I dont want to whine but can i just not let go?

I will silently miss him. Until i dunno when.

I used to want our path crossed again. But now i dont want that for i know he dont want to. Is this normal u longed someone so much u want to please him anyway u could? It was his wish to end things i suppose he wouldnt want anything to do w me anymore. Which i totally reapect that.

But i miss him but not the way it used to be. But who am i kidding. I still hope for 'us'. I dont fall often. He might be my last. Then i will just get older? Lol

Wonder if this is sick. Damn lah. I feel so weak.