sometimes ayam sked.

time seems to pass so fast. remembered 2015 so free n young, now ady 10 yrs .

but seems ayam life not figured out yet. others koliks ady have babies , sending kids to school, etc , bought nice houses, etc .

n here is ayam  , still chilling  . not much saving as well . just life on autopilot . work is decent but just coasting by .  living in old house since had to take care of elderly . what stopping me from doing the above? coz not sure can handle if can handle n take care both  .  felt like wasting waifu time as well .

anyone ever have these kind of thoughts?

To look at the bright side, at least you have minimal burdens. Having wife, kids and house loans is not fun, but could be a major burden and an obstacld to your happy progress in life. Just be yourself, come and go as you please and spend only on yourself without anyone else sharing your money and telling you what to do.

Its gonna be the same question even if one is married.
People do get divorced, separated, widowed.
We just gotta manage our own affairs as well as possible with the resources we have, the experience and circle of friends and acquaintance.