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I believe you are just being stressed by your own "wrong" decisions in life = over-active or monkey mind. You may need to de-stress by correcting your decisions in life, eg no more further studies, no more risky start-up business, etc, at least for some time.

Since your psychiatrist have given you the "wrong" medication with bad side effects, try seeing a good, reliable and ordinary GP for the right medication for your mental issues = it's much cheaper.
....... Note that addiction happens after daily use of prescription psychotic pills for >1 month. The Tapering method can be used to slowly wean off addiction.

https://www.mayoclinic.org/healthy-lifestyl...ms/art-20050987 - Stress symptoms: Effects on your body and behavior
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No fighting journey. Totally stressed out at work with no good prospect. Have been feeling extremely lethargic and dread going to work since few months ago. Any amount of off days also can't seem to replenish my energy. Don't feel like talking to anyone. Even started to lose motivation to exercise.

Doctor treats me like some MC scammer strawberry. I can feel my end soon.

What religion supports you referring to? Most people have lost a connection to the Earth, which is.....easier to access than to God (for most people anyway).

Try hiking and spending time in nature. Living in an artificial environment like concrete jungle with nothing but money, and material concerns every day, plus being bathed in unseen microwave frequencies (EMFs) in such urban areas, can harm your well being.

This is not how humans were meant to live. And the root cause always goes back to this monetary system that we have adopted.

Diagnosed with bipolar depression with fam history of depression. You need to know your cause of depression first. And stop overthinking when you are alone, listen to comedy movies etc to laugh. Stop watching/listening to emo/sad songs/movies.

I can see you are easily swayed by external factors. Build up your internal confidence first. Like all prophets, be strong headed like a rock and no one can convert you

Maksud TS masih single? No someones you love or care or loving you to sharing?

medication i don't think is work for everyone

You need someone in touch , got warm , got blood help you go thru all this , Forum won't help you punya other than many opinion since everyone handing things differently

someone i know got 自闭症 she getting better by try having a pet and someone love her, understand her , i don't know how both of them solve it together the husband and wife , because they never told  i never ask either , because i can understand how its like from a orphanage experience i do felling down and down and down , but I'm okay , getting better, walked out because i have someone irl can share, encourage, understanding, caring .

I don't know where you can find a person/community/support group, but i think you need someone to talk about it irl probably not here that my advice .

you need a certified therapist not a psychiatrist necessarily. The medications you taken are just a coping business they had on you, the have no obligation to get you better because if they lose you as customer where's their money?

Been thru this also

How is your environment with your family?  Colleague?
Staying alone ?

Medication now is sleeping pill?
Xanax + lexapro?

Body got any illness? Like body ache?
Work got any issue?

Need to sit down and do meditation..then clear your mind up, and take a paper, list down the most critical question that make you feel stress

1. Work? Boss sangat susah?
2. Debts?
3. Family relationship?
4. Heart feel empty?
5. Got health issue? Lymph node got jam until u very easy agitated?
6. Stomach and gut issue? Got gastric? Got eat timely? Not enough of proper food = no enough of Serotonin -> you will go anxiety and depression. Tats why lexapro is SSRI to reuptake that serotonin you are missing in your head.
7. Peer pressure? Tengok ktard everyday cakap 20k tered, friend got merrid, got wife got children, got house got car and you got nothing?

If the other half is supportive then is a positive but if they give more stress then it will be more worse lol

try vegan diet and have a hobby that can help you relax

Ts, exercises fixes depression.

1m Your heart will hate what it takes to be better. Start with walking. FORCE yourself to walk, use public transport, not just driving. Walking helps you to engage your body and brain where to go.

Depression is mostly a heart problem, medication doesn't solve heart problem but causes even more side effect. Unless depression anxiety runs in your fam, don't take. The pharma industry is evil and money driven, not mental health driven.

2. Talk to your good friends

Social support is so important. Ask old people secret to a long life, it's about social support. Find friends to talk to and encourage each other.
Anxiety is trying to control something that is out of your control. You see where the problem is.

1. Learn to let go.

As I write this, it's a reminder to ourselves to let go things we cannot control. We are not God so we don't play God. We do our part and pray for the best

2. Tame your monkey brain

I can relate this. Your monkey brain will kong kong kong what if and imagine the worse possible scenario. Truth is 80% of the time those imagined stuff won't happen. Our brain does this to defend ourselves from harm which is part of survival instinct but it can go extreme. So tame it.

