Death itself. But you'll not regret because you've done your best and chased your dream.

This is human's aim in life to make life meaningful and chase after your dreams. That is why you push forward with thick skin and ignore all critics that belittle you.

Dei, employment is not a good measure. Its hardly a mystery, its super common.

You know how many idiots I deal with on a daily basis in corporate? Plenty of worthless people are hired, so being hired doesn't really say much.

You think its so easy to just change people around you especially in a workplace just to f`k around with you? Its not, and you're not worth going through such effort. If they want to experiment with you, since you say you loner, kidnapping you and throwing you somewhere makes a lot more sense than giving you freedom to move about.

Bottom line is, the world doesn't revolve around you. You're insignificant in the grand scheme of things, we all are. If you can understand and accept this, all your problems will go away.

Hey I know you hate me, I’m willing to kill myself, can you suggest a method with the least amount of suffering
I have never felt a stronger urge to die, I might change my mind next week, if you want me to die you gotta help me quick

Sorry, you're not even worth me hating la. Just like I don't hate a barking dog.

This is your problem. You think too highly of yourself that you some how matter, but you don't. All your suffering comes from the dichotomy between your perceived value vs your actual value.

Dei, employment is not a good measure. Its hardly a mystery, its super common.

You know how many idiots I deal with on a daily basis in corporate? Plenty of worthless people are hired, so being hired doesn't really say much.

You think its so easy to just change people around you especially in a workplace just to f`k around with you? Its not, and you're not worth going through such effort. If they want to experiment with you, since you say you loner, kidnapping you and throwing you somewhere makes a lot more sense than giving you freedom to move about.

Bottom line is, the world doesn't revolve around you. You're insignificant in the grand scheme of things, we all are. If you can understand and accept this, all your problems will go away.

I’m only allowed to talk to people arranged by them

Care to share who is "them"?

I’m only allowed to talk to people arranged by them

Care to share who is "them"?

His "them" are is illusionary schizo beings who follows him around even in other places and cities. He can't get rid of them or dare to confront them to turn tables ini kalilah!

Why would people bother a loser or a nobody?

The answer is not so simple

Could be somewhere along this line

Some sort of entity, I call it higher power > the deep state > government > operatives > bosses, social circle etc etc

What you do for living? Professinal hacker? Assassin? Drug dealer? Or you just delusion?

You can't talk about it yet you wrote a post in forum? If "them" really exist, wouldn't they knew what you been sharing?

Get some help...

I’ve changed my mind about committing suicide, Because you focused on useless insults

I want to live till the day your jaw drop for realizing how wrong you are, I won’t forget you

Had to look up the term dei

If you were saying i was an disability hire due to autism

I don’t have an official diagnosis, I visited several doctors to verify my autism, non of them agree

My mensa score from 2021 was above 95 percentile with a standard deviation of 15, if I’m borderline retarded my iq should be double digits

Good, I kept you alive
If you IQ so high, you wouldn't have needed to look up the term "dei", which I guarantee you got the wrong meaning in the context which it is used here. Any Malaysian would know what dei means 

I do fake jobs arranged by them

Who say I can’t talk about it

The last time I tell people that my colleagues are the evidence, they changed the whole crew, took away my special treatment and arranged another job for me

Probably worse

Constant surveillance

The answer is not so simple

Could be somewhere along this line

Some sort of entity, I call it higher power > the deep state > government > operatives > bosses, social circle etc etc

That's your answer right? If you can share then what's up with the "this > that > another bigger dude > biggest dude ever"?

Then this The last time I tell people that my colleagues are the evidence, they changed the whole crew, took away my special treatment and arranged another job for me, what are you Jason Bourne? Some undercover cop?

are you a baby?

FYI the sequence is the other way round, > is literally the mathematical sign for bigger

In regards to who I am, I have not done anything significant, I went through years of digging around while enduring gangstalking, I used to think that it’s because I accidentally viewed some classified information or insulted some cop but none of them make sense

I mean just because I feel pain doesn’t mean I can describe h the pain in full details or the source of the pain

Have you heard about the chosen ones

Dude, get help...