I'm 32 yo. I'm an OKU (mental) for bipolar disorder. I've lost my job due to injury at my work place; back injury. My highest education is SPM.
Dropped out of college due to my sickness; bipolar. Spent years seeing many doctors and trying many types of medication. Now I'm stable after I've found suitable meds for myself.

I don't know what to do in my life. I'm lost and depressed now.

My mom and sister told me to continue study, start with diploma at GMI.

But lack confidence to do so, maybe due to my age. I'm afraid that no one will hire me because by the time I've graduated I'll be 35. Who wants an old guy working at an entry level job. Plus, if I decided to pursue my education I'm afraid that I can't blend in with all the young students.

If I decided on continuing my studies what course should I take at GMI.

I'm not interested in part time studies because I'm unable to study with no structure and accountability. So that is a straight failure. Done that before I can't do it.

My life, I need structure so I can cope. Lack of it I'll fail.

Thanks guys for all your input.

Or should I end it. Prospect of not living seems the best option now.