is not that hard.

Try sports? Jogging helps to release stress & worries

I do sports, and the blood test is fine.. guess nothing wrong with my physical tho.. btw, both the physician and psychiatrist are very bad..


This post has been edited by zzzlin: Sep 22 2012, 01:20 AM

i hav a similar friend like u... all you need like some people here said u need confidence... u need to talk more engage more.. ots easier said then done i kno but u just hav to push ur self veleive in something. make a goal... life is tough but dont make it even harder... you create ur future we are not destine to fail

I think you can spend time going out with your friends->having tea sessions, doing sports together, movies, partying perhaps and etc...Don't keep on telling yourself it is hard or give reasons to yourself that you can't do it, you need to try to take the first step to social...courage and confidence are the keys...
Read books that give us motivation and aspiration like autobiography may be? When is the last time you laugh? Watch comedy or entertaiment tv shows, find the laughter...Laughter is the Best Medicine.

Your Condition is too deep and complicated to take the simple advice given by others above.

Clearly there are some serious problems with your brain chemistry. All your thoughts, sensations and emotions are nothing more than chemical reactions produced in your brain. You can stimulate positive chemicals (e.g Serotonin) to a certain extent by the advice given above, but they are rarely effective in a serious imbalance like your case.

Your diet also plays an important part in the production of these chemicals. But at the moment it would be difficult to find a solution as there are too much complications involved.

In the meantime you have no choice but to see another Psychiatrist. You have to accept that your brain is not like a normal person's. Since you Brain is overwhelmed by bad chemicals, you need to replace them temporarily with good chemicals given by your psychiatrist.

It the drug by your first psychiatrist didn't work, inform the new psychiatrist so that he can try a different one.

Your priority now is to work with the psychiatrist to feel better first (it might take months or a year even). Only after that can you start to reduce slowly the drugs and see if your brain has recovered sufficiently to cope on it's own.

BTW seeing a psychiatrist does not mean your are crazy as many people think. It's just a medical condition with your Brain Chemicals that need to be treated as soon as possible.

Good Luck.

You have a family that loves you too much.

It's good that you actually realized you own problem now. I have seen kids older than you that are worse that you and do not even bother about it.

You should learn to be more independent.
Go out more often and learn how to be a more matured person.
Also keep on reminding yourself to be a more positive person. Don't say you can't do it until you tried it.

Do easy and small little things slowly and by bit. Example, go out take a meal on your own. Even if your parents cooked, just tell them off nicely that you feel like eating out by yourself. These are all considered independence and decision making skill. It can help you to improve your character.

It is good that you are aware that you have a problem and that you approached your father about your condition. Do not stop talking to your father regarding your problems. Your father was most happy to bring you to the specialists concerned out of love for you. At times like this you need family members and people around you to talk to.

Try and recall if there was any event that could have triggered your decline in 'emotional health' as you call it. Sometimes an event like an operation, a loss of someone dear to you or a death in the family may trigger a depression.

I feel a psychologist may be more suited to diagnosing and treating your condition. Since you are old enough you may discuss with your father about engaging the services of a psychologist and go for consultation on your own.

Good luck TS and if you need to talk to someone you could always come to LYN.

If indepth scans found nothing abnormal, its $$$ well spent. You should have ONE LESS WORRY.

From the way you puts it (chase you away, waste $$$ etc)... you're merely PESSIMISTIC and low self confidence?

Ah ... the same self-inflicted problem . Take up a hobby . Do things you like to do . Build up your social skills and meet new friends . Do sports and exercise . I assume you're a girl so try building up your confidence by making yourself look good .

Life is sooo good why waste it ? You still have more years to go girl .

Eat raisin daily. Helps me. Not just me btw. Good Luck sis.

btw im not depressed.. i have some wonderful friends and we socialize with each other quite often.. i do sports and eat much.. but u noe, when u lived in ur hometown for 10+ years d, and u still cant remember the way to any near place even though it just involve a few turns, u noe ur memory is seriously wrong.. like i said, i've been having this confusion since a long time, it changed my life, i can hold on, but how long can i hold on like this? i cant just rely on anybody till i get old..
somehow i think Ngto's comment makes sense..