Can anyone share your experience in fighting against depression and anxiety? Sorry Mod, I tried to search in mental group but it seems to be active long ago so posted in serious /k.

I feel like roller coaster for the past 6 years, recently my condition is getting severe. I only took my medication for the 1st year then stopped, these few years tried on self control. I've been keeping myself busy, further studies, start up business, work harder, religion supports, but my emotions stil unstable while controllable.

Recently my condition worsens drastically so decided visit physiatrist 2 days ago. I told my dr that I just want to get my monkey mind a good rest. However after the medication, I couldn't work as my mind is totally numbed, knackered and nausea. Due to the side effects, I throw up like nobody business today.

I'm meeting my physiatrist again next monday to see if can solve my root cause to ease my conditions. I try not to be dependent on sleeping pills. Basically 2025 my most important plan is religion support, continue workout, further studies again (new title), pick up my old hobbies. Love myself more as I've been neglecting myself. I not sure if keeping myself busy works for my conditions? Most probably no more business again this year as I'm really out of hand.

Can I have sharings of your journey? At least I know I'm not alone or maybe brainstorming on certain part I probably missed out. This point, I'm feeling very very very super duper sick, felt like standing side of a cliff and it really took me alot of courage to type this out because maybe there is other perspectives which im missing out. Please don't bash me. I just need help.

Mod may remove this topic if inappropriate here. Thanks.

Update 27/1 - No advice needed anymore. Its still long way to go.. Thank you sekalian.

This post has been edited by NinG: Jan 27 2025, 12:46 PM

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This post has been edited by marukopi: Jan 9 2025, 11:38 PM

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I believe you are just being stressed by your own "wrong" decisions in life = over-active or monkey mind. You may need to de-stress by correcting your decisions in life, eg no more further studies, no more risky start-up business, etc, at least for some time.

Since your psychiatrist have given you the "wrong" medication with bad side effects, try seeing a good, reliable and ordinary GP for the right medication for your mental issues = it's much cheaper.
....... Note that addiction happens after daily use of prescription psychotic pills for >1 month. The Tapering method can be used to slowly wean off addiction.

https://www.mayoclinic.org/healthy-lifestyl...ms/art-20050987 - Stress symptoms: Effects on your body and behavior
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No fighting journey. Totally stressed out at work with no good prospect. Have been feeling extremely lethargic and dread going to work since few months ago. Any amount of off days also can't seem to replenish my energy. Don't feel like talking to anyone. Even started to lose motivation to exercise.

Doctor treats me like some MC scammer strawberry. I can feel my end soon.

many issues are actually inconsequential/not important and its usually just me deciding to feel shitty about it.
those that cant be helped like being stuck in the middle of gaza, cant be avoided but to feel bad. no idea on how to tackle those and i also have my own. do whatever lo, cry in sleep at night, punch something, find like minded friend to rant. i do all of it.

What religion supports you referring to? Most people have lost a connection to the Earth, which is.....easier to access than to God (for most people anyway).

Try hiking and spending time in nature. Living in an artificial environment like concrete jungle with nothing but money, and material concerns every day, plus being bathed in unseen microwave frequencies (EMFs) in such urban areas, can harm your well being.

This is not how humans were meant to live. And the root cause always goes back to this monetary system that we have adopted.

Diagnosed with bipolar depression with fam history of depression. You need to know your cause of depression first. And stop overthinking when you are alone, listen to comedy movies etc to laugh. Stop watching/listening to emo/sad songs/movies.

I can see you are easily swayed by external factors. Build up your internal confidence first. Like all prophets, be strong headed like a rock and no one can convert you

This post has been edited by NoComment222: Jan 9 2025, 11:49 PM

Maksud TS masih single? No someones you love or care or loving you to sharing?

medication i don't think is work for everyone

You need someone in touch , got warm , got blood help you go thru all this , Forum won't help you punya other than many opinion since everyone handing things differently

someone i know got 自闭症 she getting better by try having a pet and someone love her, understand her , i don't know how both of them solve it together the husband and wife , because they never told i never ask either , because i can understand how its like from a orphanage experience i do felling down and down and down , but I'm okay , getting better, walked out because i have someone irl can share, encourage, understanding, caring .

I don't know where you can find a person/community/support group, but i think you need someone to talk about it irl probably not here that my advice .

This post has been edited by zuozi: Jan 9 2025, 11:56 PM

you need a certified therapist not a psychiatrist necessarily. The medications you taken are just a coping business they had on you, the have no obligation to get you better because if they lose you as customer where's their money?

Been thru this also

How is your environment with your family? Colleague?
Staying alone ?

