well truth be told, it never really bothers me what people want to think about my works, good or bad, like it or not, because in the end, its just something personal to me. some people think picasso's art is magnificent, some others outright hate it. art is just subjective that way

and as for myself, i dont really make a point to try to show my works, because i never feel its ever good enough. but again, this is me and how i am.
as for those paintings like those 'office brochures', it was actually done for an ad agency, which they wanted to use in their proposal to their client, to show a friendly, cozy environment in an 'office', rather in that particular case, a bank.
as for the finishing, it looks rather unpolished, but recognizable enough i believe to depict the scene. it was part of a rather rushed thing, as i had to complete about 15+ paintings of those kinds in under 48 hours. now, i'm not bragging, nor am i attempting to defend myself in any way. i'm just merely explaining why some works turn out the way it did.
and since i joined up facebook only ... er i dont know when, maybe a couple of years back? XD none of the works there are timestamped. some of the works are from many many years ago, and some are more recent. i'd like to think that i have improved over the years, be it true or not, its really hard to judge sometimes. to some extent, i do like the look and feel of some of my older works too. but i guess, as i delve in more towards commercial arts, my finishing tend to get more and more polished and refined because a lot of people seem to want that more.
do i like to paint photo-realistic paintings? actually i dont. to me these paintings lack character. and character, is an important aspect to me. but is it more commercially viable this way? apparently it is. also, as much as i hate to do it, sometimes, clients require you to paint in certain ways, or certain styles. back in those days, i'd outright reject this notion ... but as we grow older, and become more realistic, sometimes, we have to compromise on principles to put food on the table.
of course, admittedly, not everything i do is 100% original and from my imagination. many times, i'd use references too. take the sins portraits for example; something which is rather obvious, the milla jovovich picture. if you're asking, i'm not denying, i had used references for that. yukie nakama, etc. there's no real shame in this to me. if you asked me to paint a falcon, like the one i did with the elven girl, i had to use google to look up a whole bunch of falcon pictures, to study them a bit, etc. etc. and use those references to paint too; because admittedly, i dont really know the features of one. but hey, it got it done.

also there are works where i outright copied from other pictures because it was requested of me (clients hand me a picture, and tells me they want it to look like a painting). of course traditionally many people would probably just add some effects and touchup the pix to make it look like a painting. its like sketching class in college where i remember some friends just photocopy the reference big enough, and trace it ... and i remember screwing them for it (some of them might still remember getting into arguments with me over these matters). its not a big deal to many, but i like to make it a challenge still. if i had to copy pictures, i still would redraw and repaint it. why? well for one, i'm not a designer. not to insult anyone, but granted a designer's strength isnt in paintings, and thats a good alternative for them. their strength is in design. mine is in painting, so whatever comes my way, i want to enjoy the process, rather than 'tracing'. i'd never be able to improve that way.
but the real question here is this: can i actually paint? or am i purely someone who does image manipulations? i dont think we can find pictures of real armored bots with exploding buildings and flying ships, or a picture, today, so accurately depicting a sketch i did 8-9 years ago randomly in front of a group of people. or perhaps pictures so strikingly similar that its like turning those sketches i did in the client's office after a brief, into a painting.
i'm no genius, i'm no savant, and i'm certainly not a master in any aspect. i'm just another guy doing what i love to do. and i wish sometimes, i had time to do more of what i love, which is more fantasy oriented stuff. i rather create characters, worlds, the inhabitants

but alas, again, sometimes, we are forced to do what we dont like as much just to put food on the table. but thats the cold harsh reality we live in. thats our society.
so yea, what i really want to say is, i think i can paint. i certainly would like to think so, after spending so many years of my life doing it haha. and i honestly still dont really care what people what to think of me, be it a fraud, or a fake, it doesnt concern me. some people that have commissioned some artwork that's based on things, objects, creatures, or situations even, thats not easily found, and have seen me sketch out samples in front of their eyes, picked one of it, and later see a finished painting based on the sketch, might still believe me (i hope hahaha).
but here, my friends are trying to help me, and i truly appreciate all that they've done for me. i could not have asked for better friends indeed. so i have to ask of you all, while you might criticize me or the way i do things, you might doubt me, you might even slander if necessary haha ... but please, do not make my friends' life difficult ^^"
in conclusion, i hoped i have resolved some issues or questions what were raised. and i thank you all for taking time and interest to read this wall of a post, and i hope it makes sense. either way, i appreciate all feedback, and look forward to improving myself further. thanks for your time

*edit* typos sorry ^^"
This post has been edited by wyulf: Jan 13 2010, 12:39 AM