I think u need some time to properly heal yourself. give yourself some love and what not before going after another. my wife and i have a child together. he's 10 now, it breaks my heart because amongst 3 of us, he is the one left with the most scar and hurt. i took a decisive decision where i wanted the child to have shared custody because i believe the child requires love from both parents. so in other words, i cant really completely cut my ex off my life, it hurt a little while because everytime i see her, i am filled with anger and dissapointment. but now i feel much better, because i took time to actually heal myself and see myself from a different light
well to be fair, her complain was that i was rarely around with the family due to my heavy business trip schedules. i travel quite a lot back in the day but i have told her before we got married, i will climb as high as i can on the corporate ladder and will only settle down after i am 40. well i settled down on at 42 because i was last employed by huawei. everyone would know, this company will drain u to the core and send u everywhere in the world. before i took that job, i discussed with her and she told me to accept it since i was retrenched by another company, so i did.

after a year of service, i returned home and joined a local company, took a huge paycut but only to find out she already had someone else. i gave her 9 months to turn around, imagine what's it like, sharing a bed with someone whom u know is already having someone else by the side. it's utter torture. but i told myself for our kid, i have to try. only after 9 months i realized it's not working as her heart is no longer here, so i had to let her go.

err let's see, i had one date who was 29. she talks about dunno wat vibing la, and their mentality is about social media la, inspired to be an influencer when i see her, i am not influenced at all lol.

another one was 38 if not mistaken. she a bit normal, but she is the type where she wont text u unless u text her. to me, it's like 1 way street. i believe in equal contribution or effort in making something work. dunno maybe it's me who has wrong mentality.

why u so secretive? lol u someone femes ar?

i dunno... i just dont like crowds, not like i will have panic attack or anything that serious, i just feel uncomfortable or uneasy.
i think it started developing when i was living and working in Hong Kong back in 2005. everyone was squeezing with everyone everywhere.
oh i receive notification my equipments delivered ady yay.... gonna go home and open christmas present hahaha