Medication now is sleeping pill?
Xanax + lexapro?

Body got any illness? Like body ache?
Work got any issue?

Need to sit down and do meditation..then clear your mind up, and take a paper, list down the most critical question that make you feel stress

1. Work? Boss sangat susah?
2. Debts?
3. Family relationship?
4. Heart feel empty?
5. Got health issue? Lymph node got jam until u very easy agitated?
6. Stomach and gut issue? Got gastric? Got eat timely? Not enough of proper food = no enough of Serotonin -> you will go anxiety and depression. Tats why lexapro is SSRI to reuptake that serotonin you are missing in your head.
7. Peer pressure? Tengok ktard everyday cakap 20k tered, friend got merrid, got wife got children, got house got car and you got nothing?


This post has been edited by Boomwick: Jan 10 2025, 12:03 AM

If the other half is supportive then is a positive but if they give more stress then it will be more worse lol

try vegan diet and have a hobby that can help you relax

Ts, exercises fixes depression.

1. Your heart will hate what it takes to be better. Start with walking. FORCE yourself to walk, use public transport, not just driving. Walking helps you to engage your body and brain where to go.

Depression is mostly a heart problem, medication doesn't solve heart problem but causes even more side effect. Unless depression anxiety runs in your fam, don't take. The pharma industry is evil and money driven, not mental health driven.

2. Talk to your good friends

Social support is so important. Ask old people secret to a long life, it's about social support. Find friends to talk to and encourage each other.



Anxiety is trying to control something that is out of your control. You see where the problem is.

1. Learn to let go.

As I write this, it's a reminder to ourselves to let go things we cannot control. We are not God so we don't play God. We do our part and pray for the best

2. Tame your monkey brain

I can relate this. Your monkey brain will kong kong kong what if and imagine the worse possible scenario. Truth is 80% of the time those imagined stuff won't happen. Our brain does this to defend ourselves from harm which is part of survival instinct but it can go extreme. So tame it.

Talk to your friends again. They won't have your monkey brain and will help you dissect the problem better


Look up to the sky and realize we are very tiny creature. World is so big. Our problems in our monkey brain is actually bacteria size small.

Life is very simple. We over complicate it.

This post has been edited by gashout: Jan 10 2025, 12:10 PM

I used to think of dying all the time last time.

Until I found my true love, I dicided to do my best live for longest so I can be with her as long as I can.

Maybe TS needs to try fall in love?

Yes I feel the pinch seeing my psychiatrist, it cost me RM500 this round. Not sure about next round. I will look for my family dr for 3rd visit. When I came out from his room, I was shocked seeing other patients which much more severe symptoms than me. It could be me, if I still neglect my siren.



I stopped exercise almost a week. Thus I decided go for a short gateway alone next week.

I'm buddhism. I do bow to buddha daily (my homework). Yes I do camping as well, I will purposely choose the place with no connection. I agree with hiking and nature because it's what I loved to as well. Thanks for the suggestion, I've forgotten about this.



Would you mind to further elaborate with "swayed by external factors" to me? Thanks

I'm no longer single, root cause of all of this is due to relationships. So both of us going to see physiatrist together next week to solve our problems.




True also. I was shocked when I made the payment. Consultation fees cost RM200. Medication RM300. But I know I need something to stop the monkey mind first. Thanks for the suggestion, will look out for therapist see if helps.

My current medication is vortiozetine and clonazepam. It does stopped my monkey mind, but my feeling is quite numb, stopped working for 2 days already. I told my dr thats why i dislike to take psy. Besides, I try to change myself not to ranting and negative to my close friends.
Yes I sit down and write, like i keep on writing these days. Questioning myself. I not sure if this the right way. However I must admit I'm terrible at meditation. Relationships is my root cause. Hopefully next session with dr can help a little bit. Current self control on mind is super weak. I'm too fatigue.



Yes agree.



I'm on going clean diet recently, my friend told me clean diet do affect emotions. Abit usure with this statement.

NinG

Go buy 100% dark chocolate. Snack on them after every meal.
Not nice but very good for depression.

Nutricraft or realfoodsources.

Then get plenty of sunshine around 10am sunshine where you can feel the heat. Min 20-30 minutes a day.

Get shoden ashwanganda. You can buy from bestvites.

Then get magnesium taurate or magnesium glycinate.

Don't just depend on meds.

That's what I did for my family member with depression. Now off meds already

I don't know what religion are you, but learn to start meditation.

This post has been edited by Ramjade: Jan 10 2025, 07:35 AM

Go thai massage to relax body and mind