need to recall back as i write this, ohmai.. my eye was so heavy now. gd9 guys, tomorrow i'll update the part that happen lately.

since then, our relationship getting closer. however our relationship still remain in "complicated zone" which was intimate than a friend but lesser than a lovely dating couple. I would always energetic at work despite of a busy day as I'm looking forward to see her and spending our time together. we no longer travel together for work unless there're some important errand that require her presence. however we still managed to see each another and catch up in the pantry almost every single morning.

so then 1 night which was last week, I was having gathering with my former coursemate at sushi zanmai @ mv. we have our gathering once in a while and that night there're abt 8 or 9 of us. they are my former diploma coursemates at tar college many years ago. After diploma, some further their study at local at the course of their choice, some went abroad, some straight go to their respective working industry. for myself, i further my study locally at a particular course with few coursemates who were not present that night. we chat and gossip abt almost anything. abt who got opportunity working abroad, who became lecturer, who were married and bla bla bla. 1 of the topic we talk abt is relationship. surely they'll pointing toward those unattached single or foreveralone and check abt the status of their relationship and make fun of it. i'm one of it previously, been told them that I'm still single and find no one since past relationship ( I got dumped by my former 3 years back and been foreveralone since then) this time I will felt embarrassed if I answer the same thing. so I decide to twist the fact a little.

Me: yeah, I'm still single but then now having an affection with a girl la. she did show her interest. (deep in my heart sandy was the girl I meant)

one of the girl coursemate named YC then very anxious to know,

YC: who was that? in ur facebook? hmm.. I will inquire abt it.. ohmai.. someone secretly seeing someone now.. (in sarcasm tone)
Me: u guys would know it soon la if it work out. at the meantime please stop being busybody and ruin it la come on..

we laugh along and then continue to gossip abt other thing.. So the gathering end abt 9pm something and everyone heading to their own way back home. So I took the escalator down to ground floor and heading to cbtl. Whenever I at mall, I would get a latte with full cream milk to sip while driving back. after place the order, i stand at the side while waiting for the coffee to be delivered. suddenly someone calling my name at my back. i turn back and saw sandy waving at me at 1 of the table. she was with a guy dress up neatly look apparently at his middle 30s. i wave back to her. after grab the coffee from the barista, i went to their table.

S: hey, what are u doing here?
Me: I just had my dinner with a bunch of my friend upstair..
S: do u have time? Wanna hang for a while here?

my initial plan was going back after buy the coffee, but now sandy was inviting and also I wanna know who this guy was, so I decide to stay.

Me: abt to heading back home. but would love to join u guys.
S: come, have a seat.

then she point at me and the guy while doing some routine introduction.

S: kc daniel, daniel kc. kc is my colleague.

i smiled and shake hand v daniel. he grasp my hand so hard while shaking hand, apparently he was a person v confident. we have our routine topic that new friends used to have. throughout the conversation, i indirectly find out that daniel was sandy's ex, had been propose to sandy and met each other parents with their marriage discussed. apparently the marriage didn't work out as daniel now was a married man with a 4 years old girl. though sandy did smile along throughout the conversation, but to me it was made up smile and she was moody. as we chat, a young lady and a kid join in. they were daniel's wife and daughter. they excuse themselves to leave. after they leave, i and sandy chat for a while at the cbtl lounge. she apparently not very happy and a little emotional. i suggest that we heading back home and have an early rest. she nodded. it was a long silence as i walk her to carpark. after she enter her car, i had a little worry abt her condition, so i enter the passenger seat and break the silence,

Me: hey, not meant to offend but what happen to u? I was a little worry mang..

she look at me, her eye turned red as she start to talk. she told me abt her relationship v daniel is something she just realize that she still haven't let go until now. the marriage called off due to daniel was fed up v her bad temper, attitude and the mistake she made. she try to hold her breath as she talk but finally she can't control her emotion anymore and she burst into tear. she cry so badly. ohmai.. i can't help at all at this situation i offer her my shoulder by moving toward her and grab her back. she slowly stop crying after her emotion calming down, i release my arm and we have eye contact. i look at her watery eye and say,

Me: I'm so sorry, I can't help at all.

we remain our eye contact. dunno where the courage came from, i move toward her face and kiss on the tear trace on one of her cheek. it was a quick 1. when i have my conscious back, i back off and very nervous. i try to find some other thing to do by open the dashboard drawer and took out the tissue i could found

Me: u look like a panda now. come, let me clean up ur make up stain.

she giggling, then she smile at me and lean forward..

S: yeah lo.. so sorry for weeping on ur shirt. guess the make up stain won't be easy to wash out..
Me: is ok, it would be the proof that u cried on my shoulder..

she laugh. after tidy up her face, i look at her again.

Me: ohmai.. ur eye were swollen.

she smile.. I continue to say..