Talk to your friends again. They won't have your monkey brain and will help you dissect the problem better
Look up to the sky and realize we are very tiny creative. World is so big. Our problems in our monkey brain is actually bacteria size small.

Life is very simple. We over complicate it.

I used to think of dying all the time last time.

Until I found my true love, I dicided to do my best live for longest so I can be with her as long as I can.

Maybe TS needs to try fall in love?

do not go to private, it's too expensive and will stress you even further.

go to government.

you can continue to see a psychiatrist in a govt hospital, it's only like RM1 or RM5 per visit.

The psychiatrist in the govt hospital can even arrange you to consult the clinical psychologist in the hospital. Perhaps, they might introduce CBT treatment for you.

You need both medication and therapy. The psychiatrist will know when is the right time to wean you out from the medication.

But at the first time, you need to find the root cause (this is the most important task to do). Looks like you have too many things to handle. You need to look into that.

Continue to get religion support if it helps.

The psychiatrist him/herself is also a form of support, so it's important for you to continue to see the psychiatrist (but not in the private hospital).

Have you been prescribed by your Dr to Serotonin (ssri) before?

If this relationship is giving you hell, the only way out is to end it. No amount of medicine/exercise/religion or whatnot will help if you continue with this relationship.

Apparently many here don’t understand what anxiety and depression are. Many are telling you to stay positive, don’t think so much, exercise and etc, don’t really know that anxiety and depression are actually some form of nervous disorder, where our body is not able to control the nervous system mechanisms. Therefore, even though we know we should think positive, go exercise, relax.., we are still unable to do it.

That’s where psychiatrist comes in, diagnose and prescribe medication. With the help of medication, we can bring back our nervous system into a more balance situation, and then we can start to strengthen our nervous system by practising mindfulness, meditation, exercise.
Once our nervous system becomes stronger, we will feel better and recover from it.

Hi,
I have similar experience, had some issues with my IT consulting work circa 2020 and then I was on lexapro for like 6 months. Of course the mind keeps on looping back, can I get back the old job and pay, the life style, living like an expat etc. Spent a lot of time walking around a nearby park (was jobless for years but my circumstances allow it). So depending on your taste for physical activities, train as much as you want. I also solo hike at 5am, and did solo camp during that time (seldom do it now though, got a bit lazy since I felt better) .

In terms of religion, yes that part help a lot, not gonna preach to you to join anything, but just explain the component that helps if you're going to join one
A) you need to be in a smaller group, with consistent members, ppl that show good behaviours
B) some members are already in good shape, some may be in the same journey as you
C) the members have to share their struggle, and from there, you will notice, if your own issue is truly that big or it's partially from own imagination or bad internal monologue
D) summary of the result: from internal, you will notice that if other ppl are making progress you will feel the need to improve your own story. From external, other members may notice your improvement and mention it to you

Now I just do psrtime consulting  works and trying to make my hobbies work (3d model). Your circumstances may be different, a lot of commitment etc. But if you can cut off some stuff that you don't need, do consider it. Don't let those silly post about how much money you need bothers you.

Bless you, friend.

Have you been prescribed by your Dr to Serotonin (ssri) before?

If this relationship is giving you hell, the only way out is to end it. No amount of medicine/exercise/religion or whatnot will help if you continue with this relationship.

That is better as you can identify this problem as the root cause of your issue. I dont know your gender, and also your type of relationship you are in, but relationship problem can basically be categorized into a few or a mixture of a few.

1. Cheating issue and trust issue
2. Money issue, other half spending and you are slaving and paying until sien kao liao
3. Verbal issue, talk very lanciao and hurting
4. Abusive and got fight and hitting
5. Family no supportive but you both still together
6. A mixture of above

I am not professional, but identifying the true root cause will help you tackle this. After you have identify it, then you need to inform the other side. Must be honest upfront telling he or she the root cause. Must be specific.

If it is cheating and trust issue, happen again and again, and you cannot take it, then chop it off
If money, can talk on spending behavior

If verbal, list down what kind of reply and speech will hurt you, and tell the other half how they should reply you in order not to hurt you, in a respectable fashion. Example, by adding, "do you think this a better option in front" and also telling other side not to get angry if you decide your way instead of their way

If abusive and fight, cannot take it, then chop it off
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While you try to drown your own in work, exercise, or wadever activities, the continuous repeatative hurt and insult might have put your mind in a state of "recalling those hurtful moment", and then your mind continue to dig deeper into it and keep thinking and getting worst and become depression and anxiety, hence the doctor prescribe you the medicine which slow your mind down into thinking too many things. But the side effect is, you will become too dependant on it, and got those side effect.

