There's nobody arranged by anybody

People ghost you because you're weird, not because there's some grand plan to keep you isolated.

You're a nobody, and "being chosen" is your way of coping with your worthlessness to the world. Thinking that anyone would spend any effort to monitor you is outright delusional

You're here in /k looking for help rather than many other places. If that's the level of your IQ you can't be that worth while la

What you're having is a bug (computing term) in your brain that makes you see meaning in everything. Its the same error in judgement and rationale that leads to conspiracy theories. This only manifest in people whose lives have so little meaning so they seek really hard to find a greater meaning in the world by inflating their self importance.

Dei, employment is not a good measure. Its hardly a mystery, its super common.

You know how many idiots I deal with on a daily basis in corporate? Plenty of worthless people are hired, so being hired doesn't really say much.

You think its so easy to just change people around you especially in a workplace just to f`k around with you? Its not, and you're not worth going through such effort. If they want to experiment with you, since you say you loner, kidnapping you and throwing you somewhere makes a lot more sense than giving you freedom to move about.

Bottom line is, the world doesn't revolve around you. You're insignificant in the grand scheme of things, we all are. If you can understand and accept this, all your problems will go away.

Sorry, you're not even worth me hating la. Just like I don't hate a barking dog.

This is your problem. You think too highly of yourself that you some how matter, but you don't. All your suffering comes from the dichotomy between your perceived value vs your actual value.

Good, I kept you alive

If you IQ so high, you wouldn't have needed to look up the term "dei", which I guarantee you got the wrong meaning in the context which it is used here. Any Malaysian would know what dei means

If he was Malaysian or just spent a few days here, he would know. High IQ people catch on to patterns quick. You didn't even realise the context, and jumped to the wrong conclusion. Even the dumbest Malaysian wouldn't have bothered to look up "dei" as its part of common parlance.

Maybe you do have a high IQ when tested, but you don't have the rest of the mental faculties to actually put it to good use, so effectively your IQ is low.