Hi,
I have similar experience, had some issues with my IT consulting work circa 2020 and then I was on lexapro for like 6 months. Of course the mind keeps on looping back, can I get back the old job and pay, the life style, living like an expat etc. Spent a lot of time walking around a nearby park (was jobless for years but my circumstances allow it). So depending on your taste for physical activities, train as much as you want. I also solo hike at 5am, and did solo camp during that time (seldom do it now though, got a bit lazy since I felt better) .

In terms of religion, yes that part help a lot, not gonna preach to you to join anything, but just explain the component that helps if you're going to join one
A) you need to be in a smaller group, with consistent members, ppl that show good behaviours
B) some members are already in good shape, some may be in the same journey as you
C) the members have to share their struggle, and from there, you will notice, if your own issue is truly that big or it's partially from own imagination or bad internal monologue
D) summary of the result: from internal, you will notice that if other ppl are making progress you will feel the need to improve your own story. From external, other members may notice your improvement and mention it to you

Now I just do psrtime consulting works and trying to make my hobbies work (3d model). Your circumstances may be different, a lot of commitment etc. But if you can cut off some stuff that you don't need, do consider it. Don't let those silly post about how much money you need bothers you.

Bless you, friend.

Hi ning, and others with similar issues
Just to add on a bit,
A) you mention repeatedly that you have a monkey brain (adhd, ocd as well? ) issue and you want to resolve that first. Just my comments, just be open that you may need to resolve some other deep rooted issue.
B) some commenter here focus on psychological help with medical, but never really described their own personal experience
C) as someone that went to usmc for a while, I can tell you that you will likely (ymmv) experience a clear difference in the beginning due to a combination of meds (most likely some anti depressant of the ssri type, some sleep/relaxant combo, etc). But eventually I don't really feel it's impact anymore after my other solutions become stronger.
D) don't put too much expectations on the psychology part, I didn't at least. I will leave this part for you, depending on how much fund you have (consulting charges).
E) use multiple solutions at once. 2 or more ways to win, no way to lose.Mental, physical, family/friends (reliable ones) and spiritual (this one hits hard for me)
F) create a routine that you can do consistently, and don't drop off. Even I feel like depression creeping if I got lazy in certain aspects

Have a blessed day

This post has been edited by Ruris: Jan 11 2025, 10:35 AM

Referring to the writeup by @christychew,
A) mostly agree, I implement a lot of the same solution
B) however, if you have difficulty believing in yourself, which could be common, as you may not have achieved much in life. Then your logical mind may think, wait, what am I hanging on to, I wasn't a star student, athlete etc.
C) then do consider believing in something greater to yourself (ie big G). Whatever you believe in should embody great moral values, behaviour and infallible. Hang on to that instead or at least consider it.
D) just to put things in perspective, I was working in the Sap consulting industry and had a bit of success (before I had mental issue) . I could have fall back to the idea that I cna achieve the same again or choose to believe in a different "system"
E) as always, more ways to win is better