Emm. When you say that your SPM results are bad, how bad is it? I guess if it has what you require for Form 6, then you should move on your life.

And your life.. seems complicated and its hard for an outsider like me to judge on it. I guess everyone will have something in life that they don't like, but how that thing affects a person's life will depend on how the person looks at it. And i believe that there is surely something that you enjoy doing. So maybe you should spend more time on that to relax yourself a little.

I'm glad that you are willing to talk about this. It may be the first step to a better you.