Me: i guess ur puffy eye will last until next day. why not tomorrow u just take a rest at home? i'll inform admin abt it..
S: ok..
Me: u better don't drive now, i send u home..

she nodded. so we switch the position and i drive her car send her back until her doorstep. after she open her door, she was apparently hesitating abt saying something. finally she look at me and say,

S: hmm.. what are we now?

(to be continue..)

hey guys, thank you so much for showing ur interest over my story and also all the comment, advice, or some hilarious statement throughout the week. I find it both funny and annoying but generally, I have fun reading all the single post here. whether the story is cool or true story, it just doesn't matter to u guys isn't it.. some may disagree my movement but u'll never know unless u've been on my shoe. even u are in my shoe, whatever decision u made u are going to lose something. life is getting boring if u follow all the rule and regulation of the universe and the philosophy of life. and perhaps I'm a risk taker and that had cost my past relationship.

would like to apologize if I didn't answer ur enquiry here as there would be a lot to answer all. but ur comment and advice to me are welcome. please post it if u feel like to do so.

i never thought that the response would be so overwhelmed. but 1 thing for sure is that u guys interest over my story had push me to share further. today is Sunday I also have my own agenda. however would like to assure u guys that the season finale would be outta by today. stay tuned

This post has been edited by Wakka8690: Jun 24 2012, 10:16 AM

yeah, had told u guys all the story since the romance first formed until last week. i can't predict future mang..

(... continued from previous part)

S: hmm.. what are we now?
Me: what do u mean?

she hesitate for a while then spoke it unconfidently and softly..

S: our relationship..
Me: har? (with the tone that I not quite catch what she spoke and expecting her repeat the question. this is my habit that when I need time to think abt an answer, I will pretend didn’t catch it and answer back “har?” that expect someone to repeat the question)
S: hmm.. nothing..
Me: do u have time? was thinking to chat a little v u. I'm eager to know abt what happening to u and daniel.
S: hmm..

she hesitate for a while then she nodded. We sat on the sofa side by side, and she start to share abt her past with daniel. daniel was his first and last bf. they start dating when she was still a fresh graduate. a pair of lovey dovey couple at the beginning. however sandy got bad temper and her attitude had irritating and offended a lot of daniel’s friend. daniel still tolerating despite of that however, thing change over a tiny argument and sandy leave daniel alone when they were travel abroad. sandy flew back without inform daniel. daniel so worry that time searching for her madly and when he realize that she was flew back, he was so furious and called off the relationship of 7 years and marriage that had been planned together with both families. when sandy come to realization that she was over reacted, it was too late as what done is done. Sandy cried everyday since then. sandy’s mum then send her to chinese temple, the master gave her a prayer bead and advice her read those scriptures kind of thing daily. sandy change gradually since then, and they continue to be friend. However their relationship was irreversible as Daniel finally get steady v a girl and they got married within a year.

when talk abt Daniel got married part, she cry again. but it was not as emotional as previously when she share abt it at the carpark. I rub her back but it doesn’t help. then I pull her into my arm. she responded by had her arm over my upper body. after she calm down back..

S: so that’s me. How do u feel?
Me: I was quite surprise abt ur past. But now u’re a changed woman now. I like.
S: really?

She turn her head up and look at me,

S: what do u think abt our relationship?
Me: err, I not sure, I dunno. I’ve been thinking abt this also. I will always looking forward to spend our precious time together. 1 thing for sure is that I really like u more than just a friend. always have, always will.. and..

b4 I finish my word, she move forward and kiss my lips, I responded and we shared a passionate kiss.. after we have enough, I say,

Me: u sure u want to do this? give our relationship a shot?
S: I..

She seems in the difficult position to answer this so I immediately respond to her,

Me: hey, u don’t have to respond it right now. we can talk abt that next time..

she smiled.

Me: guess I should leave now.
S: u know, it was such a great relief after talking to u..
Me: yeah.

After leave her apartment, I drove off her car heading back home.

guys, so that's up to date so far. i'll update if got any latest 1 happen.

9 years gap..

english..

so sorry if u guys was expecting some scatological element in the story. even if it did happen, i also feel blush to share..

ayam hokkien but dunno how to speak hokkien sandy was banana btw, that's why we spoke english..

dunno how to describe. u know freya lim? sandy was lookalike if u view from far. but when u look closer, still can feel the some slight similarity..

manglish accent i would say..

long hair until chest, sometimes pony tail sometimes just put down naturally. dunno how to describe eh..

straight, but natural type of straight, not those require treatment de straight..

yeah lo..

no, will call instead of whatsapp. whatsapp usually would be reply by call.. but not always call that type. since still would see each other in office sometimes..

no idea abt it le..

think so though she never talk abt that. btw, not everyone know also, as mentioned earlier, only few executive staff know abt it as i heard from there also..

This post has been edited by Wakka8690: Jun 25 2012, 12:41 AM

yameh? u sure u're malaysian?

This post has been edited by Wakka8690: Jun 25 2012, 12:42 AM

really? a little doubt abt that. even some of my friend we talk using mandarin, in text i would say that to them also. guess is u seldom communicate in english isn't it even on writing?