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I believe you are just being stressed by your own "wrong" decisions in life = over-active or monkey mind. You may need to de-stress by correcting your decisions in life, eg no more further studies, no more risky start-up business, etc, at least for some time.

Since your psychiatrist have given you the "wrong" medication with bad side effects, try seeing a good, reliable and ordinary GP for the right medication for your mental issues = it's much cheaper.
....... Note that addiction happens after daily use of prescription psychotic pills for >1 month. The Tapering method can be used to slowly wean off addiction.

https://www.mayoclinic.org/healthy-lifestyl...ms/art-20050987 - Stress symptoms: Effects on your body and behavior
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If your partner is giving you stress (eg toxic relationship), it's best to get out of the relationship if there are still no solution or no change on his part.
....... If so, you had made a wrong life decision by entering into the relationship with him. Banks do credit history checks, salary checks, etc before extending huge loans to a person, eg home loans. Girls/women should do similar before entering into a romantic relationship with a boy/man, eg no seggs for the 1st 6 months' of dating, background checks with his acquaintances, eg work colleagues (not with his family and friends who are likely biased), observes how he treats outsiders like waiters, etc.

It's natural for a girl/woman to feel depressed when her bf/husband is giving her emotional problems and not vice versa, because girls/women fall in love emotionally with their partner but boys/men mostly only fall in lust with their seggs partner.
....... So, it's foolish for a girl/woman to take antidepressants when her romantic relationship becomes problematic and depressing.
....... Depression = sadness = usually caused by a sad situation or event, eg kena scammed online - losing RM thousands, kena hospitalized, family member hospitalized or passed away, struck by natural disaster like monsoon floods, etc = may need some time to recover or recover by getting out of that depressing/sad situation = becomes at peace, happy or contented.

In life, there is karma-is-a-beeetch, "we reap what we sowed", just desserts, the Law of ni4ni, the Golden Rule, etc (see my signature).
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AFAIK, government psychiatrist, need to queue and wait for weeks to get an appointment = monkey mind may be already "dead" before the appointment date.
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= the cure for your depression and anxiety/insomnia is to get out of the tiring relationship.

= only enter into a happy romantic relationship.
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How fast is your fast in getting an appointment to see a psychiatrist at a government hospital.?
....... AFAIK, the fastest is about 2 weeks after referral from a private psychiatrist or clinic GP doctor or RM1 KKM/govt doctor, except for emergency psychotic cases.

https://www.ramlimusa.com/cara-mendapat-raw...akar-psikiatri/ - Cara Mendapat Rawatan Pakar Psikiatri di Kuantan dan di Malaysia Amnya
by Prof Dr Ramli Musa - 27 June 2018
.... Rawatan di klinik swasta ada kelebihan. Antaranya tidak perlu menunggu lama untuk temujanji pertama. ...
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This post has been edited by lurkingaround: Jan 10 2025, 02:24 PM