hope i can have some of your time and read my story

I used to have relationship with a girl,let's call her A
we've been couple for almost half year,yet it feels like very long
we had alot of sweet moments together,which i still remember till now
we broke up after the 6 months of long distance relationship
it was i who mention break up
why?i wouldn't blame anyone except me
being so foolish to follow every of my best friend's advice
let's call him B
we used to be housemate together,we studied at kl
same area but different college
it was then when i'm in relationship with A
B kept telling me bad stuff about her
and at one time,he threaten me with friendship
he said,you forget about your friends when you got a girl already.
In fact i did not
i admit i did some bad stuff to them,as i was always the loser who tried to hard to be in the group of friends
in order to keep this friendship intact(it was 10years of friendship)
i apologize to him,and try to spend more time with my friends
and i neglected A.
soon after that,we had some minor break up
then another friend of mine C
who had feelings toward A try to tackle her during the break up
i did not know until i patch up,when A told me about it
i was furious,really angry about it for i really took C for friends
B and his friends,talk with me.
saying it was A's fault for C to fell for her
indicating that A is using C and try to stir things up
the me back then,i was naive
i thought friendship were everything
i thought they were my true friends
and yet B told me that C is innocent
and i had a major broke up,a big one 2 days before my birthday
we broke up,and i blurted out alot of harsh words
and yet she still gave me my birthday present and even came to find my parents and cried in front of them
i doubted,recalling what my friends told me
i acted cruely
i'm not any good boyfriend either
being in long distance,i'm unable to give her anything
sometimes i would really end up broke while i'm studying in kl
i rarely call her,due to saving my expenses
for this i failed terribly as a bf
she would travel all the way from our hometown to kl just to find me
and yet,i couldn't afford to treat her to a nice meal
or even buy her some shirts or skirts
i was very cheap,way too cheap
having this for one of my reason i kept in mind
i broke up
blurting out harsh word,accusing her for flirting around.
i know that,i'm an ******* for that.it was more than that

soon after that,B betrayed me
having me thought as a dumbf**k,sore loser and naive guy
i knew that,and i really had a major break down
cause all along i thought he was my best buddy

and my thoughts are comin back
i pull myself out of the group,and i know i had lost myself in attempt to join the group
for few months,i constantly have thoughts bout her
thoughts that how bad i am,how cruel i treated her
how cheap i am
been avoiding her since the break up
i couldn;t explain why,but i guess i'm just too ashame to meet her
and i owe her an explaination,why i mention broke up and such
am i pathetic or what
listening to my friends and negelcted what she had done for me

end~

thanks for reading

This post has been edited by yukikaze: Apr 7 2008, 02:54 AM

so you want an answer to your question?if you do then yes,you are pathetic among others...

path-etic... swt.. u believe ur friend more than ur own girl.

yes i do admit i am
and i felt like i'm a...dumbf
i wanted to tell her that what ive been keeping
but..does it really matter now?

if tell her would make u less miserable, then tell her lor..

it does matter. u dont want to regret it later in the future. would u? u owe her explanation .u must give her explanation

i don;t even know how to start
face to face?
i for one who's..tear easily to come out
i thought of tru mail or whatsoever
but it's like...not sincere

no matter how hard,you must tell her face to face..it's the best choice.

face to face la tai lo.. aiyo.. tear or not, 2nd.

thanks for taking time to read and even posted some advices for me

nite peoples
i'm off to sleep
college gonna start tomorrow
i'll keep in mind for what you guys had posted here

u only live once. u either apologise to her, or keep ur mouth shut till the day u die.

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Added on April 7, 2008, 4:42 amu only live once. u either apologise to her, or keep ur mouth shut till the day u die.



This post has been edited by Elephant^^: Apr 7 2008, 04:42 AM

I pity your gf. She is innocent.

Who need friend when you can have girlfriend? Ever thought of that?

ask yourself this question. will it be different this time? would you give her the love she deserves? or would you just take her for granted like you used to? now that your so called friends betrayed you, only you realise she's a gem? BAH!!!!!! so is she a spare tyre to fill your time when you feel you're lonely?

treasure those you have before it's too late. i wish you luck if she'll ever find the confidence in you again.

sayang~~~~ sayang~~~~

well as the saying goes, we do not appreciate good things till its gone.

tell...truth...her...now... fill in the dots yourself =P... tell her every single detail... it might be able to salvage and repair...

syg who?TS or the innocent gal?

pss...pss.... I haven read the story yet xD

read, them maybe you'll say dai sei also

This post has been edited by rourou: Apr 7 2008, 10:28 AM