27 y.o. here, flying solo

and having zilch in socilising attitude

when you feel great, tonnes of ppl feel better than you
when you feel bad, milions of ppl are worst than you

so do whats comes natural to you

let me try to make you feel better

maybe you learn something from my experience

i am 27 y.o
like you i inheret a big ego from my father, the never wanna lose kinda way.

Unlike you i don't have the opportunity to study in Uni or college
My edu ends at Form 6 and so is my social life
started working shortly after
till now, I am still with the same company

1st three years is due to family issue
I become the breadwinner temporary
after that the situation improved, my elder brother got a job
work life is work life,
the recreation club organized outing, I would always shy away
never gone out to have a beer after work with the colleague

Right now i would say, I was a very cynical person
couple with "stories of friendship" from my father
and my own life experience (keep holding on to the memories of friend using me for their own gain)

I never ever really have a good friend
I have friends that, when others more popular friends are not around
would come look for me
Invitation to night supper/gathering, again I shy away

My phone always has over due credit, and a year I would reload it ~ 10 times only (RM10~30)

then 3 years back met a girl at work
again my EGO have the better of me
couldnt let go the thinking of me being sub-par to her
that I thought I could not handle the rejection - which is a certainty

then couple of week back
everything snapped,
she have found someone (unofficially info)

and my heart was broken even before anything has started

now, two week of maddnessss
I am just happy reeling back the pieces of my life back together

SO whats is the lesson:
1. EGO is useful in winning fights, not a way of life
2. Dont analyse everything soo much, you tend to loose focus on whats important - Life
3. Forget the bad stuff, always remember the good stuff that happens around you
4. add your own here...

like every body is saying here

ease off on the egoistik thinking

making frens involve some sacrifice

time, money(for the good of everyone type) and some of your attitude
which this case might be a good thing