A better change to it is to practice your mind thoughts, as when your mind think about those bad moment, you need to shift it away by not drilling into it..it will kill your soul.
One of my ways is to listen to gospel soul music, those that preach to your heart and mind and affirming your life and soul and heal your wound. Make your eyes look at those lyrics, your mouth sing it out, and your brain process those words, then you will divert your mind into digging deeper to those depressive thoughts.

If you are a guy and had not been crying, maybe is time to cry it out loud and shed those tears out. It is totally alright to cry, you can start by crying out aloud as you listen to gospel soul music that heals your heart.

Write down the process flow in a paper and look at it as a manual tat when you are going into such, then what you need to do next to take it away from going into that. It takes practice to exercise your mind and brain..

I hope my sharing will help you a little bit by not being dependable solely on medicine. Medicine does help, but fully depend on it is not the solution. But to come out of it will  be the best

ts got try to bela pet ?

Do u have gastric issues? Both are interlinked with depression

Ts, exercises fixes depression.

1. Your heart will hate what it takes to be better. Start with walking. FORCE yourself to walk, use public transport, not just driving. Walking helps you to engage your body and brain where to go.

Depression is mostly a heart problem, medication doesn't solve heart problem but causes even more side effect. Unless depression anxiety runs in your fam, don't take. The pharma industry is evil and money driven, not mental health driven.

2. Talk to your good friends

Social support is so important. Ask old people secret to a long life, it's about social support. Find friends to talk to and encourage each other.
Anxiety is trying to control something that is out of your control. You see where the problem is.

1. Learn to let go.

As I write this, it's a reminder to ourselves to let go things we cannot control. We are not God so we don't play God. We do our part and pray for the best

2. Tame your monkey brain

I can relate this. Your monkey brain will kong kong kong what if and imagine the worse possible scenario. Truth is 80% of the time those imagined stuff won't happen. Our brain does this to defend ourselves from harm which is part of survival instinct but it can go extreme. So tame it.

Talk to your friends again. They won't have your monkey brain and will help you dissect the problem better
Look up to the sky and realize we are very tiny creature. World is so big. Our problems in our monkey brain is actually bacteria size small.

Life is very simple. We over complicate it.

NinG

Go buy 100% dark chocolate. Snack on them after every meal.
Not nice but very good for depression.

Nutricraft or realfoodsources.

Then get plenty of sunshine around 10am sunshine where you can feel the heat. Min 20-30 minutes a day.

Get shoden ashwanganda. You can buy from bestvites.

Then get magnesium taurate or magnesium glycinate.

Don't just depend on meds.

That's what I did for my family member with depression. Now off meds already

I don't know what religion are you, but learn to start meditation.

Go thai massage to relax body and mind

Thats a contributing factor..major or minor. There are a lot more contributing factor TS is aware or unaware of. Insight only can be gained with knowledge. If the mind and body is strong, emotion will be more resilliant.

How old are you TS if mind asking ? Early 20/30 or late 20/30.

By the way as another member said you need a psychologist/counsellor/therapist because physiatrist will just keep giving you pills to temporarily rest your mind. You need to solve the root cause to this. If relationship is the issue, perhaps look for couple therapy. I wish you well.

I went to my usual GP and was prescribed Xanax. I am almost to the point of abusing it because the dosage given to me no longer works. I don't really depend on it now because I still have to face my issues the next day.

I am in my late 30s here and dealing with stagnant life (in every aspect)
I feel like I have to live this way on autopilot until my last breathe for my sanity. Sometimes when the body and mind can no longer take it, you will be numb automatically as a way to cope.

Try going out frequently. No need to spend any money when you go outside

I mean, just walk around the park, or anywhere else.

It's part of activity that can reduce the depression and anxiety

So u are M and other half is F
Got issue 1 & 2 la..

Huhu..
This one issue 1 & 2, only solution is upfront tell ur other half on it..

If she cannot change, then you have to change for your own betterment..

Goodluck.. hope will turn out good

TS you quoted this in one of your reply.

"In reality life, when I without my partner, Im truly ok. But when with him, everything became uneasy again. I guess that's the part need to be fix"

Have you thought of a cooling period without him, not under same roof? You are married, any kids?