have you heard of PC based DJ software ? you can try that its cheaper and you can use your own mp3s to mix
maybe you can start a blog.. release your mixes online and share with people.. 
at least that will give you some meaning in life a purpose..

ps: maybe some of us here will like your tunes, if your good, you might mix in some club in kl someday
damn thats bad, any reason why that happen to you ?...  well i always watch movie alone, dont like people to bother me when i'm wanna a movie..

are you weird in some way ?
yup.. make people notice you.. when you friends ask you for they will only ask you out twice, later then will know your are busy with shit and all and they won't bother calling you @ all as they know you will be bz..

thats why for me i always attend any outing with my friends, so that my friends know that i'm "around/alive" ...